Man, my blog's seriously rotting but I'm just too lazy to update. =/
Actually there's nothing much to post about, only that I've got my act-pro cam.
Hah, I feel really out of touch with some ppl now, most probably because I haven't
been attending all the gatherings etc.

Hmm, life after Os is kinda terrible, even though I have all the time in the world.
Its funny that I keep thinking of how I used to sleep in Chemistry class, or Physics
class, now that I have time, but in those classes, how I hoped lessons would be over soon.
Ironic. Okay whatever, err & I also can't stop thinking about 12 jan, or is it 15 jan. Damn,
how scary it would be to see unexpectedly-horrible results.

Err okay this post is getting nowhere, I shall.. uhh wait till there's something worth to
post. Till then, Merry Christmas and happy holidays. (:

O levels are finally over & I'm back! :) After O levels, everyone was like busy preparing for grad night. The feeling of being able to shop freely for our stuff was kinda nice, like we had all the time in the world, but at some point of time, it got a little bit boring. Heh, busy people might kill me.

Then time passed quick, and grad night was finally here! Lots of pics were taken and everyone looked positively stunning! All the hunks and babes. :D:D

2/2 o6, with some ppl missing.

4/3 o8

Mrs Chan and the 4 of us(:

Uhh, Ms Low and the 5 of us(:

I shan't show the jing dian photo!! (cause I look bad in it) Bleh! Hahaha. & I didn't bring any camera to take photo with others!

Hmm, & there's some photos that were taken during graduation assembly, but due to the nearing O lvls, I didn't post them. So here they are,

2/2o6 family!
4/3 girls!

Uhhm, feel your goosebumps?(:
Oh, this was so touching. I couldn't help but tear.=(
Hmmm...
Us! In the hall during grad assembly.
Oops!! (:
Cynthia! (:
Ms Low and the 2/2 guys
Look at my constipated face! (Sam's enjoying it!! Haha)
Ms Low & the 5 of us.

Okay, that's all for today. FYI, I'm in Malaysia after travelling around 7 hours by car from home in Spore. (:

Its farewell assembly today. 4 years in this school, & its finally our turn. I must admit I was really shocked when I was dragged down all the way from the second level by Sam and Yingxin to meet Cheryl and Jacquelyn, seniors that we sent off during graduation assembly 2 years ago. It really brought back memories. Thanks for the chocolates! (:

The form teachers sang 'My wish', I suppose you could say they sang it from the bottom of their hearts, which made the song even more real. Most students were touched I think, save for Qh(as always - so unfeeling, haha kiddin').

I was definitely reminded of the farewell assembly last year, & when we walked the red carpet to exit, gosh, the stupid tears kept flowing. I fumbled with the cards I wanted to give the teachers, haha & I was so afraid that my hands would tremble and I would drop the stack of cards. The line of students moved slowly, because they were all busy hugging the teachers for the last time. Seeing the teachers' cry, I reckon, made lots of ppl cry too. Haha, but it was definitely comforting to know they would miss us. Oh and I can't believe I hugged Mr Siva. Haha he hugged all the Ug ppl I think.

Then outside the hall, the graduands gathered, & we were met with the beloved sec 2s. I'm elated that they actually took the effort to prepare gifts for us, and come to school just to see us. Thank you Vivian for the cheesecake, I know I still owe you mudpie. (: Then I think I practically went around hugging people. And PinLiang was definitely the jing dian, he went around hugging the 2/2o6 guys, and then he cried! Pinliang leh! Its so surprising, haha, because normally he'd be going around bullying people. (: Then afterwards was phototaking time. Everyone just went around with their cameras & like grabbed anyone they see to take photos with.

Later on, we proceeded to KFC, our usual haunt, for dinner. Julian came along too! Haha, that's rare. Must be because of you-know-who. Ehehe.

Today, a momentous day, I think I won't ever forget. Especially that hug. (Ehehe, Pinliang, its not yours! Haha)

Surprisingly, this post isn't that that emo. In fact, its quite cheery. Okay I shall continue with an emo post the next time I blog. (:

Gosh, its been..let me see..more than a month since my last post. Anyway its one more week to farewell assembly, that's fast, huh. Considering the fact that 1 year ago, I'd just attended my seniors'. And also, in 2 weeks time, its O levels! (uhh wow?). There's no more 'oh aiya we still have 3 more chances..2 more chances..', this is the last chance. Oh well, prelim results weren't great, but there's a significant improvement from common test. So let's just hope the plane flying to Cambridge with our O lvls exam scripts don't crash or anything.

My life's now a bore, so there's nothing to post about. Perhaps after Os, I'd be flooding my blog with posts again. I can't wait! (:

天使的烙印主题曲
吕婉嘉 - 就现在

也许是你忘记等待
还是逃避我们的未来
每一次都是我忍住泪然后离开
不用说我都已明白
爱情不容需三个人存在
我只是不够他对你依赖

我还是不明白最简单的对白
你都说的那么让人觉得不自在
到头来我竟然只剩下一片空白

I will be fine
我知道这一切是命运安排
我会明白
回忆只会让人重复受伤害
I won’t cry
如果泪才学会看清楚未来
把你放开 耿耿于怀 不对你期待
就现在

What if someone really close to you goes away?
Will you let him/her just slip away?
Even if its only in your dreams?

Just a short post; I must control the strong urge to blog.
Haha, & so, prelims have officially started and its like 58
days to O levels.

I want to comment about my performance for the first 2
days of the prelims - first 4 papers. I seriously think I
screwed up all of them. Especially the English paper 1.
I was like in tremendous discomfort la! The pain disabled
me to fully concentrate. Man, I think I'll be failing English
again. I think I'm so disadvantaged! & Mrs Ismail set a
killer paper for Geography, and I don't have much
common sense, so I couldn't crap out perfect answers
for her paper. Sigh.

Oh and, Mrs Ang has been very nice to patiently teach me
Maths. I think I'll be the death of her, cause you see, I
take a superbly long time to absorb things. Anyway, thank
you Mrs Ang! (awwwww..) erm, but seriously. Haha.

I can't wait for prelims to be over.

The soothing talk at Coffee Bean was really great. Umm, though of course I felt kinda guilty thinking about the comments I made & not forgetting the facial expressions I portrayed then, as I made my way home. Yesterday would be another indelible memory.

We were able to sit down, the 7 & the usual 4 at kfc TOGETHER. Have I mentioned before, that 7 is my favourite number? Anyway, it was really nice to be able to do that again. To literally 'bitch' around & have quite a number of ppl staring at us etc. I wonder when the next time will be. It was really interesting to have Pearlyn sitting beside me, hahaha, & I outraged her modesty. Eheh, oops. & Vivian actually had gastric. Haha, I can't believe her reaction to gastric would be like that. x_x heh, oops again. & after we left kfc, we went to hub supposedly to get a present. After getting it, we settled at Coffee Bean, because we craved for their cakes. Ended up, we talked for around 4 hours. Weird huh, not to mention that prelims are in another........12 days.

Anyway, enough about prelims. Oh, I went jogging today, of course, to try and erase ystd's troubles. Omg, but it didn't work. I'm still as bothered by it as yesterday. & of course, by ignoring ** yesterday, did not mean I'll ignore ** today. & I didn't; which sucks. Because I always fail when I say I'll ignore someone or something. Sighh. Okay, I shall try to get over it. I suppose, I will in a few days time.

