fancy drill trng ystd and today. kinda fun...at least better than normal trng.. oops. =DDD
added new things to the drill. during thursday trng...mdm joanne came back..wahh disaster..oops.hope she dun see. after trng, helped out to do orientation stuff..and do reports for syf and north district camp.


friday trng worse..had to bring uniform..den only me and vivien bring..haish..den kena scolding lo...like kinda of xia suay..coz GG de ppl all oso wear gg uniform..den us leii..only me and vivien wear.haish..den in the end kena scolding.. me and vivien enjoyed pumping and lvl 1 position..while the others enjoyed 100 over pumpings. haish..hopefully i know which is right and left le..=(((( den after that changed back into normal mufti.. and continued trng.. den GG de mdm wanjoo, mdm shuian shuian and mdm weiling came back.. felt abit sad becoz only mdm joanne came onli..den our other mdms leii?? haish. all nvr come..they all say will come..but still nvr come..=(((( den after trng we went eat lunch...eat until so shuang..hahaha . den eat le we went back help to draw more plaster and hang the banner. but some parts of the wall still haven't paint..so can't hang banner..den came down to help draw plaster and complete the poles thing..to put pictures de..mdm joanne in charge..den draw plaster awhile le..den mdm wenjia came..to talk to mdm xinyu they all..haish..well..wad happen after that......forget it. den sat there awhile le..i went to help mdm joanne tie the pole thing..saw mdm joanne so xi xin.. oops..can see u really love redcross alot! k..anyway..jiayou for ur VI course k???


haish... so xia suay ahh today..but not gonna elaborate..so cya ppl!! and fancy drill coming..we must not xia suay ourselves to other UG and the sec 1s..so everyone do ur best k!! xD


p.s I'M NOT LES!!!!!!
pp.s happy birthday vivien!!!!!! =DDDDD

hahahahaha..damn happy now!!! NOW NOW NOW!!! yea! talked to 'her'...through sms..haven't seen her for so long le........=(( but yea...as she promised..she will come back. and i think i'm still believing her now. coz she said that in her blog a long, long, long time ago. but ya..i have faith in her!!! =DDD


aww..her poor little teeth. going to undergo braces. hahahahah. well good luck ya? and bear with the pain. =)))

had fancy drill training today. quite fun. learn new things. like turning the pole..quite fun lo..find that someone frm GG has changed for the better le..really happy to see that..even though we not same UG..but u will still feel better for that other UGian.
after trng..went to eat lunch at 202. ate le den vanessa went home, edna oso..qh went to buy cd or something la..


sam, yingxin and me went suntec..to visit ******.. i know i shouldn't say it here..but i still must say it..really disappointed to see yx and sam disappointed. ******..why did u have to put it so zhi jie (straightforward)...whywhywhy..u know can make ppl feel so upset and disappointed de ma...they were so excited at the tot of it k..and u had to make them feel like their trip here was wasted..WE CAME HERE SPECIALLY TO SEE U!! okkay?!!! fine..shan't go on abt it le..


anyway..christmas is coming!! =)) wish everyone a early merry christmas!! =DD

haish..did i choose the wrong class next year??? did i? did i?


u..yes u..everytime zhen dui me de..haish..can't we for once dun like dislike each other?? i know u dislike me.....but u think i like u oso meh??! walao..u make it sound like everything is my fault!! why ahh..


i not good enough to be in 1/2' 05, 2/2 '06 ahh..huh. u say it like its lidat ..but i ren..ren ren ren....ren very long le..coz i love this class..i love my friends.. i just wan u to know that i will put up with ur hatred towards me..i will R-E-N!!! for the sake of my beloved classmates. i tell u!!! =DD

arrgghh..feel so useless now..there's not one single thing that i can do right in life..i really dunno wad i'm doing now. and when there's problems..there's not one single person that i can tell them to..haish..maybe the suo wei 'close'..may not be that close as well.. no one know's me 100%..and i dun know anyone 100% either..well..maybe i'm just not reliable..or i can't rely on others..or maybe both..

i know its abit late to blog abt our trip to iceskating..hahas..but i'm still gonna blog.. we went ice skating on wednesday..went with xx, sk, arifin, edna, julian, qh, yf and bj. bj came back frm taiwan and bought damn cute chocs! she give me one which is in the shape of a plaster. damn cute!! thanks beijia!! =DD den met at yew tee before proceeding to jurong east. reach le we skated until abt 2. me and edna helped qh yf and bj..coz they still abit unstable on the ice..but bj learn super fast la..she still abit unstable..but she can go on her own le..qh can skate quite gd le..but yf still abit scared..coz she fell the last time we came..den she scared might fall again.


den the guys oso beginner but they like skate very fast lo..everytime we wan go over to find them, they jiu go to the other side of the rink..super funny. =)) den skate skate skate..den xx and qh feel like going kbox.
they so enthu la..the rest were like okkay..lets all go together! but sk din wan go..he wen home..ALONE! aww..den we went into the kbox room..quite big la..den the enthu pair..xx and qh..start to dian ge (pick songs) den they sing sing sing..while edna bj and me we singing without the microphone. den yf ahh..wahh..disaster! haha..she keep making all the funny noise..den qh say she sound like she sha ji (killing chicken)..damn funny la..den then sing sing sing..until 4..bj went home by herself..den 4.30..i gtg le..den actually suppose me xx and fin go home i think..den in the end..everybody go home..hahas..but i like express train lidat..chiong go home..while the rest take their time..coz had to go home to do piano..sianx. but overall..had a very fun day!! thanks edna!! =DD


ahh..proposal..die die die..sure got alot of AOP following that de..WELFARE!!! have to check stretcher and 1st aid kit. =(( wahahaha..
but......anything.....to get more recruits next year! xD

juliana..read all ur tags..felt kinda upset over them.. its so hard u know..i dunno if anyone except me and edna and the others understands..being a senior is so so so hard. we are forced to keep a distance for u juniors because we are going to be mdms soon. is that a good enough reason?? its like very hard to just nurture the bond that we have now lo..we are considered close? are we? i guess so right.. and then by next yr we have to keep a distance from each other. i know u feel scared of coming trng..and its like every trng onli got 3 sec 1s come..standard one..u, chonxi and vivien. haish..like abit pathetatic hor?? i know u join rc is to pei yiling de..and in the end she din come, make u disappointed right? but there's no turning back once u've joined..just make the best out of it .. see..u've made so many new friends right? so many new seniors..including other UG ppl. there's good and bad lo..

i understand ur feeling..that feeling of coming to trng just to kena 'knock it down', scoldings.. and mdm's unhappy faces. i oso have that feeling ma..i think everybody does..or not why u think we always feel like ponning..we did think of ponning..but in the end still go ma..so..just keep peservering..the tot of c*** should keep u going on wad.. everytime i feel tired of trng..i will think of all the nice seniors..ex-mdms, sirs..haish..that will keep me going lo..

so..wadever it is..do rmb that we all wun p.s u all de..even after we become mdms..we will show the current mdms that we can make it de..and we are not as bad as they say! =DD


p.s hope no sec 3s see this. (i think will not hor??)

i know its been a long time i din blog.. and my last post sounded very vulgar.. hahas..got irritated by some things.


today had trng. was okkay..better den other trngs..sec 2s get to become commander..mdms wanna train our voice. den shout shout shout..dunno ltr will get sore throat anot.. haish..like edna said..its hard to become a gd senior.. true ma.. u too fierce..juniors will talk behind ur back.. and they will give attitude. u too lenient.. they climb over ur head. haish. and its like 4 more months b4 we take over.


had our first interview today..wasn't such a success.. i dunno wad they trying to do..wad the mdms say are so CONTRADICTING can..aiyo..anyway..edna got it real bad..hope ur fine now girl..


aiya..we must really buck up on monday fancy drill trng.. or else we sure die again de..=DD and F.Y.I ..we DON'T make EMPTY PROMISES okkay!! we shall show u all that! =))

p.s tmr's ice skating..hope my mummy let me go..=))

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so damn fucked right now.

time flies. all that's left is still memories.

as i went back in time, i saw how lucky i was.

but perhaps i took it for granted,

and the seconds on the clock just continued ticking.


pictures of that album of memories just flew by,

oblivious to the surroundings, i started appreciating my past.

all that ever happened, and all there is now..

i'd rather my past. but is there a way to make things better?


i ask myself everyday, wad's the purpose of life.

when in the end u will still die.

but den i think,

if i die, i wun be able to see those i love.


10 more days before i come back..waiting for our honeymoon.. my dear laopo..hope u see this.
thanks for being there for me...i dunno if wad u said wad true..or it was just said to make me feel better..anyway..thanks alot. =))

today..watched 2 shows in a day..so shiok..hahas..watched casino royale and step-up with my cousin sis. both shows quite nice..


i'm super bored..and when i got nth to do..i start to think..to think of stuff.. to think of ******..haish...why why why why.. and there's not many ppl online..redcross de all go camp le..ncc air de oso go posting camp..haish..den the others go work.. i need to find something to do to kill time.. i wanna go back singapore..=((


and nobody tags..why?? i oso dunno why..=((

hey ppl...i know i haven't blogged for a long time..since the starting of work till now..i haven't blogged..busy lo..not work jiu shi training...or piano lesson.. for redcross..there's fancy drill and footdrill comp. coming up..den piano..got practical and theory coming..haish..work is oso driving me kuku..everyday seeing batteries only..except for the days we do the manual ****** pump thing..hahas..but earned over a hundred dollars for a few days work..hahas.. now currently in malaysia..playing? eating? slacking? sleeping? hahas..i guess is all bah...and is like work le den got money...den u know wad right..SPEND!! hahas..kidding la..nvr spend yet..


and coz gonna be in malaysia for abt 2 weeks..will miss amksian open house..its tmr..hope alot of p6s will come..and the worst thing is gonna miss red cross annual camp..not that i particularly like camps..(actually i hate them) but it is during camps that we bond..and bond really well..haish...camps make us closer la..and this is like the 1st ever redcross camp that the sec 3s will be taking..and i'm so gonna miss it...haish..miss the tekanning sessions..hope the sec 1s can endure the tekan..u all must hor...even if left the last bit of energy..still hold on..i will help u all add oil!!


