the most unforgettable trng..a trng..which might change my mindset forever. i'm really sorry. i apologise. i nvr meant it that way. how u r feeling now..i feel many times worse.maybe it nvr occurred to me that wad i said was counted as rebutting. but now i know. i apologise. i will change..it won't be an empty promise anymore. i wanna say..i cried..because i was hurt by the words u all said. i'm trying..very hard to control. but the thought that this will be our last trng together..and the fact that on the next trng long time from now...i would feel so lost without u all. but maybe ..maybe no one knows. well..i knew from the start i won't be a gd oic..nor will u all win our bet. i know the qualities lacking in me..but some of these..are so hard to change over such a short period of time.. i dunno how to face u guys anymore..seriously. i don't know how..and what to do. we mustn't be so indecisive..nor should we be so weak. we cannot cry just because we feel disappointed..or at our wit's end. but must we be void of all feelings? sometimes..i hate my face. because of my face..it has caused some misunderstandings. i hate it..wad is shown on my face may not be how i really feel. but i guess..no one will ever know.......whatever. i'm past caring abt this already. maybe now..post don't matter anymore..its just how well the unit will do. i want as much as all of u to win footdrill comp, csa, eua, CAC, fa comp. who will don't want?? maybe sometimes putting in effort alone will not work.........or maybe i have not put in my all.