Lastly, Happy National Day. & happy birthday xiuxian.

Okay, this is really insane. Or rather, I'm going insane.
Sort of exploded at kfc. Told them how I was feeling, though
of course I knew they would never comprehend it the way
I did. Afterall, we all view things from different perspectives.

After venting it out at kfc, I'm still feeling really sore
about it, so I'm seeing the need to reiterate my point
by typing this post. Not to mention, I feel the strong
urge to bang my fists against the wall.

I'm perplexed. I'm irate! Gosh, I totally do not comprehend
why people can dislike others so much, when they don't
even know the other party! What makes things even
more sore is, that I really regard both parties as great
friends. ABCDEFG.

On top of that, I'm feeling utterly disgusted by myself
as my impression of a certain someone has been
wavered! I don't believe this myself. I think I suck.
Boo. =(

Though it might seem as an issue which you would
dismiss it oh-so-easily, but somehow I'm superbly
bothered by it!
Gaaaaaaaaaaaahhh!

'I like the word evil. Scramble it a little, and you get vile and live. Good, on the other hand, is just a command to go do.'

- Jodi Picoult

& I am evil. (:

Truth is, I haven't been studying much, of late. I suppose I can't expect that great a result since I haven't put in my best.

Anyway, seeing how others get so busy with both CCA and studies really touches a raw nerve. Because at this time, last year, I wasn't even that busy at all.

I admire how others are able to so perfectly pen down their thoughts and feelings, to be able to describe everything to its minute detail, something that I am never able to do. Sometimes, I really want to find the right word to describe myself at that very moment in time, but always fail to do so. & all around me I see people that are so blessed, that have everything go their way; and then I see many others that are ill-fated, that nothing goes their way. I wonder which category I belong to.

I'm always at the halfway mark. Studies. CCA. Sports. Piano. Even Friends and Happiness, I'm always only halfway there. Sometimes, I envisage myself at the opposite end of the globe, living a life totally different from what I'm having now. Not that I'm being emotional (emo), and fyi I really detest the word 'emo', but its good to imagine. Damn. Now even I'm unsure of my point. I keep digressing. Sighhhh.

I just want the sec 3 life back. Because then, days go on without me being constantly fearing about what happens next etc. At least I was entitled to find solace in my CCA, whenever I was upset. Oh well, nevermind.

Watching intently as the rain drops fell yesterday, I finally took time to sort out my incoherent mind. Everything was jumbled up, & for a moment I couldn't remember what I was doing in school in the first place. I realised, with the guidance of a special someone, that everyone does things for a reason. Not that I didn't know that before, but now I really know. Perhaps I was selfish, to not say it was my fault; to not tell them I had contributed to the idea. What had happened? What had gone through the minds of the ones we'd groomed? They suddenly seemed so different, so distant, so complex.

I couldn't comprehend, why they'd become like this or why they had entertained such thoughts. I couldn't fathom, why we're totally pushed aside or why we weren't entitled to know even just that little bit. I couldn't decipher, who had been in the wrong or why they're upset. I couldn't perceive, what was more important than the matter they had at hand. I just couldn't.

When it was around this time last year, we weren't like this. I remembered it was damn hard for us, but yesterday I realised, it might be harder for you. Now you see why we can't sign the form? Now you see why we might never be able to don on that white long-sleeved top and white skirt? Now you see why, because there's a communication problem. Even before we leave the school we have this problem. What happens after we leave?

Some are still stuck back in time. They keep digging up the past. Why repeat it when everyone's fine? Perhaps you want me to never talk to you again? You're unfathomable, just like I am to you. I missed that friendship once, but after yesterday passed, I am missing it no more. You guess why. I'd put it behind, & tried ways and means to help you too, but you chose yesterday, when I was all messed up to bring it up again. You hurt, but is it only you? You were the one who dug up all the miserable contents. I CAN'T UNDERSTAND WHY!

Currently, I still holding back, because I'm sieving my words. Afterall, others might be reading this, & I'm mindful of the impact it may cause if I phrase my words incorrectly.

Oh well, on a slightly happier note, I had one of the most soothing talks with Qh ystd. Man, that setting we had ystd might never come again!! A slight breeze, quiescent surroundings and an interesting topic at hand. Oh and not forgetting the background music coming from Pierce sec supposedly; everything blended together to grant us the perfect place for a light-hearted chat.

Also, it was Goh Yilin's birthday, they celebrated at drivethrough Mac. Some fantastic people chose our seat outdoors, you see, drivethrough Mac provides outdoor shelters where people can dine in as well. (: Not that dining outdoors is a bad idea, just that there's this irksome cat which freaks most of the girls at out table out. Especially Qh, & what made me start to laugh was her distinguished fear for that cat. I know I wasn't being nice, but a girl of 170++cm being afraid of a tiny, furry, cute cat and jumping about in fear was really comical. It was the first time Edna finished her meal before Qh, because Qh was busy avoiding the cat. Qh consumed her meal on tenterhooks as she kept an eagle's view of any approaching cat. Winny saved the 'damsel' in distress by carrying the cat more than once, out of our dining area.

After dinner, people took turns to produce jokes for entertainment, only that not all were funny. It wasn't till Vivian and Kewei left that Vivien started to tell her supernatural stories. It freaked most of us out when Yilin suddenly rose from her seat & screamed, like really screamed. However, turns out that it was just her thoughts making her afraid. We all left soon after, and Pearlyn grabbed my arm tightly as we proceeded to our bus stops.

That's basically all of yesterday. Happy birthday Yilin.

Ultimately, its still the old days that matters most. That pang of nostalgia hit me real hard during awards night. Though this photo is incomplete, I have that feeling it will never be possible to make it complete again.

Okay, so awards night didn't go as smoothly, (to put it bluntly), because there were considerably many cock-ups. Perhaps it was too last minute due to the recent NOMAD; anyway, it was kinda hilarious to actually see how people around me got anxious when it was almost their turn to receive their awards. Haha, that's because when you receive your award, a screen bearing your Sec 1 photo will be put up. & sad to say, that photo of mine wasn't at all cute or innocent. It just looked dumb. =( Still, I was positive that seeing these photos brought smiles and laughter to everyone in the hall as we reminisced our Sec 1 days. It sorta lightened up the atmosphere in the hall.

After the whole event was over, we proceeded downstairs to slack and chit-chat; so different from last year, or year before, where we would be the ones clearing up the hall & being labelled the saikang warriors. I can't deny that I miss those days, but its time to let go. The Ugians gathered for photos, and the girls clamoured to take photos with the guys! Haha. An interesting sight, I'm glad to say.

Oh, so that's all for award's night that I can think of. I shall end with a last picture.

As I said, people have their limits. & at times, their close
friends or buddies might just unknowingly cross the
boundaries. Just a mere sentence might spark unhappiness.

Perhaps everyone should learn to give each other space.
Just some cooling-down time for things to settle a lil' bit.

