its strange how the closest of friends become the worst of enemies, and yet, distant strangers whom although cross paths everyday without taking a second look to the person whom they've just passed become the best of friends, will these 2 newfound friends become enemies after being together for awhile? and let the cycle continue? is it true that friends can never be forever? but how about the memories? will they just remain as memories? stored somewhere at the back of one's mind? but never to be brought out again? is that what will happen 10 or 20 years down the road? when we grow old, can we remember what we went through in the past with the friends of ours? what if one day we crossed paths again, but yet don't acknowledge the fact that we were once friends? will it hurt? will it bleed? will I feel a thing?

i've been dreading farewell assembly. i'm afraid, afraid that once they go, it would be the end.

once in my life, there was this person named ______ __. she touched my heart with all those small actions of hers. she helped me with my schoolwork, and was a great senior/madm cum friend. she could take time out to be by my side when i was unhappy. we were actually more than just madm and cadet. and i did go to her farewell assembly, to bid her goodbye. i got her something. i hope its still with her now...ya there was hugs and tears, i was afraid though, to say goodbye. but after i left, she sent a msg thanking me for the present. and she said something i would nvr forget. 'best cadet and friend'. i thought i could believe it. maybe i was just thinking too much. but how it seemed so far away. we no longer talk, where did our friendship go? why..why must she go back on her words, maybe as she said, let our past be a memory. that hurt, but its true. my next obstacle, with 2 closer people, to me la. to them, i don't know. but they're even closer to me than the above mentioned. the hard times of being cadet were spent together. the good times were even better. messages, long chats on the phone and outings after trainings and events. i'll never forget the bus rides home.....and of course train rides? these memories are really important. i know...as you said, things change, people change. feelings will not be gone but will only lessen. because we'll be going seperate ways..... will there be a day where we can meet again? and still be best friends? i'm scared. really scared. every single one of you say that we'll be best friends forever...but isit true? once u move one step ahead in ur life, u'll nvr turn back again.. and these friendships will just be a figment of our memory, something to remember but not to be dugged up again. . . . grrrr i hate life. i hate goodbyes. actually not really hate, but fear...i'm sorry.