and so, i'm so bored that i've decided to post random pics.
seriously random. =)

look at the flood.

the holy 3, REACTIONS.

beautiful. brilliant photography. USMs.

hey, patrick!

four leaves, so cute. =))

while qj & dinie was in INDIA, ncc land still haad trng. julian

commanded the platoon and reported to js i think. so cool la.

lastly, okay this is terribly cute. have you seen anyone playing the piano &

sitting on a 2 legged chair?

omgggg, i can't stand my random-ness. there's training tmr, i hope the beloved 3 will pass RCK bronze!

tag replies

louisa: good luck for your Os.
joanne: haha no problem, and whenever i go to your blog, my computer hangs!! sorry!
ks: nahh, no problem. =DD
hamtaro: omgg, dylan is like so cute!! haha she's not dao-er than me for sure!!
laura: haha!! ya ya! u all sickos la!! =DDDDD
vivian: hmm, my eng not so good la. hahaha!!
yf: omgg, sounds so sweet!! now we're all back!!
qh: hahahaha, of course, how come u found ur way here and saw ur pics??! =P jkjk.
cheryl: cheryl?? u are ??
sam: yes me, don't sell your house okay.
izuan: yeahh, OBS is the best. india's also great, but couldn't possibly have gone for
both.. there were 2 different experiences. =))) thanks for tagging.

okay, so ystd we had training. only 2 ncos were present for trng, which is qh and me!! the rest either went to help print cip certs, or went for the NE talk. conducated training, normal stuff.

but PT was different.the CUTE pti, inquired how to do 'chest pumping', actually she had meant

chest expansion. so me and qh, being devils, demanded for them all to do chest pumpings. HAH,

how in the world are u supposed to do chest pumpings. its quite impossible, but our dearest PTI was able to do it and teach the squad, impressive?

but of course!!! omgg, i am so attracted to their cute-ness!!

omgg, amkssrcy shall prosper, with our new 'CHEST PUMPINGS!!'

jkjk, okay. then madm joanne came. sigh, disaster.. anyway, the 3 of you had better study

for the RCK bronze, and make sure u all pass!

okay and so, i'm glad to announce that i survived OBS!!



oh yes, i so love my watch & my watch would be TOCK

SENG. they are a bunch of fun, loving, adorable, helpful,

gentlemanly/womanly and great people! i love them to

bits & pieces. bedok south sec & ang mo kio sec make a

great team.



they are none other than iskandar, kenneth, wenyu,

zheng yuan, lin hao, joled, anselm, calvin, arifin, raiz, shaz,

siling, eunice, shermaine, eileen and me! & not to forget

our instructor, KHEE MENG . they are just

wonderful, and they made OBS meaningful. the unity within

is so strong that we share difficulties as well as happiness

together!



the activities were hard to overcome and complete.

everything needs teamwork to succeed.



for example kayaking, in a tri-yak around an island. high

rope elements with a buddy line attached. solo night walk.

pitch black concrete obstacle course as a rescue mission.

trekking with heavy backpacks & life vests & 2 litre water

bottles. jetty jump with jellyfish. outdoor cooking with food

rations.



we were mobile. moving from campsite to campsite.

new experiences for our watch. we shared the similar

experience so we were able to relate to each other. even

though we were strangers in the beginning, our friendship

was built up on trust and dependency to complete the course.



the last day was sad. hmm, but returned to school & met up
with the girls! missed them so much. exchanged experiences.
seeing them again was just so great!

OBS tock seng, to serve to strive and not to yield.

you see, people always choose to trust the lies and not believe the truth.
when the truth stares into their face, they refuse to accept it. they keep
thinking otherwise and that others are deceiving them. why?

gosh, i cannot believe that i am so affected.

had camp planning lessons with 2 cuteppl! haha. evelyn and shawn la.
u 2 have alot to learn, did you both listen to what sam and i said?
take down notes?? hmm.

at least we taught you our first lesson.
PUNCTUALITY! met them at mac. sam in her GG tee, me in RC tee.
after teaching them campfire stuffs, left mac with sam.

slight drizzle. walking under the tiny droplets of water. it was a nice feeling.
took bus 13. sat with sam.