Aside from generalising, I suppose the past few days I
have been stoical to the happenings around me, save for
the fact that I still chatter alot, but of course, mostly to
my maths partner. I presume I have left numerous people
around me perplexed at my abstruse behaviour; its
unintentional, I'm serious.

Another lingering occurrence is the walk up the arduous
8 flights of stairs from the ground floor to 4/3. At
that time, it really wouldn't have hurt if someone could
have just voiced out a word or something; not only because
it was a terribly awkward silence, but also because it was
unprecendented. But everyone eschewed the task of being
the first to speak. Oh well, who knows what the individuals
are thinking. After all, human minds are hard to fathom;
though sometimes others try so hard to figure what you're
thinking when in actual fact you might just be thinking of
what you'll be having for lunch(for example). Don't get me
wrong, cause its not meant to be humourous or sth, I'm
just trying to make clear that most of the time, people think
too much.

And, I shall skip the topic of Awards Night as it causes much
disturbance, I presume.

Gahhhhhh, well on a lighter note, I'm getting those unsightly
metal braces cemented onto my teeth next week. Not that
that's a bad thing. Just that, did I mention, since young
I have this phobia of dentists, & that it would take much
more than a hurricane to blow me into the dentist's patient
room. I did count my blessings when the dentist told me
I'm spared from the extraction of any tooth in my mouth,
however my parents are paying so that I must endure the
sour feeling when small plastic bands are put between my
teeth to seperate them. Man, I wonder how I'd look with
small metal cubes on my individual teeth held together
by a metal wire. Seems like the dentists' will be my new
hangout.

Lastly, I wish to dream of fabulous Biology results tonight.
Cause I totally screwed Physics up.
I should have known better. Physics is easier than Biology.

Oooh & of course, HAPPY BIRTHDAY to Ms Poon.
Heh, don't misunderstand, I'm not referring to the
elegant science teacher(if I'm not wrong) teaching
in our fantabulous school.

I'm referring to the student from 4/4. She has her
own idiosyncratic gestures which at most times I
shy away from. Heh, anyway, here's wishing you a
really HAPPY 16 birthday! To Samantha Poon=)))

Okay, I'm undeniably happy now! Haha, I guess chatting with people you haven't chatted with for a long time makes you really elated! Plus the national day songs coming out of my earphones really soothes all the day's unhappiness.

However, I still have left a high-standard english summary I haven't completed. I shall go do it lest Mrs Chung flies into a rage when she finds out I haven't completed it by her extended dateline. (Though I know she won't=))

Cya.

Okay, like my exam partner said, CTs are over. One hurdle crossed, but days to the big Os draw nearer. The anticipation of CT's results are killing me, though I know I most probably will either just scrape through or fail, but I can't help but think that I will be on cloud nine if I actually do surprisingly well. Sighhhhhhhh, Chemistry was obviously a killer, quite like its setter. Heh, man, I actually dreamt I got reprimanded by her. A nightmare, yes!

Oh & I realised, without RC activities, I find that I don't have much to blog about. Apart from occassional outings, oh wait, there was only 1 recent one, okay then I shall blog about that. Yesterday, the usuals caught a movie together. It was entitled Penelope, pronounced as Pen-ell-lo-pee, haha about this girl being born with a pig's snout. 3 out of 5 stars for me. Then we walked around plaza sing, its so close to RC HQ. Nostalgia, but just a teeny weeny bit. Daiso, the $2 shop really fascinated me. They had all sorts of interesting things there, all priced at $2, sounds cheap but getting just a handful of items may cost a bomb. We all spent around $10 each just in that shop. However, I'm really satisfied, because I was able to purchase items that hold much meaning. We left soon after we got what we wanted.

I hurried to take the mrt to clementi with Yifang, which is on the green line, so I didn't estimate the time from Dobhy Ghaut to Clementi. Ended up waiting for an hour for my parents; for the first half hour though, I enjoyed sitting there, cause at that time I somehow had lots of things to think of. But the next half an hour, I was practically dozing off while sitting upright. What's more, the weather was really humid & there was not much of a breeeze, so the 1 hour wait was really !@#$%. Anyway, I went to a Korean restaurant with a group of around 20 ppl, & my table was 2 tables away from Allan Wu, Wong Lilin & their families. Okay I know, its no big deal, but afterall she's still the lead actress of the movie Leap Years, so she is somebody right. Oh, but the dinner was not for me, the authentic korean dishes had a weird taste, gosh & dining in such a fine restaurant was extremely pricey.

Okay, can I say that's all? Yea, I'm too lazy to blog anymore. What's more, there's school tomorrow. Oh, & unfortunenately I don't foresee myself getting exceedingly good grades. Sighhhhh..

Leona Lewis American Idol Performance

See, she can sing live incredibly well!


okay, I'm probably mad from studying?

still LEONA LEWIS :DDDD

She's a wonderful singer!

The day started off really weird. Hey afterall, its Friday the 13th! Reached Dobhy Ghaut just in time, met the cadets. (ex-cadets but they still call me ma'am). Did some recap with them before proceeding to the Red Cross House, a place that I'm so used to already, though not being within some's sight. It was the place I'd been coming to since I was in primary school; the premises stands strong over the years & there's no major alteration to its semblance.

Walked up the spiral stairway to RCTC room 2, & expressions of nervousness started to surface. That wasn't a strange sight, as both Winny & I, the 2 licensed oldies, were getting it too. We decided to leave the room after a while, so as not to absorb the candidates' stress. Instead we settled for fresh air, at the mouth of the RC house, a light talk & random topics. Time passed & then it was time for bandaging & CPR. We the oldies were quite discomposed, trying our luck at hinting as our job was to do so. The CPR was even worse, the tension gradually building, as the candidates were to enter the room singly. The examiner seemed as if she could eat my girls n guy up.

Wasn't it upsetting that I couldn't stay for the results?!! Haha. Anyway, congrats to this clamorous yet astoundingly amazing batch of sec 1s. Their results were laudable & I could see due amount of effort put into studying for this test. But its worth it, cause when you pass, you'll be a licensed & certified first aider! You'll get your own license which is so cool!

Ehhm okay, then I went to Cairnhill place to get the X-ray done. Then rushed back to school with Winny, managing to catch a glimpse of the Land ROD. But it was the best part! The marching past of the graduating batch, & I felt glad, that there was some 22o6 ppl in the squad of green. As the weeks passed, more UGians of 22o6 get their Retirement Of Duty or Passing Out Parades. I reminisced the times when we were still under our sirs/ma'ams wing, & cadets of different UG, namely Land, Air, Guides, Boy's Brigade & Red Cross, spending time together doing drills. As time passed & we entered sec 3, our wings were then fully-fledged; 22o6 UGians assumed the higher roles of each unit. Knowing each other pretty well, negotiations were able to reach an agreement, & we all came closer together. That made life in UG the more worthwhile.

& today Qinjie made a special mention towards 22o6 UGians during his speech, I think he left us all in awe. I have to say, Wong Qinjie does drive me up the wall at times with his temperament, yet he still knows how to do something afterward to save his skin. =)) Anyway, congrats big green guy, I think we'll be seeing you in a RED beret during your NS time. Haha.

