sometimes i feel like giving up, giving up seems so tempting. seeing other UG, they all have their parades, ROD, POP ..like its such a grand event. seniors, ex madms and ex sirs, friends and brothers.. are all invited by an invitation through email, through letter. and they have their parade in the parade square, such a huge and grand event. i'm upset, but what can i do? our POP, so upsetting. maybe it was meant to be like that. a disaster? or maybe we were just suay, coz the parade square was in the process of renovation...why? why? why?!!! what happened?! what happened to the once so glorious red cross? when i took out our flag just now, and let the wind blow it high, it looked so beautiful, so full of power. just like what we used to be. but i don't know why, why it has become what it is now. things are just so bad. i don't know how to make it better. i'm so useless, what kind of yi zi am i? i know, in u all de eyes, i'm not one. i can't do a single thing right. if so, why am i here? i really don't know. but whatever it is, i'll still try my best. don't worry, the unit won't fall. and i'll keep all my promises made.