ahh..and another thing..i'm already starting to miss all my friends le...really hope can see them quickly again..but it seems nobody's missing me..gonna be all alone again..

fancy drill training today. so pek cek with some ppl..red cross people know damn well. =)) hahas. girl guiders know too! ..2/2 guides..i know how u guys feel le..haish..practised again and again..GG mdms everytime not happy. not i wann say or wad larr...is just erm...i feel..abit not right lo..well..scold for no reason? when they din even bother to find out wad is wrong? haish..suddenly find our RC ncos very very nice. hmm.. should i be saying this?..hhahas. anyway.. had quite a fun time today larr.. turning the drill stick and doing the practise with music. manage to learn quite alot. those who din turn up for this training..u guys got lots to learn!! must jiayous! and wad's more..footdrill competition is approaching. i so wanna be reserve!! u guys know the reason. even mdm xinyu does. but she refuse to let me change place with vivien..=(( haish. anyway..we must jiayou for this footdrill com. dun let the ex-mdms who have high expectations of us down..RED CROSS!! we will do it de..=))


p.s thank you red cross ncos for telling us that u guys will be there and dun let the others bully us!! XD love u guys!

came back from chalet yesterday..quite tired..but I LOVED THE CHALET! hahas..a million thanks to yifang and qianhui, the organisers. and not forgetting edna too..hahas she helped too.. chalet was abit small..but yea..small den cosy ma! ahh..reallie had alot fun lo..after reaching..we unpacked den stripped into our *** ..hahas and went to swim. damn funny larr.. the gurls were in their *** and fbt shorts in the pool. den swim finish jiu BBQ..hhahas..lots of ppl helped out. they started the fire den BBQed. everyone had fun i tink.


we stayed up the whole of the 1st night. did the red cross half-day camp proposal. it was a long night if not for qianhui's lameness. she was super hungry i tink. den she started the helicopter thing. damn funny larr..the wad 'teke teke teke' thing..hahas. we chatted but most of the ppl in the room were like half awake onli. and another thing..which was verii funny. yifang! hahas. she was real tired. and she slept on the table! we tried waking her up using all kinds of reasons...like got fire, herr dad come pick her up, call her chio bu..and lots of other stuff!! hahas..but she din even budge! and the worst thing is someone took a video of her...damn funny. den at the end of the video, all of us shouted, YIFANG!!! damn loudly..and SHE DIN EVEN BUDGE! hahas..oops..sorriie yifang for posting such a paiseh thing here..hahas..forgive me kkay..=)) den jiu rely on this kind of things to keep us entertained.


at 5++ 6..we went downtown east the mac eat breakfast. so shiok..hahas but me and caryn stomach abit not good. coz i tink eat oily stuff early in the morning den lidat..went back to chalet and we slept! hahas. squeezed onto the beds. the rest chatted awhile b4 changing into their swim suit and jump into the pool. almost all went except a few..which is me, edna, cynthia, caryn and i tink clara. we were on the bed. hahas. caryn and clara was sleeping while me, edna and cyn spent alot of time laughing. cyntold us to look at caryn..she looked so cute! hahas.next time i shall post the pic! hahas. i'm evil! kkay..den after awhile..i decided to swim. went to swim for awhile. verii nice. the guys went too. we like hogged the pool..coz no one around. hahas. after that some ppl showered. some other went to sleep or wad. den we go downtown east food court eat lunch. i ate a cold dessert..hahas. den we went cycling!. but cycle awhile jiu started to rain. so sad lo!.. so returned the bikes and went back to chalet. the second night was erm.......hahas. they went 'red house'. haish..hahas..they came back den talked abt their stories. i was tired and decided to go sleep. got onto the bed and fell asleep straight away. slept till next morn. hahas. woke up and went downstairs. couldn't get down coz the steps were full of ppl....sleeping ppl. so went back up. den waited awhile den went to the chalet restaurant or shop to eat breakfast. after eating, we went back to pack up. den we left the chalet at 11++ 12. me and caryn decided to go library talk. bus-ed to amk library with her. talked abt lots of things. hahas. talked even more in the library.


reached the library den had a feeling will see shou(3) ren(2). hahas..den reallie got see seh. saw mdm joanne. she came with her friends to study. she walked past me and caryn and i looked away. like heng she nvr see me lo. but in the end she still walked back..purposely walked in front of me..hahas.. almost gave me a heart attack! =D den me and caryn talked and talked. hahas..i had 2 cups of ice-blended coffee..gonna get fat soon. while caryn had an oreo cheese cake or wad larr..and 2 cups of ice chocolate! hahas..wahh..we ate alot right? den ahh.. more suay! mdm xinyu oso came with her friends.after conquer Os. she oso came down find mee..i oso almost got heart attack! =)) den borrowed 2 books..brought home to read. =)) i'm guai! hahas..


den reached home jiu chiong the half-day camp proposal..called up the sec 1s but all nvr pick up phone. so called and called. but no ans..den went to sleep at abt 11++ 12. woke up late....verii late. hahas..details about trng i will blog tmr!! i'm lazy! =p hahas. cya and take care ppl!


p.s caryn ..must remember our bet!

hello ppl! i know i haven't blogged for a long time..u could say i'm lazy..hahas. coz went out with my dears like almost everyday lo!..hahas. we went bowling, shopping, library, my house, caryn's house and also vanessa's house...and lots of other places larr! hahas. that was from after end of EOYs. wahh..should be broke le right? nahh...thanks to zhanhong! he paid for our bowling..we played like 4 or 5 games i think..and he payed for all of us to play 4 or 5 games each larr! damn rich lo! we inspected his wallet and found he brought $130++ that day! so envious! hahas. den played basketball at my house and went skating at caryn's house. had real lots of fun! thank u darlings! love u guys lots lo! hahas..thinking of all of u everyday!


ppl! i'm reallie looking forward to chalet with u all! hopefully can see all of u there!...u know wad..i am reallie happiie that i met all of u.. 1/2 '05 and 2/2 '06..so love it now! looking back at the memories..reallie sad to have to part with u all..but hope we can still remain as close as ever...u guys make my day..=)) love u all!

got back results..now fretting over wad class to choose.. dunno which subject combination is the best.. so gonna miss my friends. reallie wanna make a special mention to those ppl who cheered me up on tuesday after e results.


yifang: thanks for giving me advice and spending ur whole PE lesson trying to cheer me up


beijia: u too! thanks alot. ur advice has given me the courage to move on. i will work harder de.


edna & qianhui: hahas. thanks for telling me not to cry anymore..coz its no use crying! hahas..i will try to follow that. love u!


caryn: u r a good advicer...i love all ur wondeful talks ..u know..sometimes a word from a friend can be verii encouraging..it helps alot..i reallie appreciate it. =))


glenn: who keep telling me to be more brave? thanks..i will de.


samantha: thanks for all the times u have spent with me..all these wonderful memories will always be with me. theres so much to write for u..so shan't crap here..hahas.


eunice, theora and val: for cheering me up..to tell me not to cry anymore.


i tink there are a few others..but sorrie if i had forgotten to put u guys' big big name here! =(( anyway..just wanna tell everyone that the times spent in 2/2 has been the most wonderful time of my life. i dunno how to pen down my tots..but u guys have reallie brightened up my life these 2 yrs..reallie dun wanna go diff. class with u all..reallie wished that we could move up as one class. but i know its impossible. reallie hope that u wun ever forget that u ever had me as ur classmate .. THANK YOU EVERYONE IN 2/2 for all that u guys had done for me.. i will reallie miss all of u next yr. rmb me okkay? please?

farewell assembly yesterday...went with samantha to orchard -- wisma, taka, and still got dunno where larr..searched for cards, and chocs for the sec 4s. we rushed the whole time..coz we had to be back at sch at 1 to lend ties to joanne. so bought the stuff den mrt-ed back to amk..took taxi frm mrt station den sat at mac to wrap the presents and write the cards. at 1, we were still at mac. i left for sch to give the ties to joanne. while sam sat at mac alone..aww=(( sorrie for leaving u there all alone sam..


came back after giving the ties..continued to wrap the present..den van, yingxin and caryn came....caryn help to wrap me and sam de presents! THANKS CARYN! love u! van was busy writing her card for sheryl chua..yx was helping her.....so we were all like quite busy. den finally at 2 ++pm ..we were done and headed for sch.


we went up to the gallery..saw mdm wenjia and a sec 1 guy...and also a grp of upper sec guys...from dunno wad class de larr... den the assembly got one person frm each class go up to say speech...den got one gurl played the keyboard..first love on the piano. so nice...aww.. den there was oso the video clip..dunno who made de.. but its showed the sec 4s when they were younger.. they've reallie grown man..hahas. then the teachers went up the stage to sing too..and ms chen played the keyboard. she verii pro..and caryn was like 'she din even play a wrong note!' hahas..caryn i bet u can too!


den after the assembly finished..caryn, van, yx and sam went down to foyer..while me and xx waited outside the hall..for i dunno wad...hahas.
den the sec 4s came out class by class, hugging the teachers on their way out.. and all the girls were like crying..some guys cried too.. =(( i was fine at first..until joanne came...hahas..she hugged me den i cannot take it le..somemore she was like a water tap can..see liao oso cried...so sad man.. den xx was like. dun cry liao..hahas. but emotions are uncontrollable right?? yahh..den after awhile..we decided to go downstairs to find vanessa caryn they all..den while the sec 4s took their food, we all went to give our presents!..sam went to find cheryl phua, vanessa went to find sheryl chua..i went to find who ahh?? hahas..i dunno. i tink i just stood there..not knowing wad to do..finally when they all came back..i begged vanessa to help me give my presents..dun ask me why..hahas. cause i din dare? oh..i'm such a coward..lalala.


den after van, yx and caryn left..it was left me, xx and sam..den went to find 'mdm' cheryl..gave her the stuff..heehee XD..den sam left liao...
joanne called for me to come..she wanted to return the ties...so we went to take..den went to mac with xx. stayed there for awhile and talked..den bus-ed home with him.. hmm..i tink that's all..for today...


p.s u did it..sam and van! hahas
pp.s thanks joanne for your message..and I LOVE YOU TOO!! =))

more pics of today!

















wad's edna doing??











edna COACHING qianhui!! so pro!