Okay, I'm lazy to continue from here. The rest are 'mundane' details. Haha, just kidding. Played with the sec 2s cause they jio us out for lunch. We made a din at Sumo house before proceeding to my house. We played 'cat-and-mouse' all the way from AMK to KHATIB. It was fun, but kinda exhausting for old people like me.

Today was really really !!!! Haha, the series of events kept going, like an unstoppable film. But I want another today. & ANTICIPATION is my new cool word.

Cya.

Farewell party: an indelible 2 hours.
Though farewells couldn't go without speeches,
when it was my turn to go up and make one, I
realised then it was really redundant. Perhaps
I do better while writing.

I can't say so for the rest, because I could sense
their innermost feelings & how they reach out
to their audience. They just have the gift for speech.
Anyway, it was astounding to actually witness the
ones who cried so badly; they weren't whom I thought
would, though it is comforting to envisage why they
were crying for. The video presented wasn't that moving,
as just like mine was last year. I didn't cry, just like they
didn't.

At that particular point in time when we were
distributing our gifts, & I walked over to the
sec 1s & 2s to give out mine, I was brought
back to when I was in sec 1 & 2, where no NCO
would actually really bother about the
existence of sec 1s & 2s, as the emphasis
would be concentrated on the graduating batch
as well as the batch taking over. The sec 1s
and 2s will only just be presented with
little minute gifts of encouragement for
their upcoming years in Red Cross. Also
the programmes in store for the graduating
batch were always last-minute. &
each batch of cadets would only prepare
their performance during the camp itself.
Therefore it is consolatory to know that sec 2s
have put in commendable effort for our
farewell party, in collaboration with our VI
and our YOs. & I hope that sec 1s didn't feel
that left out either.

I wonder if this'll be the end of my RC
journey, as the saying goes that all good
things must come to an end. Those remarkable
times as a unit will never be effaced. & as we
all know how much you girls hope for us
to become VIs, let me tell you that if we
become VIs, things will still nvr be the same
again. There will be times when you purposely
keep us out of your conversations cause we
ought not to know some things, & there will
be a deep gap between us & you; in terms
of friendship as well as ma'am-cadet r/s.
Problems will arise & you'll find it hard to
even communicate with us.

Its easy for you girls to say 'be a VI'.
Its easy for us to say 'yes'.
But it might not be easy for us to work
together. Moreover, what's the
difference of us being a VI or being a
senior? I guess time will tell our
decision, so until then, you will all be
kept in suspense.

That's all for my promised entry. I
procrastinated, but definitely with
a valid reason! (:

I guess I'm the last one to actually open up Blogger & actually start typing sth solid to post. Well, just one piece of redundant info to all readers for a start, because I'm wallowing in self pity; my hard disk crashed, & I've lost all my pictures, videos & documents. Okay, one day when I'm really free I shall collect them back again.

Anyway, POP is over. The camp started as a major cock-up, I think no one will deny that, but I suppose things gradually got better as the sec 3s got more & more used to being the ICs. Conquer O on Friday seemed especially long, though I can't picture why. So when it was finally over, the 'slacker' NCOs went down to the RC room to dump our stuff there. I suppose at that time, no one really felt that that would be the last 2 days we can still claim the room is ours.

Ehmm, okay as for the minute details, I have to skip. So, digressing to after our food shopping spree, the 6 NCOs returned to school & merrily started a fire for our outdoor cooking. At that time, the joy of being able to actually sit outside the redcross room to peacefully eat a meal was very satisfying. Picture a dark sky, dim lights from the corridor, & the warmth of the flame coming from under the mass tins, not forgetting the aroma of the food cooking. Okay well, its just so family-like.

& at night, that was when the 'camp' really started. Well, I know the sec 2s will hate me for what I've done, though no one will actually be so blunt to say it out. I just hope you'll be able to endure, no matter how tough things are. D'you know how much it hurt to actually stand there and watch you all crumble? But someone still has to do the dirty job. & after the plenty drilling sessions, we all sincerely hope that you'd all grow, to acheive BIG things. Because we can see potential.

As for sec 1s, like I said, I don't really know you people yet. But it is definitely visible that you all have sort of understood a few of the many rules of being a UGian. The road upcoming ain't easy, that's for sure. But as long as there's passion, as well as due effort, things will flow smoothly. I was glad & amazed that sec 1s, being sec 1s, could really improve overnight. Their drills improved the very next day, & their mindset of 'no, I'm not ready for POP' could change to 'YES, I'm ready for POP'. You could say it was heartwarming.

After 'tucking' the dear cadets into 'bed', the NCOs retired for the night as well. A few knocked out straightaway. Qh & I were the 'survivors'. She passed time playing Vanessa's PSP, while I sat quietly in thought, or rather I was trying to go to sleep. Qh mumbled nonsensical stuff out, which the half-asleep Vanessa would stifle out a laugh. At that time, it was around 3.00am. Awhile later, the rain came, bringing about a refreshing breeze. It was cold, but Qh & I ventured out of our cosy abode. Then we plonked onto the chairs at the foyer, cause not much strength was left of our tired bodies. A small conversation was held, afterwhich we slept. Apparently I couldn't sleep, which was such a waste, cause my eyelids were drooping but my brain just didn't want to shut down yet. When I finally could, my stomach had to cruelly wake me up; I felt like vomitting so I hurriedly switched positions, till I was sitting on the foyer floor. Pathetic huh, but then again, not long after, I was awoken by Edna, it was 5.ooam. How timely.

We tried to wake the sleeping beauty up, but she didn't budge, so we took a walk & gave a morning call to the cadets. They responded to our first call. (: PT was next, initially I ran with them, but decided to stay back to attend to the 'patients'. At least it was fruitful, as I made my first talk with Joey & Hwee Tong.

Time crawled by before it was the last rehearsal for POP. Everyone was perked up by that time, & were able to execute considerably standard drills upon Cx's command. As the 'guests' slowly arrived, the NCOs were donning on their immaculate uniform filled with badges. It was busy time for the sec 3s as they had to boost the morale of the sec 1s & 2s, to gear them up for their grand entrance. As the Guard-Of-H& honour contingent marched smartly into the parade square, I could feel the stares from all around. I suppose the six of us were bursting with pride, a sight not to be missed. As the parade commenced, things were going awry as cock-ups surfaced. & when the GOH contingent blasted the final cheer, the voices were filled with enthusiasm, & at the end, we won applauds from the audience; Yf pulled of my beret too.

It was after the parade that many unexpected incidents came simultaneously. That incured my wrath & all I could do was to helplessly pace around the 2nd floor of our school. Deep in thought, I held onto the 2 keys linked together by a keyring. I realised that there's always only room for 2, which leaves me feeling uneasy. After I was satisfied, I stopped & returned to the stuffy room. It was still hours to go before the anticipated farewell party. Everyone preoccupied themselves with something; I was still disorientated & fidgety. Finally as the minutes inched nearer, the NCOs got ready to leave the room. Outside stood the sec 2s, who were adamant about putting on bandages for us. Fortunately I managed to get away, & ended up behind a pillar less than 10m from the AVA room. No one could find me, until Yiling spotted me.

