i introduced ks to techno dance songs. and he said only emo people listen to them.

i denied, i thought only crazy people like me listen to it. but come to think of it again, i guess he's right.

i feel, these days i'm becoming more and more emotional. sinking deeper and deeper into not depression, but something else. i don't know what. craziness. i want to cry. but not at home. i can't. i miss them so much. thank you sam, for we share the same sentiments. we miss them so much. so so so much. i can never forget. ks said that people will always encounter goodbyes. its true, so many goodbyes. yet this year would be the saddest goodbye. i know it may seem stupid, as parting is just a small part of life. but i can't. i really tried. edna told me to try, as everything is possible. but i can't, i will succumb to the sad emotions in me. i tried so hard already. very hard. maybe after they leave i will be fine already. that will still be a long time from now. i want to just forget. how to? someone tell me what i should do..