EDNA and QIANHUI!












our skates! =)) love them!












yf, qh and edna!!

wahh..still got so many more pics..will upload them next time..hahas. lazy me...well cya ppl tmr if u all going farewell assembly.

exams over le! hahas. but results..=(( anyway.. this few days have been verii great. the lunches out and the time spent together. thanks everyone for making this fews day so memorable for me..=))

anayway.....tuesday! wen eat lunch after papers. wen j8 with van, qh, yf, caryn and sam. ate at pastamania den went go arnd see see. as usual, we wen 4th floor go look look.. yf bought a present for her senior. so sweet. =)) den nvr take any pics. so nth to upload..


WEDNESDAY! paper ended at 9.45 am.den our ggroup split into 2. van, caryn. yingxin, sam and jiaqi they all wen vivocity. they go shop shop + makan..aiyo..hahas. but qh, yf, edna and me decided go ICE-SKATING!! was damn damn fun..took lots of pics. yf fell and injured her knee but managed to play abit after her injury. qh, after seeing wad happened to yf, din dare to reallie skate..hahas.. qh, yf, must learn! den next time we sabo guys come with us den we watch them skate!! hahas. they will look so funny on the ice! heehee..i'm so EVIL! nice teaching yf and qh. they were soooo great larr! being a teacher ish so fun! hahas.
here are the pics.










yifang and qianhui in mrt. qh wearing her sis de brownie's gloves. i seriously think we each shud get a pair. den wear RC u den can wear oso! i'm lame =))











yifang, learning to skate. she tuo edna xia shui.hahas..jkjk =))











yifang...after her mighty fall. she hurt her knee..hope u are better now..












2 chio bus! say cheese!

more pics..i'm still uploading....

yay..monday wen yoshi at j8 with sam, van and caryn! we wen kuku and spent like 10 mins just walking to the bus stop when we could reach the bus stop in abt 3 mins. all because SAM and CARYN were playing along the roadside!! =))










sam gonna 'rape' caryn!











caryn got freaked out











on the bus. sam threatened to kiss caryn!











guess who's hand is trying to touch my laopo?!











SAM'S GONNA KISS MY LAOPO!!

no more pics for that day liao..=(( my laopo! she's making me so jealous by flirting!! =((

lalala. farewell assembly in 3 days. =))

hello ppl! i noe i should'nt be blogging now since exams are coming..but even got exams, still must rest de right?? okkay..because of the amkss virus, exams have been postponed. from monday to wednesday..its not that good a thing because in between exams, there is onli a 45 min break..but if exams started on monday, there would be a longer break in between papers. coz there is one in the morning, and another in the afternoon.so i would prefer exams to be on monday..even though it means that there is less time to study..coz in between papers oso can study..=)).


and now..i'm starting to think..wad is life? why do we have to live life? why can't we just die? where would we go after we die? how do we die a painless death? why do good things always come to an end? wen we grow old, we still have to die, why not die now? why do the ppl we care for always do not appreciate our care and concern? and why do we not put ourselves in other ppl's shoes and think abt how they feel? why are humans so selfish? why are there so many things i wanna say to u but i dunno how? why do we still have such a long road to walk? why do we have to be seperated from our love ones wen we dun wan to? why are all the roads I have to walk are winding? why am i so happy to have just a look at u? why did i even get to noe u? why is it that wen it rains, i am remembered of our past together?
there are so many whys, wads, hows ..so many that i cannot finish saying all. but i just wanna tell all my friends, no matter wad..i will be there for u..i just hope we can spend our last few months together happily. i treasure each and every person that i have ever met.. and i hope u guys feel the same..

EXAMS IN 5 DAYS!! ahhh..n i'm still like stuck in the midst of studying... n i tink this exam stress is driving me nuts.. making me do things wen i'm in a right state of mind wun do (i dun need to mention it).. n i get easily irritated (PMS??)..but i'll try to control myself. i need encouragement.. if u guys r free can please just come up to me n tell me that you love me..please!! ibegu... ahhh..just at least brighten up my day..coz i just love u ppl! but i dunno if u love me too... i need lots of love to keep me going..just abit more before i die in FYE...thanks alot. love u ppl.. n those who tio the amkss illness..GET WELL SOON!!

oh..i just wanna say.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY VANESSA!!!
shu nus love u!! hope u like ur birthday presents..=)) yay 14th b'dae le..all 4 shunus also 14 le..good! hahas..hope u have had a wonderful 14th birthday..




vanessa is horny!! =))..


lots of love n MUACKS..hahas

We'll do it all
Everything
On our own


We don't need
Anything
Or anyone


If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?


I don't quite know
How to say
How I feel


Those three words
Are said too much
They're not enough


If I lay here
If I just lie here
Would you lay with me and just forget the world?


Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life


Let's waste time
Chasing cars
Around our heads


I need your grace
To remind me
To find my own


If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lay with me and just forget the world?


Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life


All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes,
they're all I can see


I don't know where
Confused about how as well
Just know that these things will never change for us at all


If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lay with me and just forget the world?



my life is in a complete mess.. i guess its breakdown time again. so stress.
end of year exam is in 17 days. n i'm still unsure of wad i wan.. i need someone to show me the way. i noe i'm useless..but i dunno how to change.. i've got so many things in my head. friendship stuff, which class to go to next yr, how to deal with seperating into diff classes next yr, n my CCA. i love my CCA. i love the ppl in my CCA. but things r changing. i love the ppl in my cca but i dunno if they love me too.. ahhh. not in BGR love.. but in friendship love. love n motivation is wad keeps me going now. small small gestures will brighten up my day. just one sentence of 'i love u' will change how i'm feeling. i love my class. i love my classmates. but again.. i dunno if they love me.. i feel as if i'm a boat in the middle of a vast ocean.. with no destination and no other bigger boats to bring me to an island.. to bring me to safety. care abt how i'm doing in the middle of that vast ocean. to even make the effort to come n look for me.


anyway..i shall tell myself to brace up..work hard for the EOYs..n dun get irritated by minor things. to love even those who dun love me. to care for those who do not care for me. to continue to love all my friends and be a better person. i will try to make those around me happy..


p.s i shall tell myself to be a happier person
pp.s i shall try not to irritate ppl

ahh..i realised i long time nvr blog le.. lots of things have happened le..
for example, the North District Camp (NDC)..n the RC international bazaar..=)


NDC is leisure camp..my camp mentors r nice..but Charlie grp de nicer?? haha..my mentors are QIHUI mdm, QINGXIANG sir n DENISE mdm.. hmm, is denise mdm counted?? i dunno larr..but qihui mdm n qingxiang sir is verii nice..denise mdm like veri bored lidat...but u noe..the camp is leisure mahh..so she cant be scolding the whole time so thats why she's sian..hahas. finding reasons as to why denise mdm is so sian.. diao rite? i noe.. hahahaha. but the 1st day whole time is play games. den i was verii enthu can..u ask qianhui...i taught the grp mates our ALPHA cheer.. i sooo good hor.. haha no larr..i being bhb..=)

dinner was chao bad larr..haha. ermm. actually maybe is becoz of the rain?? spoil the whole mood. plus we are not shou ren ..we still dun reallie noe each other. hahas. den after dinner got campfire. we did the songs n our grp performance. den sabo xuanle n chee yen oso.. we so bad....den at night, shower but din wash hair...err xin horr..i noe, but the beds in the bunks more err xin.. btw the VIs nvr ever washed the bed b4.. n its reallie very dusty can.. ewwww.. but i still slept. sorrie qianhui if u din sleep well. so sorrie.. hahas =) i slept till 5.45am den my fone buzzed coz of the alarm. den woke edna, juliana n yinyin who were in the other bunk. we got ready den wen downstairs at 6.45am to report and see the flag raising.


den had PT with yongcheng sir. veri shiok..but hot. the weather damn hot den they still ask us wear trackpants. was sweating like mad can. den we finally had our breakfast at dunno wad time. mdm joan cooked our breakfast consisting of egg, bread, baked beans n sausage. sounds good hor..but........ hmm. better dun say.. ltr u all puke..hahas. poor qianhui, she took a serving of baked beans so that there wun be leftovers. n she forced down the beans with plain water. =) so wei da horr.. love ya qianhui! =)


den after breakfast we played water games. quite interesting larr.. but i was not enthu le..i was so sian even qianhui could see that..hahas. but just played through.den finally after the games we had time to change into dry clothes n do area cleaning. finish le jiu clean the bunks, toilets etc. den after the de-brief we went to eat lunch. we wen northpoint coz there was a direct bus to yishun int. i slept the whole time in the bus,,which was abt like 1 hr. juliana oso slept but yinyin n edna toked the whole way!!.. u both not tired mehh?? hahas. but felt shuang after waking up. ate at the foodcourt. food was so much nicer compared to camp..=) no offence xD. den wen home to SLEEP!!..hahas.


okkae..sorrie ppl to torture ur eyes..this is just finish of NDC ..still got bazaar.. hahas.


there was international bazzar on sunday. was reallie slack. but not for mdm xinyu, mdm kexin n mdm weilin. they had to help out at a stall selling mee siam n laksa. so kelian hor.. while the rest of us were blowing balloons.. i blow n blow n blow n i felt so sick of the balloon smell..=) felt like puking so i asked van to pei me go walk walk. we bought a coupon..den wen ard looking for food!! hahas. we shared ice cream.. soo en ai hor.. no larr.. but van dun like me =((.. sad. boohoo..xD
den slacked ard somemore... so bored i felt like sleeping. finally could go home at 6..mdm kexin felt sick.. awww..must be stand at the stall too long le..=) xinku ni le...den mdm kexin n mdm weilin went home 1st. they walked with the rest except me n mdm xinyu. we toured the place one last time coz mdm xinyu said she din reallie see the place. but in the end there was nth much so we went home. met edna they all at the mrt n wen home together. so tired man... ahhhh..end of my post!! hahas..


no! one more thing...EOY is in less den 20 days!!!!!...ahhhhh..my doomsday =)... i will die..some one save me!! getting into a anxious mood now!!...must do well or not i will be so upset... haish... okkae jiayou ppl.. dun let urself down wor..must work hard n we will move on as a class!!


p.s juliana..dun be scared of mdm xinyu..=)
pp.s happy early birthday to qianhui n vanessa n shaokwang..

