today is the day. yeahh the last. so fast it started, and
so fast it ended. the videos were not as touching as last
year!! but the teacher's messages were definitely
touching. esp ms eunice tan!! hmm, and ms deepa.

edna, qh, ks, sam were up at the gallery with me.
even though we weren't the ones graduating, i guessed
that we felt some other kind of emotions in us. that
is - how we would be next year on this day. how it
would be to control all the emotions which are so mixed
up and hard to entangle. 4 years of friendship, so hard
to let go.

a sudden burst of emotions; they were exiting the then
brightly lit hall, shaking the hands of the teacher's who
moulded them to become who they are now. they were
leaving. leaving. till we meet again. omgggg, when? never?
holding back my tears was just so hard, and sam cried
a whole lot. maybe our definition of 'missing them' ain't
the same. she has her own feelings for her, but unlike
mine. gosh, it was for once we thought differently.

it was the second time i saw xinyu cry, very very
saddenning! people emo-ed and many photographs
taken. perhaps as memories. hugs. smiles. tears. tissue
paper. emo. goodbye. eee..so emo!!

the scenario was something like that of last year, and
i entrusted the 'BIG' task of passing gifts to the sec fours.
ya ya i know its insincere, but .. nvm. but this year
i passed to them MYSELF okay. courage, where are you?!

but i didn't do what i promise i'd try to do. i couldnt, had
the urge to just walk away. i still couldn't, not even today.
i'm sorry. but you were okay! so there wasn't any need
for me to! thank god. hmmm.

oh and, MY PURPLE STAR GOT OWNED by someone
else. i wanna cry!! just kidding la. but really regretted
leaving it on the table!! YINGXIN!! okay, nvm. it's just
not meant to be mine. like omg, i came back and all the
material was gone. i was like, uhhhh.....

& take care of my
star okay? whoever who got it!

now i'm left with 2 yellow stars and a pink one. its hard
to fold a star, i think i told the whole world that just
now. purple star, i'll miss you!

there's school tmr, have to fall in. this shall be the first
time i dread falling in in the morning. hmm. i need to
prepare my uniform, my white rc U! bye people!

and thanks for your letter, i can feel it.