The current weather is seriously tormenting. The immense heat is driving me up the wall, you see. During English comprehension test, envisage yourself in an oven while doing a test. You'd go berserk, I tell you. I suppose its the effects of global warming? Plus, this heat makes everyone more irritable and less approachable.

Imagine that Weather, in the past where no one would take note of its existence, has become the crux of our vexation today. What about, bestowing upon us the great gift of rain; that would help.

Mg + O ---> MgO
Redox?
Chemistry?

Y'know, your chem lessons suck big time. & I swear I will nvr forget what you did! That made me dislike you so much; I nvr wanted this to happen. Cause in others' eyes, you were the perfect teacher, the one with a nice voice, the one with beautiful handwriting. Say that I think too much or whatever, I don't care. & I'm not the rude one, I didn't purposely throw those papers at you, but you'd always been the one to say nasty things to me. I bet you don't even know your words carried so much weight, right? But I'm a part of 2/2 'o6. Nth will change that fact, even if you'd nvr wanted me as your student!

Then what's this class now? Just a class where everyone's broken up into cliques? & its all about competitive studying, to beat one another in the upcoming tests. What's the point? So what if your results are better than someone else's? Does that make you happy?

Wouldn't being in a class where you receive care & concern from others be better than being in a class where criticism & sacarsism resound in between the 4 walls?

Why is it that for them, its the Ts that are continuously giving? Why are those Ss so lucky? They just take liberally, like the care & concern of the Ts is unlimited. Their Ts are willing to sacrifice time to be with them, to put those Ss who need help back onto the right track. But the Ss don't even care. If only, the Ts care & concern would be shown to us, its much more than we can ask for. & their care will surely be reciprocated. But again, its sth that can't ever happen.

Sam, ask why I can't go to your T to ask for help? That's because, when my own T wouldn't even care, your T ain't obliged to help me. & even I feel chagrined by this circumstance. You tell me why?? You've ruined the 'good T' impression I used to have of you. But I know I shouldn't ruin others' good impression of you.

surpressed, till I let it go today.
Sorry is all I can say.

I never meant for things to turn
out like this.

Council ceremony today. It was the last alr.
Took photos, as memories. Ain't it wonderful
that UG can bond ppl tgt?

Receptionist team was great!; Even though
the number of guests was few. The ceremony
had seen some cockups, but the emcees Benjamin
& Yilin did a great job in 'covering up'. ((((:
The video presentation was not bad either, cheers
to kl for the video.

Took the cadets for rounds around the sch,
taught them how to sing the Red Cross song.
However, that has caused some misunderstandings.
Sighhhhhhhhh.

Then there was the combined UG footdrills.
Apparently I 'fall out' during the drills. Which
is damn malu!! I have nvr 'fall out' during drills
before okay!! So diu lian. Sighhhhhhhhhh AGAIN.
Then Mendi had the same problem as me. Its
painful okay; though somehow, I will always
manage to endure throughout the process. =)))

Then we thought of doing 2/2 'o6 drills, like how
we used to. But we couldn't do proper drills cause
we had to take our own platoons. But no
matter what, 2/2'o6 will always have a place in
all our hearts!

And then sir Izuan gave his last speech, as
he is leaving for 6 months to go somewhere.
I don't know where. Anyway, gd luck.

This somewhat marks the end of our UG life.
Though in june, there's still the BIG thing.
I just hope we can step down in peace. Do our
last 'besurai' happily, and watch them take over.
Red Cross spirit runs in my veins! I won't forget.
Cause it shall be forever-and-a-day.

One message, was all it took to trigger those memories.

It took so long, to forget. Was close to succeeding, to just

forget that friendship you'd cruelly abandoned; picking it

up when things went smoothly, but leaving it behind when

you were occupied. Its not your fault, though. You have

your life. However, so many times, it gets demoralising,

when I want to forget, yet I'm unable to.

Tonight, you sent a message; expecting me to reply. You

once said this invisibility would last, & because acquintances

knew more. I once proved your theory wrong. Now, I know

you're wrong too. Cause you'd never rmb; I don't expect

you to. Cause you'd never understand; that though this bond

might not have meant much to you, it meant alot to me,

because this friendship was special, unique. Erase everything,

cause you're a much happier person now. I don't expect you

to rmb this old friend you used to have.

Just, don't talk to me again. Assume you

never knew me; let this invisibility die.

Unbelievably, I'm momentarily elated! Browsing through photos brings back memories about the sweet victories! I'm happy, contented. (:

Chanced upon a fragile soul.

Despondency overwhelmed it;

poignant agonies filled up inside.

However, the surroundings, of quiescent

melancholy, gave it a place to reside

in.

Thought t'was completely

broken, thought the lingering

hurt in it would never subside.

But today, things happened

unexpectedly. Too much

laughter, too much talk;

too good to be true. Seemed

like the abysmal misery had

already been omitted, &

things went just too smoothly.

The talk about her outlandish

behaviour(it was THAT serious),

just hauled all racing thoughts

to the forlorn scene of the

shattered soul.

Why is everyone

broken?

Warrant to Private.

Tried to let go, tried to give up,
tried to not care, tried to run.

But they held on, never gave up,
showed they care, caught up with us.

Walked 2 rounds around the
sch, in hope our moods would
lighten. Felt much better afterwards,
but almost succumbed to the plight
of the feeling of disappointment;
watching the gradual disappearance
of their shadows.

Which parent would ever stop
loving their children?; Children
that they have moulded from
nothing to something.
Though at times, children can
give parents such a huge major
headache, that the parents get
so frustrated about. But
nevertheless, parents still feel
proud of their children when
they do exceedingly well, & of
course ---- when they rmb how
much effort their parents put in;
when they think of their parents.

It was the kind of fairy tale &
chirpy, happy kind of ending, or so
it seems.

But there's one shut door, this door
has been shut for a long time. But
just recently, it became locked. The
key to the lock, its hidden, but we
must find it. Unlock & open the door,
treasures aplenty. One day, when
I find the courage to search for the
key again, I'll make sure I find it.
Till then, I shall just watch the world
revolve around the finding of this
sacred key.

Words or actions phrased or done wrongly
will result in misunderstandings.
& misunderstandings hurt, alot.


Tmr is the last. She said to 'screw' them,
but how can I? When I know that they
aren't strong enough to take it. I feel like a
Devil. Pushing them so hard was what I
thought was right, I wanted them to excel.
But somehow they aren't as strong.


'IT' is coming soon, the great handover.
The moment of pride & glory when we
look back into our past achievements.
If we become ONE, will they feel this
way abt us just like how we feel abt THEM?
Then what's the use of joining, we asked
ourselves. Will our seemingly never-ending
passion end one day? & it comes down
to the handling.

You see, so many ppl have said, 'I don't
think you're handling IT the RIGHT
way'. Define RIGHT please. If it wasn't RIGHT,
why are we always presenting awards to Mr
Tan/Mdm Tong in the morning? Why have
we established a name for ourselves again?
Leaving many others in awe of our achievement;
as when we took over, no one thought we
could do it.

Will they be able to keep the spirit? Even
though one is down, the rest will keep
up, right?