EOY exams are in less than 1 month.. n my revision hasn't gone that far yet.. ahhhh i need MOTIVATION!! where's my source of motivation?


will someone be kind enough to tell me to get down to serious work?? at this rate, i tink my l1r5 for the EOY exams will be more than 15!.. n even if i crawl, i dun tink i can get into 3/4.. i should just bang my head against the wall..


today's already THURSDAY..and there's a north district camp tmr n sat, and there is an international bazzar on sunday..which means no time to study..ahhh. n i miss my friends lots.. every single one of u.. must jiayous okk..we will get into our dream class de..


p.s i dunno how to do eng portfolio.
pp.s i tink i shan't go for the bazaar on sunday.

today trng quite funn..=) more xiang yang liao..with angry mdms n scared cadets..i tink i'm bian tai :p..wad to do..today i ic..wahh ic always get 'special' treatment de ..wahahaha..anyway today mdm wenjia n sir keat leong came for trng.

we started out with footdrill..mdm weilin taught us new drill..more fun den the normal trng where we do everything the same de..den PT..supposed to run 2.4km de..den the mdms got 'special' plan worr..'abduct' our ppl wen we doing pt/running. me n edna PT ic mahh..den we both stand infront. so we din realise vivien missing. the mdms took her away!! XD

den after that we continued PT..den this time we smarter ..me stand in front lead, edna stand behind..who noes..she got took away..den gd ting i realised early..or not sure get scolded again. den they ask us go class 3/1 outside..there..we kana 'tekan'..can i call it tekan?? hmm..dunno leii..all i noe is that i couldn't breathe..=)..edna had to come down 'fetch' me..so i rest lorr..while they in pumping position doing pumping..i feel so bad leii..but mdm xinyu n mdm kexin dun let me do with them.
arghh..finally aft awhile den they let me do..budden i just got into that position den they ask us to recover..-.- so they continued with their plan..which is to scold us individually abt our appraisals..smart eh .hahas
den some ppl got it verii bad..feel so bad can't be with them wen they get scolded..hey..they still sec 1s leii.. must give them more kong jian ..=)

aiyah..i believe they will learn de..hopefully. i hope our unit can be more UNITED!! den its one for all, all for one..n we must standardise all our appraisal.. all by monday..which is reallie reasonable larr..hopefully we wun get anymore punishment concerning the appraisal..=)

n we still owe them chicken dance n half squad..=( i tink i will just die..i'd rather do pumpings.. anyway..hopefully they forget?? nahh..i'm not soo bad..going to rest now..i tink i like today ..hahas.


p.s vanessa must get well soon. =) we missed u..bleahx
pp.s there's camp on fri n sat..n bazaar on sunday..

ystd was teacher's day..n also be yourself day. reached sch early to help in the preparation..the food n deco. moved the tables and chairs and arranged the food. we so guai rite? other classes also came early. den ltr ms low came. she wore her sch attire. damn funny can..tuck in until verii toot.den socks quite high..but not high enuf! i so bad larr.. den they all ate. n we took lots of photos. with the teachers n friends. i din noe ms chin n ms low same sch de.. den mr sim n ms lesa both wore amk uniform. they were forced to stand together n pose for a photo. so sad..


some of the teacher's who wore their uniform actually looked good in itt..haha=). den qh julian they all started playing uno stacko n monopoly. n den, our 'dear' mdms kexin n xinyee..come our class n started putting flour on our face..verii funny hor..den me n sam cant take it we filled our bottles n wen up to 3/5 ..den stoopid mdm weilin ahh..she threw flour into my mouth..=p n sam took her bottle and squirted the water into mdm weilins shirt..wahh..she quite kelian larr..den xinyee n kexin din dare to come out. they held brooms n dustpan wanna shoo us away..but we din go in their class. we good rite? haha lol.


den i saw the sec 4s. all nvr wear their clothes de..all in sch uniform..n i saw rabbit. =) kinda happy. i also dunno y. dun ask me. den aft e party ended, we packed up the place n started doing drills. it was quite a sight larr.. ks, jm, zh, ds, sam, edna, van, yx, qh, yf, me, dewi n dunno still got who..we fall in in our class room..den ks gave us command..funny sia. den didi n zh took broom n dustpan to pretend as the sword and pacestick. stupid larr.. but quite funny. den ks give us alot of command den march us around the class until weijie n dunno which other sir happen to walk by, n they stared at us, he say we not high enough den cannot give command. we stopped for awhile, waited for him n the other guy to go before we continued. i tink we r seriously bad. den after we got tired of playing drills, we sat down n played truth or dare n zjmm. play untill abt 12++ b4 we left for causeway point. ate at swensens b4 procceding to the shops in causeway pt. we shopped for clothes. we even looked at bras. haha..it was funny larr..we wen into err..john little isit? i dunno ..den we go n smell the perfumes n the deoderant den we wen towards the bra section. the pierre cardin ones were nice. esp the pink n green de..=) everybody liked it..but cost 30 bucks. although its considered cheap for a branded bra, but i tink not worth it. =) den after seeing enuf of bras n underwear, we went to the library. went to the 3rd floor n found a nice spot. we sat there n talked. i like the library .hahas. we talked n talked until a librarian came n told us the library is for reading.. wanna tok den go to cafe. so we left ..wen downstairs but decided it was late. den me n edna decided to buy a jacket which cost $15. quuite nice n mummy let me buy. so bought the jacket den me qh n yf wen to take the train while edna van n sam go to dunno where. haha.

spent another wonderful day with my beloved friends.. love u ppl.. we shall go out again another day okk?? =)..

p.s nobody tags my blog..except sam..
pp.s please tag more =)

friday trng was funn!! coz yf came!..wore uniform n fall in in the morning. joanne n cara came n they ask us to tell them good luck for their prelims..den kexin say liao den they say 'can move in a squad ah..' den we were like errrr..den they wen off laughing..damn funny can..

den trng ltr jocelyn came. den she gave us some basic drills while we were in our uniform..so hard to march with full U lorr..den they had funn making us change in n out of uniform..from 5 mins become 3 mins..n they pumped van, qh n yf while we were changing..n the sec 1s change faster than i tot.. wore syf tee..felt great wearing the new shirt..hahas.

today is WOMAD..but i can't go..boohoohoo..XD but nvm..shd have other chances de larr..cya ppl =)

today is a nice day!! i usually hate tues de..but today is nice..
1st thing..potato was invigilating sec 4NA prelims..so he din come to teach us PE lessons..we ran 2 rounds ard the sch..den mr lai let us do our own stuff..which we used to practise netball..tournament on thurs..i tink i will just die larr..
den next, chinese..waah..that's bad..coz fu lao shi give us a cheng yu test w/o telling us..n it is 50% of our chinese marks!! like wth XD. den also go ying yong wen test..i might fail again!! =(
but after chinese was geog..ms chin let the grps present their project work..den left 10 mins jiu let us hav free time..so good rite?? i like ms chin okkae.n i'm not a les..=)
maths period..mr sim went through the congruency n similar triangles ting..now i'm left confused okkae..so i decided to go for maths consultation on thurs.. i so guai rite?? =)
den after sch, we all wen 226 eat..haish so long nvr go there eat le..like all the old memories coming back lidat..now is like all the students go 206 eat..den onli few students go 226..but 226 de chicken rice is the best lorr.
after eating, we wen back class slack..do some 'work' den we left le..


den as i reach khatib bus stop, i decided to go back pyps see my little juniors!! they so cute can..remind me of the old times..haish. see them so happy, young n innocent..time reallie flies. so fast den next yr sec 3 le..at pyps there..saw mr chia, ms valerie tan, another ms tan, mrs chong and a SCGS de RC teacher..the scgs students go there help mr chia teach e link members. they got a cheer competition n mr chia wan me b judge..is like omg..the judges r e 2 ms tans' n the scgs teacher larr..den i 1 student there..so pai seh lorr..but no choice mr chia wan me go..den go lorr =)
i m a good gal..verii obedient de..heehee.

after that i wen back home le..now studying for tmr de maths test..again i'm guai. i find tt i become more bhb le..=(

n bad news! friday must wear full RC uniform..haish..n i'm pretty sure they will ask us change in n out of U de lorr..dey planning to train sec 1s larr.. but i wan wear my syf tee de.. they broke my little heart =(


anyway..jiayous to all that have maths test tmr..esp 2/2 ppl..we will strive towards our goal of getting at least 18/25 rite?? hope so bahh..


p.s jiayous to all the sec 4s taking their prelims n O lvls tis year!!
pp.s i dun wanna go for e fort canning thingy..=(

went for flag day ystd.. red cross flag day.. den i tot abt last time we all went for the events together..these memories.. i missed them alot.. but they will nvr return again..there will onli be new ones.. hope these new ones will b better..


we went to collect the collection tins and stickers at amkps den went to yishun northpoint there .. haish some ppl reallie !@#$% ..they dowan give jiu suan le larr..but they still say cannot stand us ppl..why dun they come and try..see if its so easy.. but there's also very nice and helpful ppl..they come up to us and donate..n donate like many coins lorr.. there's good n bad ppl.. =) den after that we wen dobhy ghaut... go and collect SYF tee as well as see if got ppl wanna donate..SYF tee verii nice..its a polo tee and onli $10.. so much cheaper than our RC tee..n so much nicer..den after that we split up..me n yinyin wen amk central jubilee there, edna, van and juliana wen to the yishun down there and vivien n chongxi wen bishan there.. at 5 ++ we returned to amkps return the collection tin..van n yinyin were the heaviest.. den after that went home...
quite tired but still managed to study some science.. monday got science test..


p.s cara likes juliana n juliana likes cara.. =)
pp.s mdm xinyu is a good role model.

haish i noe i haven't been blogging for a long time..sadx..no time mahh..
kkaes..ystd got potato ling period..so #$%^&* cann..he delay our recess by 30 min n he just suka suka give us 5 mins extra for recess..he tink lidat we will tink him as angel ahh..oh mr ling give us 5 mins extra for recess..so good ah him.. waaahh..cannot stand it kkae.. n he is reallie naggy larr...dunno who said he shd be married to ape can..so pei..haha..okkae i shan't b so badd.. lets go to geog period..we wen to com lab on 1st floor..ms chin let us surf the internet to find ans for our worksheet..she verii good lorr..somemore giv us chocolates worrx.. ms chin, hope ur illness go away faster..

maths period was cool also..mr sim let us stay in the lab for the whole 2 periods..den we got back our maths paper..i got 22/25..quite happy..i tot i wun even get 20..better den my expectations..haha..den we learnt the congruent figures thing..quite fun leii..

den after maths got trng..sch end at 2.30 den trng start at 3..haish..but good thing is we get to take PT..den coz i ic mahh den verii cham sei..always get bully by mdm sia..haish..but i feel we veri slack can..so abit tough wun die de..but the ting is dunno whether sec 1s can take it anot..sec 1s u all must jiayou horr..den our drill standard can improve..we can do it de!! (i tink)..den at 430 xinyu dey all let us continue with our programme..den coz van left at 4 den onli left 6 ppl..so pathetic strength lorr..even jacquelyn mdm see oready also got nth to say..haish..hope our strength can be more..or can be full strength..XD
PT verii funn..we ran 2nd floor den ran up den ran 3rd floor den 4th floor den come back down..ran n ran like mad can..but its veri funn..hope friday can have more PT..haha..train us to be more physically fit!!

okkae larr..tired le. i gonna rest le..cya ppl..