Digressing, I realised my post is redundantly lengthy. I didn't bother to summarise my words, & at some points, I too realised that I have no idea what I'm typing. Well the farewell party shall be explained at a later date, when I feel I have the inspiration to type. As for now, I shall sleep, & tmr there's still the maths camp. Sighhhhhhh.

I flipped through my report book at an attempt to act like studious student a few days ago.
One where he/she would try to compare results & look at the areas for inprovement.

Then I unknowingly flipped the pages to look at my results during my sec 2 days.
& my eyes scrolled to the bottom of the page where the remarks read that I
have a cheerful & friendly disposition that is endearing to teachers & fellow
peers. I'm having second thoughts as I re-read it in my mind.

Perhaps I have changed. Another one of the remarks read: She needs to be more
focused during lessons and not be easily distracted by other matters. Other matters
referring to my beloved sitting partner.

However I'd wish that I'm distracted by my peers rather than being distracted
by evil thoughts or just plain air. Imagine being distracted by plain air!

Should I feel chagrined at my absurd attitude towards her? Should I go on
deceiving myself?

With O lvl's chinese down, its feels as if a huge burden has been removed.
Anticipated for this day to be over, even though its only the first paper.
However there's this undescribable feeling, as if i'm so pressed for time.

Time just slowly ticks away when you want it to pass fast, but it flies just
when you want it to slow down.

I completed my Paper1 half an hour before time's up. Sitting at my desinated
place in the hall, with my name printed on a piece of sticker stuck at the top right
hand corner of my table, I looked around. I noticed the invigilators' stares, so I
stared back. Then I looked at the 2 huge digital clocks at the right & left side of
the hall. It felt like eternity before a minute passed. Everyone seemed so engrossed
in scribbling their answers on the answer booklet. & I seemed like the only one
sitting there with nothing to do. Just exactly like everyone's coloured, however I'm
the only one who's black & white.

My point is, even in studies, I'm simply just black & white, still stuck behind in time,
while the rest have visibly progressed through time.

Paper 2 started quick & ended the same way. I have no recollection of my feelings
as I was writing my answers. Perhaps there isn't a need to, because I will forget
soon enough!

Interesting, how I am able to describe fully my exact feelings when doing Paper 1, yet
have completely no thoughts about Paper 2. However, it ain't a big deal because over
time, it will just become yet another fragment of my memory.

It was a seemingly wonderful day out; spending precious time out on the streets
& at the malls was a great way to destress, we self-consolated. Many a time today,
indecisiveness set in, & we realised we were either walking aimlessly, or else just
standing at a corner in our quiet group of 3. Even so, it was wrong to do that because
an SMRT officer warned us to move off. Well well, in the end hasty decisions were made
& the places we decided to go proved unsuitable only once we've reached there.

Edna was obviously 'bullying' Sam today. Though it was sort of a spectacle to onlookers,
& we had our green uniforms donned on, but it was much of the only entertainment. At
times it was hilarious alright. Ehhm, did I laugh cause it was hilarious, or because I had
nothing to say? (This question is rhetorical!)

Man, I think I'm on the road to become a looney. (I speak to myself!!)
Gosh, I think I'm done for today. Anymore & I'll really turn mad. Literally?

So, Byeee.

Sometimes, acquaintances just click.

Well, had buffet at the supposedly 5 star Changi Hotel.
It was just okay-okay. But something else made this trip
memorable.

The acquaintance that I met, I will not forget. & that yellow
shirt too.


& its 3 more hours to dear mum's birthday.


O level's chinese is drawing nearer. So is POP.
Then I realise I'm going to turn 16 soon. Means
no more playing & everything. I should become
more mature. No more childish feelings or whatsoever.
& I realised, that things that I thought I will never
forget, I'm beginning to forget as time passes.

Let me just shrug my shoulders and simply say,
'I don't care anymore.'

O levels. I'm running my last lap. No more distractions,
I'm glad. No more weird messages. I'm in sec 4.

Today, finally it is complete. The 'family' portrait.
It definitely feels much more comfortable & soothing
when no one's missing.

I suppose this joy is inexplicable.

Eh, digressing a little, had our lunch at j8's kfc.
I had a Zinger, which oddly, didn't taste
like Zinger. Rather, it tasted horrible!! I thought
perhaps it was just my tastebuds, who knows
that when I finally could not take it that I voiced
it out, I realised that Yf & Qh had felt the same.
Immediately Yf dropped her burger, which was
kind of hilarious. Haha, is it true about the 'injecting
some liquid into the chicken' thing like what Mabel
had said?

Anyway, no matter what, I'm not going to eat
Zinger again; until unless of course, I feel the urge
to try it again.

Oh yea, back to the topic, it just feels good.
To be able to sit tgt, its heavenly bliss! (:
Sounds exaggerated though, but its been
a loooooooong time. & being tgt often brings
us closer!

And one more thing, cadets planning our
special event, must make it SPECIAL alright!
=DD It has to be exclusive to our batch only
okay. Hehs.

Anticipation(:

Myanmar Cyclone. 100000 dead.
Please donate, cash if possible;
to organisations involved to provide
aid for the victims.

Lets just say, you have described everything that I felt. My nonchalence towards everything, as well as my indifference, was an image I had promised myself. Because sometimes its just so difficult to face the forthcoming of an unexpected event. Exactly an event like. . .the dismal view of emptiness up ahead. Then you'll ask yourself, what happened to the usuals? Or where am I heading? Home? Are we going for lunch? Are they waiting for me? Or am I waiting for them?
The myriad of questions subconsciously appearing into your mind, endlessly.

Why is this even necessary, if people don't assume. & most of the time, however, we assume. Well its true that it takes initiave to be the one to voice out those simple questions, but who is the consistent one that, without fail, will ask these questions daily?

That's why it is said that people learn to cherish only when they realise their loss. Because when it is there, people don't realise its significance. & always assume it will always be there. However once it has disappeared, they ponder over its loss. Or maybe not? (Take for example this instance)

Sounds cliche right, the part where 'poeple learn to cherish only when they realise their loss', but astoundingly, every single word there makes absolute sense.

Anyway, I believe ours is but closely bonded camaraderie(not brotherhood, but sisterhood?); where sometimes avoidance is necessary, right?? Right.

And the prolonged silence in between is just to give us time to think of our next word, right?
Right again.

I do hope it ain't just self-consolation. Because it shouldn't be self-justification, as it requires every invovled person to recognise the above 2 lines.

That day will come, when we supposedly will meet once every 2 months; despite our new life, our new friends, & our hectic future. Roam the world together? Absorb the wondrous sight of New Zealand together? When now the presence of long silence-s & avoidance already awaits every day?

The current weather is seriously tormenting. The immense heat is driving me up the wall, you see. During English comprehension test, envisage yourself in an oven while doing a test. You'd go berserk, I tell you. I suppose its the effects of global warming? Plus, this heat makes everyone more irritable and less approachable.

Imagine that Weather, in the past where no one would take note of its existence, has become the crux of our vexation today. What about, bestowing upon us the great gift of rain; that would help.

Mg + O ---> MgO
Redox?
Chemistry?

