Lets just say, you have described everything that I felt. My nonchalence towards everything, as well as my indifference, was an image I had promised myself. Because sometimes its just so difficult to face the forthcoming of an unexpected event. Exactly an event like. . .the dismal view of emptiness up ahead. Then you'll ask yourself, what happened to the usuals? Or where am I heading? Home? Are we going for lunch? Are they waiting for me? Or am I waiting for them?
The myriad of questions subconsciously appearing into your mind, endlessly.

Why is this even necessary, if people don't assume. & most of the time, however, we assume. Well its true that it takes initiave to be the one to voice out those simple questions, but who is the consistent one that, without fail, will ask these questions daily?

That's why it is said that people learn to cherish only when they realise their loss. Because when it is there, people don't realise its significance. & always assume it will always be there. However once it has disappeared, they ponder over its loss. Or maybe not? (Take for example this instance)

Sounds cliche right, the part where 'poeple learn to cherish only when they realise their loss', but astoundingly, every single word there makes absolute sense.

Anyway, I believe ours is but closely bonded camaraderie(not brotherhood, but sisterhood?); where sometimes avoidance is necessary, right?? Right.

And the prolonged silence in between is just to give us time to think of our next word, right?
Right again.

I do hope it ain't just self-consolation. Because it shouldn't be self-justification, as it requires every invovled person to recognise the above 2 lines.

That day will come, when we supposedly will meet once every 2 months; despite our new life, our new friends, & our hectic future. Roam the world together? Absorb the wondrous sight of New Zealand together? When now the presence of long silence-s & avoidance already awaits every day?