P.S jiayou for the 2 ppl who have misunderstood each other..talk n explain urself..it would make things better..

haish i noe i haven't been blogging for a long time..sadx..no time mahh..
kkaes..ystd got potato ling period..so #$%^&* cann..he delay our recess by 30 min n he just suka suka give us 5 mins extra for recess..he tink lidat we will tink him as angel ahh..oh mr ling give us 5 mins extra for recess..so good ah him.. waaahh..cannot stand it kkae.. n he is reallie naggy larr...dunno who said he shd be married to ape can..so pei..haha..okkae i shan't b so badd.. lets go to geog period..we wen to com lab on 1st floor..ms chin let us surf the internet to find ans for our worksheet..she verii good lorr..somemore giv us chocolates worrx.. ms chin, hope ur illness go away faster..

maths period was cool also..mr sim let us stay in the lab for the whole 2 periods..den we got back our maths paper..i got 22/25..quite happy..i tot i wun even get 20..better den my expectations..haha..den we learnt the congruent figures thing..quite fun leii..

den after maths got trng..sch end at 2.30 den trng start at 3..haish..but good thing is we get to take PT..den coz i ic mahh den verii cham sei..always get bully by mdm sia..haish..but i feel we veri slack can..so abit tough wun die de..but the ting is dunno whether sec 1s can take it anot..sec 1s u all must jiayou horr..den our drill standard can improve..we can do it de!! (i tink)..den at 430 xinyu dey all let us continue with our programme..den coz van left at 4 den onli left 6 ppl..so pathetic strength lorr..even jacquelyn mdm see oready also got nth to say..haish..hope our strength can be more..or can be full strength..XD
PT verii funn..we ran 2nd floor den ran up den ran 3rd floor den 4th floor den come back down..ran n ran like mad can..but its veri funn..hope friday can have more PT..haha..train us to be more physically fit!!

okkae larr..tired le. i gonna rest le..cya ppl..

P.S jiayou for the 2 ppl who have misunderstood each other..talk n explain urself..it would make things better..

thanks shu nus, caryn lao gong, qianhui pc, yifang, eunice, yingxin cutie =) for the presents..
will upload the pics of my presents another day..

n thanks to the 14 ppl who make another day of my life brighter...i enjoyed the cake n movie..
8th august '06 will b stored in my memory forever!! but the lake house was a little bit of a disappointment..not that nice leii..but the cake at mac was nice n fun..hahas.

oh btw..xinyu mdm..jiayous for the parade tmr..n i can't wait for friday to come..we finally can have PT during trng le..n somemore is we all sec 2s take..so fun..we are gonna run like siao!!! =)

why?? why isit everything i wan it to be always nvr be? why is my life such a disaster? why isit tt everytime i try to make u smile u turn me away? why isit so hard for a person to say sorry? why m i not included in everything that u do? why do u always shut urself in a room n not letting me enter? why can't everything be perfect? why does the word goodbye have a good in it? why is life a cycle? why isit that once u lose it it will nvr come back again? why m i physically strong yet emotionally weak? why isit u dun understand how i feel? why do u treat me this way? why
am i not as happy as u? why r u laughing wen i m crying? why does two upside down tears make a heart? why does a person smile wen they r crying inside? why isit that no one bothers? why
does ppl scold others for things they themselves r doing? why can't u see that everyone makes miistakes? why r u scolding me for things that i have not done? why do i look so happy even though i m sad? why do u have such high expectations? why am i trying so hard yet u dun even bother? why should i bother den? why do ppl have so much pride in them? why does time pass so quickly? why do we have to reach this stage that we can't even br friends? why can't u just tink of others n not just urself? why can't u see that i'm trying so hard? why??

NDP today was a total disaster..well probably frm my point of view..the commonwealth Rc
cadets who were supposed to be in the contingent din come n weilin was totally disappointed..
so was kexin..everyone started feeling anxious can..haish.
den before the parade started..everything seemed so hopeless at tt time..i couldn't take it le..
so u noe..haish..den wenjia joanne they all came n spoke to us..haish.. make me even more anxious..we reallie can't afford to spoil the whole parade..just because of our footdrills..

i noe our footdrill reallie is bad larr..but at least we put in the effort. i would say almost everyone put in their best effort..no one would wan the parade to b a disaster.. but still even though we
put in our veri best..the parade still was a disaster.. our march in march out reallie Cannot Make It..n somemore coz the amksians were so noisy..we couldn't realle hear the command well..n
we din execute the command together..i tink i looked real ugly from upstairs..

so after the parade..everyone broke down..GG, RC..all were disappointed in either themselves or their contingent.. i m reallie sorrie abt the fact tt our drills sucked..n we let our sec 3s n sec 4s down.. but again..at least we tried rite? we practised so hard for this day.. everyone surely want
it to b successful rite?

haish..budden the sirs all said our drills were fine..which is onli trying to console us..everyone tried to make us feel better..but too bad..it din work....=( then after the parade we had to clear up the sch before we could leave.. we were also given time to take photos with our other UG mates.. we took some real nice photos..will post them up ltr.. den after clearing up..we left for pizza hut..lunched there with sam, edna, van, yiling n juliana.. n everyone became high at pizza hut..esp sam coz she saw her _____..haha..she practically wen mad lorr..poor us rite? but i tink i wen siao with her also..so i got no rite to say her..heehee=)

kkaes..now i going to rest le...after so many days of continuous trngs..is time to rest ppl!! bye=)


p.s sam took a photo with her ____ today..so lucky..=)
pp.s sorrie sec 3s n sec 4s for disappointing u guys..we will try harder next time de..

NDP is drawing nearer..so is the exams..

today's trng is more shit..=) NDP trng..saw the GOH (ncc air n land) change into their number 1. damn nice can. let me tell u a secret..i'm jealous!!

today's trng is tiring can..until 8.00pm leii..all because of her. no offence.
XD..but i tink we reallie got to polish up our drills..coz they reallie suck. heehee=). i'm also trying okkae..i wun forget my promise de. at least i'm trying.

den after mr siva dismissed us at abt 6++..we tot there would onli b a debrief den can go le..but who noes? joanne came n started drilling us like nobody's business..n the sec 3s also kana scolded. haish, i suppose we r reallie too slack le..must jiayou worz..=)

den we were dismissed onli after mr ling n other VI's desperate call for us to leave..so tiring can..its not like tmr no need come back rite? aiyo.. thurs got trng, today got trng, tmr got trng, sunday NDP. sianz..but its okkae..i will endure de.. hope the rest can endure too! =)

kkaes..i'm gonna go prepare my uniform le.. bye :p


P.S we r getting our syf tee le..=)

i m reallie sorrie mdm xinyu..dui bu qi. i'd still feel bad even though u say its okkae..=)


today got extra trng..joanne n wen jia came..at 1st suppose to b joanne come onli larr..den dunno y wen jia come..n aso got unexpected mdm n sir. who is annette and simeon (dunno how to spell=)).....den coz jia lin was late for trng..den we all had to hold at pumping position n wait.
n the sun so hot larr. den the floor aso hot..budden xinyu they all moved us into e shade..suddenly so good..den jialin came n she aso kana scolded. wenjia aaso talked to her..hopefully she wake up le..hhaha.

footdrill was shit man..joanne take. sec 3s all fall in with us. den joanne keep samula (i dunno how to explain, those in UG will noe) us..siao one leii..she keep ask us look up n pull back our shoulders. n she let us out late by 25 mins.. BUT i like today's trng..was more like the real trng. not so slack..=) n hopefully tmr NDP trng will b good..fall in at 2.30 leii..n i tink joanne will b there aso. sianz..=) F.Y.I this is not an insult..

