ask urself if u have spent enough time with them, to nurture them, treat them like ur own. whether u'll feel happy when u see them do well, whether u feel sad when they disappoint u. whether u feel proud of them when they win in events.


yes, i said. and in your mind, you recalled. you did cry because u din lead them well for NDPo6. at least you felt something. there's a start. u did feel for them. why din ours feel for us?


i feel sad, hurt , we put in the effort to try our best. to do well in parades. did u feel proud of us? this is not the first time i'm blogging about this. i just can't get over it. someone tells me. [WE won't give up on YOU ALL. because if we give up on you all, we're throwing ourselves in. WE giving ourselves up. because YOU ALL are our precious darlings. OUR future hope. WE must nvr give in no matter how much YOU ALL disappoint us. if YOU ALL ever dare to give up on yourselves, WE must try to pull YOU ALL back on course.]


how i wish u all would think this way. i knew that she felt that way, but i don't know abt u all. once the feeling of being lost is there, the trust we give will nvr be that 100% anymore. coz we know that we can never fully rely on u all ever again. [u all held our hands so tightly, and led us into a dark dark tunnel. we were scared, but u all told us not to be afraid, because u were holding our hands. we relaxed a little, because at that moment, we were fully independent on you. whether we fall in the tunnel, it depends on you all. we brought us a little further, but losing the grip. as we walked on, the grip became loser and loser. until a point, suddenly, we lost all contact. because u let go. u know how lost we felt??! we couldn't see!! not a thing, imagine the feeling of being afraid? ready to cry out any moment. do u know?! i guess not. i don't know why u all had chose to let go. ] but it did eat into us. chewed on us. bit a piece off us. our confidence. u made us lose it. it hurt, but we tried to get over it. we're doing better now. we've learnt from that time onwards, to do things ourselves. coz we can no longer rely anymore. independence.


but learn to let go. stay strong. we can do it.