Y'know, your chem lessons suck big time. & I swear I will nvr forget what you did! That made me dislike you so much; I nvr wanted this to happen. Cause in others' eyes, you were the perfect teacher, the one with a nice voice, the one with beautiful handwriting. Say that I think too much or whatever, I don't care. & I'm not the rude one, I didn't purposely throw those papers at you, but you'd always been the one to say nasty things to me. I bet you don't even know your words carried so much weight, right? But I'm a part of 2/2 'o6. Nth will change that fact, even if you'd nvr wanted me as your student!

Then what's this class now? Just a class where everyone's broken up into cliques? & its all about competitive studying, to beat one another in the upcoming tests. What's the point? So what if your results are better than someone else's? Does that make you happy?

Wouldn't being in a class where you receive care & concern from others be better than being in a class where criticism & sacarsism resound in between the 4 walls?

Why is it that for them, its the Ts that are continuously giving? Why are those Ss so lucky? They just take liberally, like the care & concern of the Ts is unlimited. Their Ts are willing to sacrifice time to be with them, to put those Ss who need help back onto the right track. But the Ss don't even care. If only, the Ts care & concern would be shown to us, its much more than we can ask for. & their care will surely be reciprocated. But again, its sth that can't ever happen.

Sam, ask why I can't go to your T to ask for help? That's because, when my own T wouldn't even care, your T ain't obliged to help me. & even I feel chagrined by this circumstance. You tell me why?? You've ruined the 'good T' impression I used to have of you. But I know I shouldn't ruin others' good impression of you.

surpressed, till I let it go today.
Sorry is all I can say.

I never meant for things to turn
out like this.

Council ceremony today. It was the last alr.
Took photos, as memories. Ain't it wonderful
that UG can bond ppl tgt?

Receptionist team was great!; Even though
the number of guests was few. The ceremony
had seen some cockups, but the emcees Benjamin
& Yilin did a great job in 'covering up'. ((((:
The video presentation was not bad either, cheers
to kl for the video.

Took the cadets for rounds around the sch,
taught them how to sing the Red Cross song.
However, that has caused some misunderstandings.
Sighhhhhhhhh.

Then there was the combined UG footdrills.
Apparently I 'fall out' during the drills. Which
is damn malu!! I have nvr 'fall out' during drills
before okay!! So diu lian. Sighhhhhhhhhh AGAIN.
Then Mendi had the same problem as me. Its
painful okay; though somehow, I will always
manage to endure throughout the process. =)))

Then we thought of doing 2/2 'o6 drills, like how
we used to. But we couldn't do proper drills cause
we had to take our own platoons. But no
matter what, 2/2'o6 will always have a place in
all our hearts!

And then sir Izuan gave his last speech, as
he is leaving for 6 months to go somewhere.
I don't know where. Anyway, gd luck.

This somewhat marks the end of our UG life.
Though in june, there's still the BIG thing.
I just hope we can step down in peace. Do our
last 'besurai' happily, and watch them take over.
Red Cross spirit runs in my veins! I won't forget.
Cause it shall be forever-and-a-day.

One message, was all it took to trigger those memories.

It took so long, to forget. Was close to succeeding, to just

forget that friendship you'd cruelly abandoned; picking it

up when things went smoothly, but leaving it behind when

you were occupied. Its not your fault, though. You have

your life. However, so many times, it gets demoralising,

when I want to forget, yet I'm unable to.

Tonight, you sent a message; expecting me to reply. You

once said this invisibility would last, & because acquintances

knew more. I once proved your theory wrong. Now, I know

you're wrong too. Cause you'd never rmb; I don't expect

you to. Cause you'd never understand; that though this bond

might not have meant much to you, it meant alot to me,

because this friendship was special, unique. Erase everything,

cause you're a much happier person now. I don't expect you

to rmb this old friend you used to have.

Just, don't talk to me again. Assume you

never knew me; let this invisibility die.

Unbelievably, I'm momentarily elated! Browsing through photos brings back memories about the sweet victories! I'm happy, contented. (:

Chanced upon a fragile soul.

Despondency overwhelmed it;

poignant agonies filled up inside.

However, the surroundings, of quiescent

melancholy, gave it a place to reside

in.

Thought t'was completely

broken, thought the lingering

hurt in it would never subside.

But today, things happened

unexpectedly. Too much

laughter, too much talk;

too good to be true. Seemed

like the abysmal misery had

already been omitted, &

things went just too smoothly.

The talk about her outlandish

behaviour(it was THAT serious),

just hauled all racing thoughts

to the forlorn scene of the

shattered soul.

Why is everyone

broken?

Warrant to Private.

Tried to let go, tried to give up,
tried to not care, tried to run.

But they held on, never gave up,
showed they care, caught up with us.

Walked 2 rounds around the
sch, in hope our moods would
lighten. Felt much better afterwards,
but almost succumbed to the plight
of the feeling of disappointment;
watching the gradual disappearance
of their shadows.

Which parent would ever stop
loving their children?; Children
that they have moulded from
nothing to something.
Though at times, children can
give parents such a huge major
headache, that the parents get
so frustrated about. But
nevertheless, parents still feel
proud of their children when
they do exceedingly well, & of
course ---- when they rmb how
much effort their parents put in;
when they think of their parents.

It was the kind of fairy tale &
chirpy, happy kind of ending, or so
it seems.

But there's one shut door, this door
has been shut for a long time. But
just recently, it became locked. The
key to the lock, its hidden, but we
must find it. Unlock & open the door,
treasures aplenty. One day, when
I find the courage to search for the
key again, I'll make sure I find it.
Till then, I shall just watch the world
revolve around the finding of this
sacred key.

Words or actions phrased or done wrongly
will result in misunderstandings.
& misunderstandings hurt, alot.


Tmr is the last. She said to 'screw' them,
but how can I? When I know that they
aren't strong enough to take it. I feel like a
Devil. Pushing them so hard was what I
thought was right, I wanted them to excel.
But somehow they aren't as strong.


'IT' is coming soon, the great handover.
The moment of pride & glory when we
look back into our past achievements.
If we become ONE, will they feel this
way abt us just like how we feel abt THEM?
Then what's the use of joining, we asked
ourselves. Will our seemingly never-ending
passion end one day? & it comes down
to the handling.

You see, so many ppl have said, 'I don't
think you're handling IT the RIGHT
way'. Define RIGHT please. If it wasn't RIGHT,
why are we always presenting awards to Mr
Tan/Mdm Tong in the morning? Why have
we established a name for ourselves again?
Leaving many others in awe of our achievement;
as when we took over, no one thought we
could do it.

Will they be able to keep the spirit? Even
though one is down, the rest will keep
up, right?

Hokay, so elated that sec 2s won the ArtFest video category!

At around 12 ystd, met up with the usuals to buy those flowers n chocs we saw the day before. Left for sch soon after, & sat in the bus Ms Chan booked for us. Finally it ain't the small, mini kind of bus. =) Reached RELC hotel soon, & we were kinda late. Saw HongZhou sir & I sort of laughed, cause I didn't think I would see him there. Hey the other NCOs laughed too okay, but then Esther ma'am was like, 'what's so funny' -.- I don't like Esther ma'am. :P Lalala.