P.S mdm xinyu is wei da..if u wanna noe y..come ask me personally =)

NDP trng today was okkae..just that whole body aches coz of ystd de pumpings..haish..sec 1s, u guys de drills reallie must improve sia..or not next yr cannot join footdrill comp le..
btw i hate the wad sir thiam wei or wad larr..i aso dun like sir azmi n another BB sir..but wad to do..they r sirs ma den must respect them..
haish..nth much abt today de NDP trng leii..

oh..n one thing to add..wen xinyu mdm had to leave for the real NDP, mdm kexin gave us hentak kaki command..den as mdm xinyu, wearing her full uniform, walking outside the main gate, passed our squad..she gave us berhenti command..den we behentied. i was thinking..how much satisfaction does she get wen like her squad/unit does wad she says n all..n yet how much disappointment n hurt can she get wen her cadets dun do wad they r supposed to do..or they dun come for trng..haish..i suppose its hard for the chairpersons of the unit as there will b lots of setbacks..=( just hope that the attendance for all trngs r full..its the least we can do..=)

for now i'm gonna rest n study for maths test..see i so guai..heehee. jkjk. =)


p.s i feel i'm having a reallie bad attitude problem. should be pms bah..dun irritate me if possible. i m highly irritative. =)

waah..today de trng is abcdefg (copyrighted from van) larr..hahaha..stupid sia..
we, as in edna yin yin n me kena tekan..shiok ah..haha..
helped the rest clear their punishment of 50 pumping each..which
means we each person gotto do 116 pumpings..siao eh..
wen the rest went to take RCK bronze, edna yinyin n me were doing drills
den bei jiao into the RC room..i hate that feeling..i sucks. trust me..

den inside..got xinyu, kexin n weilin mdm...wah seh..they pro leii..they asked us lots of things..n wen we couldn't ans, dey shouted at us. sianz. den we started doing pumpings..we did 110 in all..n held it there at pumping position for like 10 mins..n we did level 1 position for also abt 10 mins..do until my whole body tremble dao siao..den i in level 1 position still can laugh..i dunno y..maybe coz i was oready shaking le so laugh den will help..heehee. i reallie dunno wad i toking. =)

den the aftereffects of the pumpings ah..wah..can die man. even worse than wen we held it there sia..my hand shake n shake n shake..den qiyu help me put the deep heat rub ah..den make it even worse can..so hot lorr.. waaah i nvr wanna put that thingy again..haha..

den prior to e quitting of CAC..qingyu n ms tan wanted to tok to us, edna, van, yinyin n me..den ms tan was reallie disappointed can..n qingyu was like quite angry with us.. reallie sorry larr..i tink we reallie din put in enough effort..well, hopefully we can join again CAC next year..

den after e CAC tok, we packed our stuff n guess wad?? edna cried..so sad
right?? n even worse, van cried too..n i saw it..n i burst into tears..how come?? we MUST b emotionally strong n aso must b physically strong. oh..but we oready r quite physically strong. hahas.

actually, today de trng is more xiang yang..more like the trng we had before..coz ever since the sec 3s took over..trng was very slack..pardon me for saying this. this is not an insult but hopefully u all can c this as a suggestion on how u all can change.

anyway..i just wanna tell all my fellow cadet mates..we must jian chi dao di..n i wanna tell our YO tt i'm sorrie for all the disappointments i caused u guys to have. n sec 3s i will keep our promise that we will change de okkae?

so fast almost going to exams le..sianz..hopefully everyone will do well..=) gonna prepare for tmr de NDP le..cya!! =)

today's trng is fine..quite fun larr..and i got a chance to hug the RC flag..heehee=) n 2 commonwealth RC members came to our sch to join in the RC contingent for NDP..n they bang chao loud can..

after we finished trng, edna, sam, van, juliana n me went to j8 eat lunch n take neoprintts...gang hao singapore idol roadshow was there so we wentt den saw jonathan they all..den van wen mad over him n jasmine..

finally at 3++ we wen home..n this stupid thing that happen made me realise that people like her should reallie be killed.
me, van, sam n juliana were rushing into the train coz the door was almost closing le..den there was this lady with her so 'fragile' child..we dunno got accidentally knock into her anot..den she started scolding us leii..like what the hell larr..u tink i will put up with ur farking nonsense??
sorrie hor..just to let u noe..i'm not so kindhearted kk..she scolded us, saying that her child was there. she say that how can we push lidat? WHAT THE HELL..she was blocking our damn bloody way!! AND SHE DARE COMPLAIN??!! the door would have just closed on us leii..n wad more, HER CHILD WAS STILL HAPPILY SMILING AWAY!! n she come n tell us that we shouldn't shove around? THEN HOW R WE IN THE WHOLE WIDE WORLD SUPPOSE TO ENTER THE TRAIN W/O THE DOOR CLOSING ON US??!!
if lidat..den how abt if she were in ORCHARD ROAD? i tink she would b scolding every single person in orchard road!!i reallie can't stand tis kind of ppl..so bu yao lian ah..if i were a meanie i would have just told her to SHUT UP! okk..enough abt those kind of ppl..
i'm tired..gonna sleep now..bye people..
p.s i hate rumors!

will you be my friend?? i feel alone..tt nobody's there for me..i reallie hope that someone can take my hand and tell me tt they will be there for me..always holding my hand..it will be the best ting tt ever happened in my life..

there were so many changes since sec 1.. n this yr reallie ish shitty..if i had known tt this yr would turn out like this, i would wish tt sec 1 2005 would never have ended..


why is my life such a disaster? why did i take everything for granted? why was i so greedy? why din i cherish everything that i had? why did so many changes take place? why did u change the way u treated me? why was i left alone? why din i change wen i knew tt wad i was doing was wrong? why was i such a failure? why did the old u die? why din u take my hand hold it forever? why did u let me go? why did i cry? why did u cry? why are some things so fated to be? why why why?


i just wanna be a happiie gal wif many friends..is that too much to ask for??

thurday's trng was like dunno wad shit..did loads of pumpings lar..anyway captain ball is reallie damn fun and the sec 3s r doing quite well as mdms..heehee.=)

den today de ndp trng very sianz..but the onli fun part is that we do combined drills..all UG together..so united..den so sad u noe..coz RC and BB not enough ppl so we had to combine..who was the person who suggested tis?? rrrr..so angry.. we reallie need to recruit more cadets lar..but is like nobody wanna join..haish..hopefully things will change..

today's post is short and sweet..hope NDP will be a success..=)

ystd was SYF actual day le..so fast n 12 or 13 trngs r over le..haish..m gonna miss all the new friends and VIs i made there..but hopefully can c them again maybe wen go for courses, competitions or next yr NDP..the VIs for marching contingent r desmond sir, wai min mdm, ambrose sir, david sir, qing xiang sir, denise mdm, janessa mdm, sarah mdm, patricia mdm, yongcheng sir, nicholas sir..n still got alot others but i forget le..den only a few come for most of the trngs..which is ambrose sir, david sir, and denise mdm..den got another few who go for only internal trng..which is yong cheng sir n wai min mdm..den got also some who go only for combined trng..which is qing xiang sir, janessa mdm, and nicholas sir..den the rest is like come for 1 or 2 times only..so many sirs n mdms..say until i confused liao..

n btw ystd the victorian school perform a very good skit which they made in like only 10 mins..so pro lar..giv me half and hr i tink i aso cannot do a skit as good as theirs lar..den the skit focused on 1 mdm n 1 sir..i dowan to name or not ltr i kena sue den die..but the skit was very funny for us cadets n the rest of the VIs but embarrasing for that sir n mdm..den aft the skit the VIs gotto perform for us den we request for that sir n mdm to do slow dance..den they reallie do lei..(maybe they r reallie together lar)..somemore we dim the lights den very romantic..(we cadets very bad hor..X)) den aft the dance desmond sir say speech..aww..so touching..

i tink our RC unit in SYF is very very very united..even more united den our amkss unit lar..our unit is like one grp here one grp there de..den so not united..the SYF unit is like one for all, all for one..den we sing song together do drills together, play together and work together..reallie very fun..n somemore we din noe each other in the beginning..but still can b so united..n finally our RC unit in SYF become one of the most outstanding contingents..=p

anyway..we will b getting our syf t-shirts and badges soon le..so happy!! den got extra one badge..eh..it makes a diff de okkae..

p.s happy b'dae sam!

ystd was pop..woke up at 4.30am for dunno wad coz can't slp..den wait n wait until abt 6 den i go get ready for the one day camp..so nan de got 1 day camp lor..den reach sch at abt 6.50 den wrote attendance list n tok to the others..all of us weren't exactly in the same attire..den the sec 4s wan us to standardise..n after standardising..we still got punishments -.-


we did PT 1st..sec 3s take..n aft that the shirt reallie stank..
but no choice..we had no shirt to change into..so gotto bear wib it while doing drills..den aft doing drills for quite long we played games. the geating den kana scold by mdms..haiyah..everything we cadets do will b wrong de..=(
den aft lunch was drills drills n drills..pop drills..den it was raining mah den we did footdrill in the rain..n fleonna slip n fell..walao..it was ames help us to bond better lor=)..
lunch was after games..i din hav appetite den..so could not finish my food..den dunno y me n juliana keep laughing while scary lar..almost gave me a heart attack..the weather was very cooling but trng was sian coz joanne mdm keep asking us do same drills..


den finally ard 4++ we changed into our uniforms..we took a reallie long time just to change coz sec 1s uniform was like no buttons..n they aso dun hav boots..so by the time we got all ready for pop..it was like 5+ le..n btw pop was damn shi bai can..oh n..i tink the mdms were terribly disappointd in us..den as we were marching past the time i almost slip n fell coz was raining den the floor was slippery..but heng i din fall or my uniform would be dirty..den aft pop we got a big big scolding frm sec 4s..but i tink we deserved it de..they say like this is our pop n we like made a fool of ourselves..den they say wad they pass out le..den we do how lousy de drills is aso none of their business le..kinda of disheartening rite?..haish..


aft xinyu collect the pizza le den we wen to ava room to prepare for the farewell party..i was reallie moody by then coz we the sec 2s din even prepare a performance lor..we r bad rite?..den aft we all got ready le jiu call the sec 4s ..they ate le den we do our performance lor..n joanne was the 1st to cry..she was like water tap lor okkae..haiis..i suppose it is hard to say goodbye ba..


den aft sec 3s performance was the sec 2s n 1s performance..
oh n i dunno y in the world we cried..we, as in the cadets n the ncos..
for the cadets: shdn't we b glad that they wun b scolding us anymore?!! i admit i'm bad.. =)
for the mdms: i tot they would b happy tt they no need to scold us anymore okkae..i'm being
bad again xD..
maybe aft being together for 1 yr den if hav to say goodbye den a bit she bu de ba..


aft performance..the sec 3s gave a speech n said they were sorrie that they cause the sec 4s so much trouble n that they wun let RC fall in their hands..so touching ritex?
den aft was sec 4s turn to say speech..i tink i forgot wad they say le..but aso very touching..den there were quite a few water taps who couldn't stop..=)


den aft that the sec 4s gave us foodstuffs n all..n they aso gave us a hug..aww haha..den the mdms were like grabbing cadets to take photos wib..n finally i had to leave coz it was 7++ le..way past the time i was supposed to leave..so aft i took my belongings frm the mdms n packed my stuff b4 den i left..


