her naggings again........ its never ending. how i wish i can just shut my ears...


nana's post...exactly what i feel....things which have an optimistic start will not have a good ending....i wonder............will a bad start result in a good end?? and why.....do we regret after everything is over? yet no one cherishes the present? and a few years from now..we will think of wad happened..and the cycle repeats itself once again... i wonder..how fragile or weak a friendship is........ or how strong it can be? a so called strong friendship..can just break into pieces...just by some words said..or by some action.. but yet..a weak friendship can prove to last a lifetime..maybe..being just normal friends won't result in this happening. i feel..i have never really hated anyone..coz my hate..don't last for usually more than 2 days..... i wonder how some ppl can hate others for a lifetime...won't it be good if all hatred were removed? or maybe...a world void of all feelings would do everyone good...


and ppl change drastically...so much that we can no longer recognise them..some ppl change for the better..others for the worse.....under others' influence..they can change so much....where did they go?? the THEM i used to know......... just where did u all go? why do you have to leave me behind..bring me along........i promise i won't be a burden..i'll just tagg behind.......i won't bug you all too...just don't leave me behind. why......ppl tell me ALL THE SAME THINGS.. don't think too much.........why ahh..i really think too much meh?> maybe..frequent headaches unknown to anyone except myself...the white light when i close my eyes.......how i wish......this is all a nightmare.......but no..i close my eyes..and open them again. i'm still where i am.......maybe.....i expect too much..from myself..from others. or mabe even not. mid yr exams in just a few days....how will i do? xinyu reminded me.......we will have to give them our result slip after MYE..i can't afford to not do well..i don't wanna be like last yr...i try.....i must... other than MYE there's CCA. love my cca alot..finding ways and means to improve it.....why can't it be like last time? where we don't get teased by NCC air..and land. how hurting to see ppl insulting RC.. but well. everything haad changed...our attitude...towards cca..cadets say they forced to join.....why can't they had join out of their own accord? then they will give their best...........nvm. its not up to me to say anything..i wish for the best in everything.........................but its not possible..


does screaming really help??