Anyway, watched all the performances, some were really gd, some were a lil' bit not quite up to standard. Siling was performing, while Shaf sat behind me; so great to see them all again! Then when the sec 2s video was being played, all of us got ecstatic and high!! So cool la, amkssrcy. =))) Oh, & there was a period when winny, edna n myself were damn urgent to use the toilet, we left our seats & 'rushed' to the door, guarded by sy ma'am(:, and she said we couldn't leave, gawdddd, imagine you are so filled up with water, yet some one don't let you out, eeeew. Actually, though its true that it ain't very polite to leave the auditorium when someone is performing. -.-''

And then when the judges were tabulating the results, 'BAD news came'.& it sounded rly bad, till the extent that all the NCOs were praying & hoping that the BAD news wasn't true. Then we heard, 'Champions for ArtsFest video catergory goes to Ang Mo Kio sec!!!' , & then I knew I got cheated again. So many times, again & again, but ah well, blame myself for being so stupid. Then we got kind of emotional & hugged etc, & shouted the Gd job cheer damn loudly, Huda ma'am came to give us a dressing down. But then, WHO CARES? Haha. Alvin sir came to congratulate us, etc etc etc & I hugged Siling n Shaf!! They were so nice, to console me n give me tissue! (: Later on, we proceeded to PS, & went in search of a place to dine in. Ended up at macs cause the other places were packed. Okay, n after eating my stomach hurt like shit. So I kinda like shut up for a very long time. Till the pain was reduced. Then took the mrt home, & one more sat gone.

Rly congrats to the sec 2s, for doing us & most of all, themselves proud!

Leila Tong,
So pretty and cute!! =))))

NFC 2008
North District, First runner up.

National Top 8.

Okay. Yes QinJie, we do need to talk, again.

Monday
Went to sch pretty early, for
my own entertainment. Ncos,
Zx & ______ went for lunch.
I have no idea why she tagged
along too. Talking abt this makes
my blood boil. Like wtf, hello,
you are such a mf. Saying we
can't set examples eh, & you
choose to tell the other Ncos
whom you know would just
politely listen and can
withstand your nonsense. If you
had the guts, come find me la.
I will make sure you go away
speechless, swallowing back
your idiotic words.
'How about you then? Saying
we don't set gd eg right? Do
you even come for trngs?
Sorry, no. You are always
Missing In Action alright,
coming only 2 out of 20 trngs.
And let me tell ya, your presence
ain't missed at all, mf. So you
say we should set gd egs.
Who the hell are you to say this
man. If you were Wj, Joanne,
Xy, Wl or anyone else for that
matter of fact, I'd gladly oblige,
because I look up to them, sorry,
definitely not you, cause in my
eyes, you are just a useless
piece of shit. Think before you
say can, do you think you can
outdo our current batch of Ncos?
Make the squad achieve what
it is now? You aren't even fit to
be called 'ma'am' okay. Y'know,
you suck big time.

Okay, I'd dedicated one paragraph
to you, aren't you happy! LOL

So after lunch, came back n had
some problem with Land ppl.
Felt like just telling them off.
Sad that Qj wasn't there, he went
super num. But had things
settled after awhile. Cadets
taught Land evac, and the Ncos
of both UG sat at the back
silently watching our cadets'
performance. After the lesson
was over, had grilling session
again. Monday ended just
like that.

Tuesday
Had chem remedial, okay Ms Low
was so NICE to come back n teach
us mole concept etc. Afterwards
went for 'little red hen' musical.
It was pouring like no one's business
and we were drenched though we
had umbrellas. Our shoes were
thoroughly soaked, and our clothes
became kinda translucent. Guides
took a bus there after they break
camp, but weren't any better off,
cause they still had to run under
the rain to reach the place. So
most of us were soaking wet &
trying to get dry. Inside the
air-conditioned hall, I sat next
to Vanessa and Edna. We
concentrated more on keeping
warm than on the show. ;D
Its like, almost the whole hall
was filled with squirming children
and their patient parents. Except
for the bunch of us from GG n RC.
Okay, so the musical was more
or less for little kids, so the
line, 'for ages 2 to 92' was abit
wrong. Though the GOOSE was
extremely hilarious.

Later on, went to tpy with ncos
to eat. Walked around a little bit,
but you see, tpy has nth much
to see. So went home soon after.

Wednesday
Dragonboat with UGs. Reminds
me of RCYC. Partnered Tan Yiling.
And sadly, KS n YL was behind,
& kept splashing water at us. The
water was friggin' dirty!!!! =(
But overall, db was definitely fun,
though muscles kinda ached
afterwards. Soon after, saw
NYJC db ppl. Joanne was there
too. I can't believe she's so heartless!
:(
Went back to school to see the
cadets prepare for Arts Fest. And
yes, unbelievably, half of the 1 week
holiday's gone!!!

Thursday
Went to sch to see the dance & video
grp, dance being sec 3s, & video being
sec 2s. Pearlyn n Winny went to hq
for their AOP, while the rest stayed
in sch to try complete the video.
Around 5 ++, all sec 2s n 3s present
were made to fall in in the parade sq,
where we presented to the empty
sch our 1st runner up team &
performance! LOL. Cadets as
well as Ncos reminisced those
Footdrill competition days, &
we all took pride in holding the
pretty, gleaming Green n Gold
poles. More footdrill followed
after that, and later, we went
to Winny's house to settle the
Zulu video. Vivian n I had to leave
early, n the rest diligently
continued the huge task.

The past few days has been
raining heavily. Should be
global warming la, else it would
be monsoon seaon? haha, sry,
my geog sucks. So far both my
shoes are wet, which makes me
very upset. So today I'm smart
to wear slippers. Yeah smart till
I forgot slippers had no friction.
I 'almost' fell countless number
of times. Every step is so
dangerous! But I reached home
safe n sound, thankyou!

Q:What am I doing now??
A:I've just put a piece of chocolate
containing champagne in it into
my mouth, Dad bought it back
from his trip to Germany. It
tastes awful!!! Eeeew.

And and, Daddy n Mummy
are coming back tonight.
Is that a gd thing or a bad thing?
Lol, so no more late nights for
me. =(

That's all, bye ppl.

And so, lets talk about Friday's
trng, then Saturday's fund fiesta.
Okay, so Friday's trng was a bit
special. Somehow it ain't like the
usual trngs anymore. Perhaps
things just got more complicated.
It suddenly felt so hard to let go.
Sth that you are so used to, suddenly
just gone away.

Anyway, somehow I got pissed at
the start of trng. I shouldn't have
known about that. Made me so
disappointed; how I wish it ain't
true. Tell me it ain't alright, I'm
not going to believe you'd do sth
like that. And sec 3s again didn't
rly fufil their duty, but well, you
guys have only 1 month left with
us. Cherish this 1 month to learn
more before we hand over this to
you guys. I believe, well yeah,
sure you can do better than us.
I'm serious! :D

And though many sec 1s didn't
pass their health law test, it was
comforting to know that at least
there were cadets who did exceeding
well, with their nicely done up
posters. Also, for the RCK, I wonder
why. But again, I'm still glad that
there were ppl who did pass the test,
& not to mention, getting an A?
Ah, the rest, pls work harder.