ystd was reallie unforgettable lor..i can't imagine trng w/o the sec 4s coz maybe i'm like used to their scoldings le..haha.. isit a gd ting or a bad ting?
oh n btw our new chairperson is........xinyu!!
vice-chair: kexin
treasurer: weilin
secretary: fleonna
discipline: maurice
quarter mistress: catherine
quarter master: tse wei
welfare: qiyu
logistics: yilin
i was reallie shocked that weilin din get a higher post..but anyway..i tink xin yu would do a great job in leading our unit aso...


n i aso forgot that we owed the mdms alot of punishments..including 70 pumpings n alot of jumping jacks.. looks like we gotto return the punishments someday..haha..
p.s edna..i'm reallie sorrie that i can't pei u to syf today..hope u were okkae..haha..
okkae..i gtg now le..byes=)

hi everyone...i'm back aft 3 days of chalet...
chalet was a bit of a letdown..but chun you
still did a gd job. way to go cy=)
den 1st day we BBQed..quite fun..but we took
very long to start fire..but in e end still get to
BBQ..den at nite we all din sleep. so fun. we just
play like no one's business..haha
den 2nd day some ppl wen to wild wild wet.. n some
wen to escape..escape was so sian we go for 1 hr
onli..whereas e ppl hu go WWW were having so
much fun..damn sian mu lor...but nvm. i wun cry
over spilt milk de=)
den 3rd day we wanted to go cycling de budden
was raining..so upsetting..den we stayed in lor..
but in the end i changed n wen out wib sam n edna
had a real gd time today..we wen this fashion n tried
tons of clothes..i bought 1 skirt..13 bucks. was nice n
affordable. so happy.
oh..n there is trng tmr. sian..=(
stil kao luing(considering) whether wanna go anot..=)

okkae..bye ppl. i'm gonna sleep like a pig:)

ystd de syf was damn tiring...n now i kena sunburn...pain siax...but haven't peel yet..=)
oh..n i can't go wild wild wet. for some reasons..but can go chalet lor =(...

hols r starting..will miss everyone..oh n there will be MANY MANY trngs n camps...sian.
so will c van, edna, yinyin n seniors alot..hopefully we can all bond better...

today's post shall b short... byyee:)

yo ppl...today last day of school le...
everybody must take care kkaes?hols r here..
n ppl tend to get sick...=) so must stay healthy...

anyway...chalet is coming le...4 days 3 nites...wah...so fun...=)
but dunno whether my mum let me go not...i reallie wanna go
wild wild wet...haha...wib so many many ppl...will b damn fun...

n another ting...i realised tt saturdays r approaching real fast...
n we hav to go syf...oh sian...nvm...sir yongcheng tell us to look
on the bright side...coz syf is once in every 2 yrs...so wen we get bagde
den can show off...but i still kinda tink too tiring lei...but since we
halfway through le might as well go through all...n we might b getting
syf tee(but must pay money aso lar. of course)...haha...so nice...den
we can wear to trng...

today very funny...coz we were told must FALL IN at 2.15 to collect CUGC
form. eh...mind you..fall in just to get ONE piece of paper...funny rite...n even
funnier is they tell us must come den they ownself nvr come...den me, van n edna
sha sha wait outside the RC room..n we saw jialing and wenjia going home..den
we finally cannot take it le jiu knock the RC room door..den jiawen open n
we asked her if we supposed to fall in...
our conversation:
us: r we supposed to collect CUGC form?
jiawen: huh? wad ting?
us: oh...coz seniors told us we supposed to fall in at 2.15 to collect CUGC forms...
jiawen: dun have lei...
us: oh..nvm la...(can go home le)
den we walking away den jiawen call us again..
jiawen: i tink some of them went for the CUGC talk or wad...
us: oh...okkae...
den we go le lor...so funny lor...sec 3's tell us must go den the ownself nvr go...
den we returned to class to do preparations for tmr de PTC...so fun lor...
we decorate the class den edna, ks, qh n zy were playing the dunno wad game lar...
but very complicated...so i kept to doing my zuo ye n drawing for the notice board...
(wah...so wei da...jkjk=)) den left abt 5...wah...wad a wonderful last day...
i freaking love everyone...n caryn made 2 aluminium hearts for me=). awww...so
touched..haha:)

p.s thank you edna for the letter...=) n everybody take care..

today last day of MYE...so happi..went to kbox wif yf, qh, va, edna n sam...had klunch..wasn't tt good lar..the hainan chicken rice...aiya..no offence though...den sing n sing n sing...so fun..let off stress...den we went j8 watch MI3...i noe it screen long ago but was exams mah...so today finish exams den go lor...edna, qh n yf din go...but it was damn damn nice okkae...at the last part my heart almost drop out..coz i almost got heart attack..haha..den sam was mad...me n van was like..'sam, we dunno eu..' haha...but of course was fake lar...den today so fun..just wanna tell:
van--we next time go watch more movies kkaes?
edna--cheer up..dun so sad..must b more high..=)
sam--dun b so mad
qh--ur singing was damn good
yf--how come eu must leave so early?

haha...okae...i m being sacarstic(dunno how to spell)...anyway ppl...willl go n hav a good rest...byes

i tink my blog is rotting...1st of all, i din post n secondly not many ppl tag...anyway..4 more days to end of MYE..so happy..got chalet which is fun fun fun..budden aso got syf trng..sians..

maths= i tink i will die coz paper like got onli 1 hr..and somemore the qns is like so complicated...aiyo..hope i can do well for paper 2 den can pull the marks up...
geog= cannot make it lar...the map tingy...kill me lor...
hist= better...even though i din study much...maybe mrs nair took pity on us n set an easier paper..
HCL= walao..the qns is like so tough..the ans they gib is damn close lor...will die man..
eng= worse..the ape set one...compre n summary...die..
science= NA..haven't take yet..but i have the feeling tt i'm gonna die...esp if got qns on particulate theory of matter n refraction of light
lit= NA..coz haven't take aso..i dun even have the village by the sea book how to learn..die aso
dnt= NA..not taken yet..electricity n mechanism..i reallie can't make it...i tink i will fail badly..

wah...i sound pessimistic...haha..but anyway...i still must try my best..esp for sci..coz i dowan go for remedial the whole yr round...aiyo...cannot...i must pass..all other subject aso must pass..can't afford to fail... jiayous everybody...do ur best for the next 4 days...

p.s anybody wans tu go out after dnt paper on thursday?..pls ans by tagging...thx...

i noe i haven't blog for a long long time...sorrie ppl...tu keep eu guys waiting...but i was reallie bz...MYE n all...aiyo its driving me nuts...aiyah dun tok abt tis le lar...btw our grp has been practising real hard for dance...our grp consist of vanessa, edna, sam, yingxin, jiaqi and me.. i hope the dance will be a success coz we did put in our best...
MYE is juz tmr n i dun tink i'm prepared...oh...i tink i will die veri badly lor...still we all musn't give up hope...we will move together as a class..no one shd b left out...reallie dowan tu part wib anyone...coz everyone ish so so veri precious..tu drop anyone along the way would mean disaster..so i wish everyone the best for MYE..we all can do it de...2/2 jiayous..

its been so long since you ever said you guys said you cared...i have tis feeling that there is an invisible wall blocking in the middle...evertime i wanna say some tings, i dun dare..coz maybe you all will tink i m extra...but isit true?...i m not sure..how i wish i am still the one important person that you all need there in your life...maybe from the start it was all wrong...it wasn't meant to be like tis...the way you claimed you reallie hoped that i was with you...maybe it was reallie all a big big joke..i was never part of your life at all...i hope i am wrong but somehow i have tis weird feeling that we are no longer one big big family...and you din ever tink back of our happy past...n happy memories...the times we spent together and everyting..can we ever turn bac the clock?..i dun dare put my hopes high coz i noe you r starting to go further n further away frm me...can i attach a string to you and pull you back so that you will stay by me forever?...i can't coz i noe that tis is unfair to you...you once said that you will not let me leave your side but wad abt now?...i am a thousand miles away frm you...i wanna be so near you that we will be stuck together forever and you will nvr leave me again...

i need you guys...every single one of you r important to me...pls dun ever leave me unattended again...promise me you will stay by my side forever.

these few daes have been veri disheartening for me...i dunno y...but i feel there's smth not right...isit my problem or urs?...eu everytime dun sae den how i noe wad eu r feeling...haiyah...maybe wad she said ish right...eu guys reallie feel tt i'm extra...i feel i m always left out...i juz wan a lil' attention frm eu guys...can't eu all juz grant me tt?...i try tu be concerned but does it work?...things still remain the same...maybe like wad she said again...i shd juz gib up...since eu dowan me..wadever i do wun make eu guys ever accept me...i m juz..juz heartbroken...but at least i noe she's still dere for me...wen no one else bothers...

i reallie wan ur love n concern...juz a lil' fraction of it...pls?..juz spare a lil' time for me..n juz tell me tt eu will be dere for me always...i will b satisfied...
-lurv redx-

btw...we squeezed through the small hole beneath the back gate...zhanhong, jianming, kai sheng, eunice, vanessa, edna and me...so fun...hope e camera din catch us doing it...hahas...

i wanna comment on todae de dance class( CAP )...the dance room was locked so we had tu dance in hall...den juz as we dancing happily n all...the student councillors came...walao...lyk spoil our mood lidat...dey were preparing their stuff for the SCI...den ish lyk we on stage dancing n the student councillors were lyk the audience...it wouldn't be so bad if we din noe anyone...anyway...i can finally do the dance step le...so fun...den we wen tu eat lunch...den i drank bubble tea...budden no pearls...so sad...den wait n wait den finally go for the SCI....it was okae...saw the exco dance...so funny lar...den the meiyan n randy say speech...den ish lyk they speak so funnyly...randy i can understand coz he ish not local...but meiyan lei...dunno lar...n i dun care aso...den saw joanne n wen jia dance...aiyah joanne ish pro so i got nth tu say...den meiyan lei...ish lyk acting lor..so fake...n extra aso...

