everyone's getting out of hand, yet i'm doing nothing. no wonder i'm at fault. so what if i already knew, i did not do anything about it. yes yes. its my fault. its my responsibility. to keep ** in hand, make sure ** don't do wrong things. make sure ** don't overwrite me. scold ** if she does anything wrong. and i still have to take care of **'s welfare. omg. i'm trying okkay. i really am.


yes, i'm a coward, a total failure. a failure to keep them in hand. i'm stuck at a fork of my current life. i'm so unsure, so unconfident. i really don't know how. counting the numerous times i've cried over this. i'm just useless. what should i do? which route should i take? where should i go?