the feeling of sitting beside the window, as the rain drops splatter on the
window pane. so close yet out of your reach. lightning and thunder.
we had ear pieces stuck in our ear. the songs playing over and over again.
strangers filled the bus and there was a constant chatter. but we still fell
asleep; on each others' shoulders.

when will we ever do this thing again? after graduation??

slept till we felt happy. then found the bus almost empty.
upper east coast. alighted when we felt like it.
patronised pizza hut, for their TOILET!! =D sam, you know it!!

we were dua pai. occupied a place meant for 6. =))
ate then went parkway parade - PP! sounds like that guides thing!

searched for polo tees, but none seems to fit. cause my shoulders are
broad, & can't wear female polos. yet guy's polos seem too huge.
we were like gluttons searching for food!, despite the baked rice
we had at pizzahut. eeek, when do we meet for exercise!

left after getting a PATRICK balloon from one of the shops at PP.
patrick as in patrick the starfish! i didn't want to look like an idiot
carrying around that balloon. so dissected it and in it went into a
plastic bag! =))

sat the bus back to yck. it was a long ride. slept again. tired.
everything, music all the same as the ride to upp ec.

bus rides are just great. esp when it rains and you're sitting by the window.

see the unity? =))

emo, emo together. smile, smile together. stare, stare together.

zhuai, zhuai together. its that 'thing' we share in common. where

we understand each other. cherish. treasure. and remember.

during training, the trust game.
the group i was with, as shown below.
they are superbly cute, i swear. look at my fellow NCO.
can you tell me what is she doing?
cause all i know is that the NCOs should be looking
over the cadets! haha, joking. qh seems seriously zi bi. oops.

and yes, mendi touches my hand and knows that it me.
she's got sixth sense.
NCO leading the blindfolded cadet. how adorable! =D
& i love our unit tee!

let me show you how qianhui plays pool.

looks alright, right?


but hey, things are getting out of hand.

and she climbs onto the table.

expert? hmmm.

had a lot of entertainment as i watched her play pool.

but i sense myself in great danger once this entry is out.

but i am lucky, for she is in INDIA & will see this only 8 days

later. oops. forgive me, qh.

when you all walked the red carpet.
i saw you, all of you. till i cried. when
it dawned on me that you'll be gone,
as the classes opposite ours shall be
empty, quiteness shall surround the
4th level. there'll be no one to be at
that window anymore! no one.

no one.

not even her. gone. gone its all gone!
where were the memories?
forever-and-a-day.. no more. when's
the day you'll ever meet again?
where? which part of the world?
will you pretend you didn't see?
will you just walk past as though
they're invisible?
will you stop to think, who's that
familiar face?
will you?

its all scribbled in those little books,
books to them. i hope they get it.
i hope they understand. i hope they
feel it. i want them to know. i need
them to know.

words, inexplicable. i can't explain.
i don't know, why i'm mixed up.

yf, i look up to you. you had the
courage to give yesterday a miss.
i wanted to, but .. i thought i would
regret. i know you'll miss her even
more than i do. i know it. but you
were brave enough, to not go.

it hurts, it really does. tell me what
i should do, when i try to be happy.
to smile, to laugh, to uphold an image.


today was bad enough, i did try. try
my best to excel, just for once. to
do better than i myself expected. but
i was utterly disappointed, even more
than the usual. and some things made
it even worse. qh finally understands
how i feel.

you called. i didn't know if i should pick
up. but i was having training. it was the
first time you called. but i was glad that
you were fine.

my dear dear cadets, i'd hope today's
training had helped you recalled more
of your drills. footdrill competition is
round the corner. we must show the
rest. is that CLEAR?!! =DD
way to go AMKSSRCY!

this post ended in a happy tone, luckily.
i hate my results.

today is the day. yeahh the last. so fast it started, and
so fast it ended. the videos were not as touching as last
year!! but the teacher's messages were definitely
touching. esp ms eunice tan!! hmm, and ms deepa.

edna, qh, ks, sam were up at the gallery with me.
even though we weren't the ones graduating, i guessed
that we felt some other kind of emotions in us. that
is - how we would be next year on this day. how it
would be to control all the emotions which are so mixed
up and hard to entangle. 4 years of friendship, so hard
to let go.