after SCI we had tu go trng...at 1st din wanna go de lei...budden tink again...should nt always pon or not will become habit de lor...so we go n change...den we do footdrills...ish the sec 3s command...aiyah footdrills so so sianx...walao...den coz gt other CCA grps den catherine dey all shout command we cannot hear...den after footdrills we did PT ...aiyo...so slack...den the jialin ish lyk open defiance lor...den dunno y the mdms neber scold...maybe dey stepping down le den dowan sec 1s hab bad impression of dem...haha..sec 1s ish veri lucky...den recre dey play basketball...den some ppl dowanna play..including me...haha den we sit by the side tok crap n say lame jokes...so fun haha...den finally play finish den dismissed...todae trng reallie veri veri slack...i tink coz maybe no wen jia dey all...i tink if wj come ah...trng will be tough lor...haha...

yay tmr no syf...so lucky...6 weeks no syf...i tink by the time we go bac rite...cant catch up le...coz the trng ish reallie veri tough lor...the footdrills timing so fast...dey wanna die ah...dey wan i aso dowan lor.....haii...life ish boring...people pls tok tu me more...n make my life more interesting...
-lurv redx-

this whole week was sucky...

thursday
so depressed...was reallie sad wen eu din tok tu me...i felt so helpless...did i go n fan eu until eu reallie couldn't stand me anymore?...but apparently it wasn't lyk wad i tot...so on thurs...i juz cr***(i m sensitive tu the word)...i'm sorrie i made eu cry too...eu shd have told me earlier...i tot eu din care oready...anyway..din eat lunch on thurs coz was so depressed...din have the mood too...although sam van n yf wen tu eat...i was lying on the table n trying tu sleep...hopefully forgeting y i was so sad...but no...everytime i raised my head i looked in ur direction...eu were so alone...n tt made me feel even more sadd...finally i got over the whole ting...n eu said sorrie...tt was unexpected...i shd b the one saying sorrie in actual fact...but juz as i tot the whole ting was over...i neglected sam's feelings...i'm sorrie...but anyway...everyone was fine after a while...sam left in a hurry...i juz wanna tell sam...i love eu my dear...n sorrie for neglecting eu...let the lao gong gib lao po a kiss..muackss...okae?...

friday
dance n drama was veri veri fun...dramaa class i acted as sam's jian fu(lover)..while van ish sam's husband...was veri fun..den dance..danced many diff types of dances...including latin...was veri funny...den i became the CD gal...coz i was standing at the bac...so everytime mr low say stop..i gotto rush tu stop the player...walao...even sam c liao aso laugh...den after sch wen tu c mr V tan...abt dnt project...i learnt tt i m being selected for the junior show..which ish unexpected coz i tot my artefact tu be stupid...den somemore gotto touch up the artefact n den present it in front of the sch...arghh...i m not tt brave okae...den decided tu help paint the class n pon RC trng...coz there was not enough ppl helping tu paint...actually we wanted tu go trng at 4 plus de...den decided tu inform the mdms earlier...budden hu noes...they gave us an earful n even spoke tu ms low...walao...gd lar...n ms low's fault lar..we helping tu paint class and as our form teacher shouldnt eu help us?...wad's more tis is painting for ur class lor...come on lar...den lots of tings happen..n it was raining...den after i paint a while den my hands veri dirty...den decided tu pei vanessa go toilet..coz she stomach ache...budden as i walked out of the class room...surprise surprise...wen jia n jocelyn were outside...so extra...den felt so bad abt pang seiing edna..sorrie my dear...i din do it on purpose...den i dunch noe wad the mdms sae tu edna but i tink the say yi ding muz go for trng...so stupid lar...den glenn veri funny...keep telling ms low they need more ppl...sort of excusing us frm trng...budden ms low din care abt him le...so she tell us tu pack up n leave...so sad lor...i m disappointed at ms low de behaviour...den wen for trng ish onli sit there tok tok...sian lar...we could have well taken the time tu paint the class...den the sec 3s all din come except catherine...so guai one...haha..den we were dismissed at abt 645 lidat...den gang hao met beijia n glenn dey all so walk tu bus stop together...reach home late n felt tired...so ate den wen tu sleep...syf trng tmr...
-lurv redx-

so fast n a week is over again...had trng on fri n syf on sat..

trng was slack...had footdrills...taken by sohee n rosemary...they r nice ppl...dey don scold lyk a mad tigeress...unlike some others...den keep doing e drills...so sianx...was quite slack lar...boring too...den after footdrill was lesson...coz fleonna din come...me n weilin had tu teach o.a lesson (outdoor activity)..teach the rest abt knots n lashings, how tu read a topography map (sounds chim rite?), den also abt the silva compass...weilin explain while i write...apparently i write quite small den the mdms keep complaining...i m trying my best le okae...well..in the end my writing was quite big but it went slanted...sorrie have tu hai eu all read slantedly...den coz weilin n i tot no need teach the silva compass so we take longer time tu teach the maps...den was scolded by joanne...in the end we still taught them budden i tink they din reallie understand...which makes me feel so shii bai...budden veri funny lei...not i teach y i feel shii bai?..hahas...i aso dunno....

den after lesson is Pt...tis time coz i was lesson i/c so yin yin n xinyu was PT i/c...den aagain did all e warm up den ran the 4th floor den come down one level by one level...den at 1st floor we took cover..den coz the command was very quick den xinyu juz wen down on the floor so i stopped den catherine pushed me frm behind...wah...pain sia...but i was not reallie injured...den jiu rest den run again...PT aso quite slack lar...except for wen we gotto do 10 guys pumping...wah...i reallie felt lyk giving up...budden still endured...coz mdms aso did wib us...den after PT we din wan re-cre so rest until debrief...

debrief was slack aso as no one actually responded tu the mdms...eveyone was slacking until wen jia arrived...she wen for soccer eu noe...wah lao...i dowan criticise eu de lei...budden as e chair shouldn't eu b more er...responsible...lyk put more effort into red cross...soccer may be important but as e chair of Rc...aiyah....dowan sae le...den i m wondering y is everyone so afraid of euu?...eu r aso a person wad...den y jialing tok n say so many tings we all never listen n never sit straight den suddenly eu come den everybody so scared...how come?...eu aso a person wad...aiya...i aso dunno lar...

den left school at abt 7 after taking name tag frm joanne...i left wib a pile of stupid books...some more got coke bottle n boots...aso got the dnt artefact...den took bus home wib yin yin...gd ting she help me or i would have died...den luckily for me...mum picked me up at the bus stop...reach home jiu start tu get ready my uniform...for syf the next dae...slept at abt 11pm...

woke up at abt 7...bathe den wear uniform, n i actually realised tt my crocodile socks were in the washing machine...n i cant wear boots w/o croc socks...so i was supposed tu meet edna at bishan at 8 budden coz my socks haven't dry...she had tu go by herself....reallie sorrie my nuer...den my mum came tu the rescue...she drove me tu gyss...den waited for edna at the bus stop outside gyss...den we wen in together n register...den had UI...sarah mdm said my uniform was up tu standard but my belt was too loose...den stood in senang diri position for a long time coz had tu wait for everyone tu finish UI before could start the real footdrill session...den we all practised footdrill for half an hour...before the reall selection...there was 5 stations...den each station lasted 20 mins...den i feel lyk be in syf is a guang rong ting budden the trng hours veri long n tiring...den we not sure hu in hu out aso...so hav tu wait for next week...

tired...until next week...bye...
-lurv redx-

todae had the syf tingy...was kinda sian...coz onli me n edna...my mum drove us dere...tt was lucky coz we din noe how tu go...the trng was at guangyang sec...frm j8 actually can walk de...but we were not sure...den as we were crossing the road i was tinking...the mdms sometimes maybe strict n always scold...budden wen without dem...the feeling is lyk veri lonely...somehow...lyk coz we dunno anyting n without anyone hu noes the way...eu r stuck n can't move on...dey have always been by our side, guiding n showing us the way...leading..n den one day...dey jus leave...its kinda scary eu noe...

but we still found a way out...maybe its lyk even though eu r stuck...dere is always a way out...the someone hu has always been by ur side can leave too..n tt doesn't mean eu r stuck forever...eu've gotto keep moving on coz the world doesn't wait for jus eu...

there were sirs n mdms...all frm HQ de...doreen mdm, wei shan mdm, wai min mdm, david sir, ambrose sir, yongcheng sir, n 2 or 3 other sirs...i forgot their name le...see i so forgetful...eee.. den during UI( uniform inspection), coz me n edna no name tag...mdms come n ask...wei shan mdm ask how come no name tag..n she aso ask wen jia never gib ah...den i say never lor...coz is e truth wad...aiyah all the badges we earn aso haven't get...anyway it doesn't matter...so den we did footdrill footdrill footdrill all the way...sianx...

they were trng on our sediya n senang diri...dey keep testing n testingg...den coz got alot of cadets den the banging was chao loud...so nice lor...budden do marching n hantakaki...other ppl de timing so fast...kanasai...can't catch up lar...arghh...can't dey do slower abit?...but lidat still gotto endure...sian...den after every 1 hour den got a water break...was so hot lei...den do the keblakan(turn tu the back) on the march ah...they all do so fast...some ppl aso cannot catch up...aiyah...den sirs n mdms keep perfecting these few drills...do until sian diao...

i wanted tu go flag dae de...edna aso...but we were stuck in this syf tingy...actually is aso our fault lar...coz is we go select the wad footdrill course de...something lidat..for those hu noe...fan zheng whole time was footdrill...n wearing full Uniform somemore...aiyo...n we couldn't change out of U in guangyang coz doreen mdm sae wad the YO(youth officer) of guangyang dun let us change...wad come in uniform den go in uniform...so we were all forced tu leave straightaway...so we go j8 lor...den change n all...den eat kfc n buy Yin Yin b'dae present...den we aso buy a stupid water bottle...is in the shape of baby de milk bottle...i find me n edna so childish...haha...she bought pink den i buy blue...sam n va next time go j8 mini toons can buy aso...den all the shu nus 4 got same bottle...hahas. i find myself so veri veri childish...but the bottle ish cute lei...n is $3.90 so we buy...

den after buy the present den we go OP...wah..so crowded..coz got pre-renovation sale....everybody rushing tu buy stuff...den i gotto go home le...but edna still stayed coz she still looking for some stuff...reached home at abt 3.10...so tired...
-lurv redx-