that feeling ..when u know that they are disappointed with u but they r not showing it..but and when u know u have tried ur best. seriously la... if u think u're so good..why dun u try it urself? we have put in so much effort, but u all still think we're still fooling around. and we're not okkay? how to get high when all this shit is happening?


and u tell me..is it right to lie? if not, why do u all lie too? why do u wan to drag others into the suffering that we're going through right now? i dun get it. is it really right to do that? u're dragging others into the water la. i seriously dun wish to do that. i dun wan others to be going through the same fate as us. i dun wanna bluff them. i wan them to do it of their own accord. but....there's no choice..we have no say. so that's that.


i know i'm not the only one going through this. there r others who r going through this too right? but just glad to know i'm not alone feeling this sickening feeling.


please dun push me to do the wrong thing..i just feel its not right. coz we still lied. and u all know it.