a sudden burst of emotions; they were exiting the then
brightly lit hall, shaking the hands of the teacher's who
moulded them to become who they are now. they were
leaving. leaving. till we meet again. omgggg, when? never?
holding back my tears was just so hard, and sam cried
a whole lot. maybe our definition of 'missing them' ain't
the same. she has her own feelings for her, but unlike
mine. gosh, it was for once we thought differently.

it was the second time i saw xinyu cry, very very
saddenning! people emo-ed and many photographs
taken. perhaps as memories. hugs. smiles. tears. tissue
paper. emo. goodbye. eee..so emo!!

the scenario was something like that of last year, and
i entrusted the 'BIG' task of passing gifts to the sec fours.
ya ya i know its insincere, but .. nvm. but this year
i passed to them MYSELF okay. courage, where are you?!

but i didn't do what i promise i'd try to do. i couldnt, had
the urge to just walk away. i still couldn't, not even today.
i'm sorry. but you were okay! so there wasn't any need
for me to! thank god. hmmm.

oh and, MY PURPLE STAR GOT OWNED by someone
else. i wanna cry!! just kidding la. but really regretted
leaving it on the table!! YINGXIN!! okay, nvm. it's just
not meant to be mine. like omg, i came back and all the
material was gone. i was like, uhhhh.....

& take care of my
star okay? whoever who got it!

now i'm left with 2 yellow stars and a pink one. its hard
to fold a star, i think i told the whole world that just
now. purple star, i'll miss you!

there's school tmr, have to fall in. this shall be the first
time i dread falling in in the morning. hmm. i need to
prepare my uniform, my white rc U! bye people!

and thanks for your letter, i can feel it.

finally. omgg, i love this blogskin, except for
the fact that words are in blue. it looks quite
disgusting! and as for the width of the entry
box, its very small. not wide enough to view
the whole line. so for people who don't know
what to do, click on the entry box, then use
left/right arrow to move the words. that's
all.

and ppl, don't emo tmr. no tears, nothing.
it should be a happy day.

so many of them. to me, every one was different and had their own beauty. i'm too much of a perfectionist. its not that she folded them improperly, but its just not right. each represented the efforts spent and they all have a special meaning to me!

but the one that i took a liking to had to break. its all ** fault! he pulled so hard then it broke! its broken!! actually it broke long ago. i bu fu qi you know. grrr. nevermind, i found a black one. even though it isn't as nice as the white one i used to have. but it'll do.

today was a bad and sucky day. why? cause everyone was pissed and frustrated and being emo.
big misunderstanding. fine fine, i think too much. tried to control my emotions, ended up 'dao-ing' people again. maybe its my character. supposed to go out with sam today. but cause everyone moodswing until very jialat, ended up spending the whole day in school. watched xinyu and weilin do their work, they were hilarious. made me laugh and smile; hmm.

combed amk hub. nothing much there. saw mdm chong and her daughters at popular-jubilee. so cool, then sam called her daughters little chongs. =)) then went to 'this fashion' where yifang blurted out seriously rude comments on the kind of tights they sell there. it was funny, but the shopkeeper don't look happy, yifang! haha.

left soon after. one more day wasted. hais

one week of exams finally over. there's still 2 more papers to go.
CHEMISTRY & GEOGRAPHY. kill me.

amath, physics, bio, and emath paper 2. caused me to feel disheartened. yes, i may have been able to answer yf's qns, but i definitely didn't write what i told her in my exam paper. my mind was totally in a blank. like how it was during ug interview.

and one more thing about exams, i dislike it when people who obviously studied and put their best effort into it, say that they didn't even touch their book at all. like come on, if you studied, just admit it. you won't die by admitting you STUDIED right? its like, when i say i will fail, i really mean it. but some of YOU, claim that you will fail, and fail, AND FAIL! right before we get back our papers, but in the end, end up getting A1 okkay. like hello, can you don't pass such sacarstic remarks, which makes the people who really did fail feel inferior you know. no need to fail, even just passed by a few marks. that's why i hate exam periods. gosh;

and the above paragraph is not directed at a single person. just referring to some people on the whole.

i shall concentrate on studying. i must PASS CHEMISTRY this time.