i don't feel good. i don't know why..i only know i feel crappy. i feel invisible. i think i really think too highly of *it*. maybe it was just wrong. yeahh..what you said makes sense..i finally get it now. i finally understand why you told me all that. i guess things were meant to be like this? and god wants to make my life miserable. or maybe he's testing my endurance. whatever, i'll endure.