And and and, after trng, behold,
the bus bay session. It was weird,
but thanks to the first aid kit. It did
save someone's knees, Chongxi. =)
I guess the fact that we're standing
down in April rly hit them hard in
the head, seemed so. Haha, hey, well
contradicting all I've said before,
taking over's not too bad a thing
afterall, right? Makes you become
a new person, though it can be
stressing at times, but there'll still
be some fun in it, and it does
definitely bond the ncos!(First time
I'm saying this eh.)

Well, hopefully the sec 1s can open
up more, so that Red Cross can have
the bonding spirit. Then it'd be rly
'One for All, All for One'. I'll be waiting
for that day. =D
That's all for Friday's trng I guess.
And seeing them smiling & laughing etc;
I want to reminisce. I want to be a cadet
all over again. I'll nvr regret being a
cadet of AMKSS rcy. =)

Saturday.
Real hard to get myself out of bed,
reached sch looking kind of lethargic.
And guess what, Mdm Yao actually
called us 'Girl Guides'. Mistaken
identity eh! Haha. Prepared first aid
kits and stretchers, & tgt with some
other UGs, we left in the bus n headed
for Pasir Ris. I stumbled upon some
shocking news again, which, I admit,
was abit hard for me to handle. Those
words again put me into a withdrawal
syndrome, where I shut off from the
rest during the bus journey. I'm sorry
Sam, for not replying you when you
talked to me.
Reached there n did FAD with Chongxi
& Shihui, they're rly kind of funny! Esp
when they enquired about the breakfast
that was supposed to be provided.
And because our First Aid post saw
no casualties, it was kind of a slack session
for us. After the runners came and went,
we found time to sit down and talk.
Well, though it was some insignificant
stuff, it was different, and fun I guess.
It was a friend-to-friend talk, it was
not commanding.

Afterwards, went to rent skates with
Yf, which we kind of regretted after
we reached the rental area. She said
there was no such thing as refund, so
we waited. I can recall Yf when she just
stood rooted to the spot, and then
opened her mouth, to let out shrieks
of help. Defeaning! Haha, just kiddin.
In the end, met up with Vivian and
Shihui, taught Yf to skate. etc etc.

And then the main FA post had
numerous casualties, silently
demanding our invisible skills.
Helped one girl clean her
blood-stained knees, afterwhich
bandaged up her wound. Only to
see the Civic medics unwrap the
bandage & making some adjustments
to it. I know it was wrong for me to
be upset at them, but I couldn't help
it. Yf then said sth which held more
meaning than my shallow words of
complain. I rly should learn, to improve
myself. My FA skills ain't that gd afterall.
I'm just a beginner, who can hold not a
candle to the experts. I must learn
from them, to gain new knowledge, like
Yf said.

And later on, went to Swensens for lunch
cum dinner. Tasty, but very sinful.
Met pearlyn n winny. Zx was also quite
entertaining. Cadets 'told' us in loud,
and continuous sounds. For a moment, I
thought it was not gg to end! haha, jkjk.
Poor them, subjected to 5 Aops with
grpmates who know nuts abt evac.
I must say, even though you guys
yourself are upset about so much work,
I feel proud for you guys; you all aren't
ignorant about any of these. At least
you know what is an AOP, etc.
You all even have evac gold. That's
sth that's not easy to achieve, for
someone in sec 2! =))

So Saturday has just passed like that.
I'm now currently like a roasted pig.
Roasted RED. And very Piggish
cause I'm practically lazing around.
And my forehead hurts. Skin's peeling.

Mighty long post today, a great
accomplishment!! haha. gdnight peeps!

YCK grassroot club

met sec 1s, 2s, 3s and qh at
YCK mrt, no matter how
many times we emphasised
on the importance of tardiness,
no one rly seems to care.
Which kind of pisses me off,
early in the morning; though
I'm not exactly that early
either, I know that, but I
ain't late, that's what matters. =)

The game schedule didn't
go as according to our plan,
but instead those kids played
in the 'ball area'. Ehh, so the
thing goes like this, each cadet
is assigned to one child.

& these are the holy rules.
1. When you've been assigned
to your child, you have to
take full responsibilty of him/her
and have to make sure he/she
doesn't get injured or neglected.
2. Follow him/her everywhere
he/she goes.
3. Make sure he/she doesn't
run around, such that he/she
won't fall down & get injured.

So, 'FORTUNATELY',
I got a very NICE and CUTE child.
So nice of him to be so hyperactive
and playful, & don't want to sit down
to do things as a grp with the other
little kids. & so nice of him to scramble
up the tiny & squeezy structures that
are meant for kids his age so fast, & rmb
what I said in point number 2 of the rules;
& so, many ppl got to see the unglam
side of me as I hurried up to be by my
child's side. Apparently, he likes it when
I slide down that steep purple slide
after him. Y'know, he takes pleasure
in seeing me 'fly' down the slide, because
I'm like a buffalo trying to slide down
a narrow slide meant for children.
But, he's still cute! He demands for
hugs from almost everyone, carried
him numerous times today; & I feel
seriously ashamed of myself. Like
he's just a little kid while I'm a fifteen
year old, but sometimes I'm unable
to pacify him. How useless.

So after all the sweat from chasing
him around, & not forgetting the
shouting for him to wait up for me,
so that I can watch out for his safety,
his parents came to fetch him home.
I realised he's actually kinda adorable
and lovable, so free of worry and so
carefree. No homework, no stress.
When life revolved solely around the
simple word, PLAY. Everyday would
be a happy day. And we would all
indulge in the riches of p-l-a-y.
Yay, what a wonderful ending. Ya
right, if only life would end like that.

However, this little boy that I took,
he's still young, and will have to grow
up one day. I would hope that he will
outgrow the communication
problem that he has now.

Other than that, I also realised
that the sec 2s and 3s have grown.
Much as they have seen 'the other
side of us, ma'ams' , I have seen the
other side of them too. I guess
time passed very quickly. Well,
back to the same old topic, we're
passing out soon! =)

Okay, anyway after the kids have
all left, some sec 2s and us sec 4s
proceeded to j8, supposedly for a
grp lunch. However, while walking
to the desinated Yoshi, Edna and I
decided we'd go 'missing'. Yea so,
sorry peeps, didn't mean to ps you
guys! Went to popular in search
of Edna's stationery etc. Then
grabbed sth light before gg up to
'find' them.

Sat at a corner outside Popular,
& did what girls did best. Gossip
and talk like there's no tmr. Eh,
well, not rly gossip la, but some
real funny stuffs did happen
while Yf went to get our Leap
Year tickets. I find the sec 2s
amusing n humorous! They can
get so friggin high over some
powder spilt on Yf's bag. (Though
actually all of us were laughing
madly.)

Waited till 4.30pm, then caught
Leap Years with Edna and Yf.
Guess who we saw. Its none
other than the 'infamous'
Ang Jing Han, and his girlfriend?
Most probably, she is. Yf couldn't
stop laughing at this Mr Ang,
whose wearing a green shirt, too
prominent to miss her eagle eyes.

And and, at certain parts of the show,
this Tan YiFang laughed the
loudest in the cinema. Also, she
kept grabbing on to my arm.
As if I'm your right one! -____-
haha!

On the whole, the show
was worth the exorbitant price
of $9.50 because today's a
saturday. Okay, so that's all.
This is a long post. Cya peeps.