just chanced upon someone's life in UG..after reading her post..i felt i could share her feelings..i don't know why. the feeling of being laughed at..by ppl whom u would have thought to be ur bestest of friends..but they actually backstabbed u..called u names. but they don't understand..they don't understand wad we are going through. just because we don't show it or tell..doesn't mean we don't get hurt..don't get upset. people who seem strong physically might not always be strong mentally. but this point no one understands. they just keep doing wad they are doing..they don't even care of wad's become of u.


in UG..everyone are trained to be strong..but surely it takes time to train..and during the process.. there is bound to be a time that u would feel hurt someway or another..and someone might be there to share it with u..and just as u think u could trust that person..because he/she had gone through lots of things with u..he/she just somehow disappeared. disappeared...changed..into another person..a person u could no longer recognise. time changes ppl..but why of all ppl..change this person u were just abt to put all ur trust and hopes into?


she had a passion..a passion towards her CCA. and everyone thought she was a superwoman..but they didn't know that even a superwoman would have her weakness..a point in time where she would be in a corner...crying. feeling sad..feeling hurt. but no one cares. that's because ppl are just so selfish. they only care abt themselves. and they call themselves best friends. a true friend would be by ur side no matter wad..to catch u if u were ever to fall..to pick u up when u drop. to hold ur hands and pull u along..and nvr to leave u if u needed any help. and as a leader..she is trying her best. but ...somehow.. its still not enough. maybe she is bias? and that's why she does not get full respect from all her cadets.


why will cadets wanna quit?? because they feel its no use continuing on in UG because they are not being treated equally. because some ppl rely on their relationship with the NCOs to get into the higher post. then wad abt those who really put in effort? those who really wanna see their unit prosper?? its not fair la..but some NCOs just dont understand..UG these days is getting so bad..even if there are alot of ppl joining..the unit will not be united. how to keep the cadets? the leaders will think...how do i plan a fun trng? UG should be disciplined...and not a slacking CCA..but the cadets don't feel this way. somehow..they just don't understand how we feel. we have so little ppl in our CCA now..and we are trying our UPMOST BEST already..we ask the sec 2s..try to get more ppl..but somehow..they just give us crap. i can see some are trying..but its only like 1 person who is trying..if not 2. why? why can't u all just see the need to recuit more ppl?!!!! WHY?! do u want to wait until the end of the year..and nearing the date for u all to take over then realise u don't want such a small squad. and then only start giving ur best into trying to get more ppl? why..why do this? when u can do it now.. there's still time..but u all just don't see it. and when we nag at u all..u all give us AP..u think its very nice to nag meh? u know how pekchek we feel anot? we really feel like giving up le u know? but...how? we r just about to take over. and there's already some problems..complications that u all don't understand yet. don't make the same mistakes as u la..get more ppl..expand the unit..can u all just try to understand for once? to put urself into our shoes? give ur best to this CCA..since u've already joined..there's no use thinking abt 'if only i hadn't joined UG'..just give ur best lo.


ahhh..i don't even know why i'm typing this post. its really no use la..i keep telling myself..i tried le...but i can't help but think its a bit of my fault that everything's wad it is now..that the unit has so little ppl..if only i had gone further out to getting more cadets..haish...maybe its too late?? but i'll keep trying. hopefully things will turn out better. for that her...i dun think u'll be reading this...but yea..dun think too much..some things are not worth u being upset with.