sec 1s aop today. grrrr! talked so much dunno whether got knock any sense into them anot. they're a cute little bunch of kiddos la, haven't grown up yet.


sad-ded la, but as we said, we won't give up on u guys! no matter wad, ahh ya. another lecture u all may think, but these are learning processes ! ha! i'm preaching again. when speaking to them just now, i thought back of our past, the memories in redcross youth AMKSS. everything that we had gone through, hardships and the feelings. when tears gush out. when emotions are hard to control. when everything seems like it just comes to a standstill. when you can hear your own heartbeating. when you are clear-minded for just one second. when you remembered.

interestingly, amidst all the scoldings and the lecture, i could for once really hear myself, and feel myself re-tracing the footsteps i once walked. it felt so real, and all i could think was how lost i felt. the dependence brought us down real hard. when we realised, no - they cannot be the ones there for us anymore.

BODOH la, why am i typing this. yilin ahh yilin, when will u learn to wake up ahh! life's not just about the past leh. omg, i need to bring myself out of the past and to live the present. i must constantly remind myself i'm no longer a cadet. no longer someone to take commands and orders. i'm now someone who gives them. which so suck. grrrrr. cadets, please cherish ur cadet life ! coz it won't last long. 2 yrs pass very very fast.


sec 3 is complicated. friendships. relationships. cca. studies. which one to prioritise? which one to do first? how to balance? how to handle it properly? wahh i need a counsellor! haha! jkjk. must go find the wad.. ms joti? haha. nahh no way i'll see a counsellor! i'll just kill myself man.


and and,
she finally received it. cool heh, i waited damn long just to give it to her. ha! i'm courageous can! jk.


and and and!
O lvls end in NOVEMBER! invisible, i wait till i die la!!! omg, why so long!!!!! =((((((((( i thought this yr should end early?! nvm, i'll be waiting for u to dunk me in the sea! AHAH.