I felt proud, ecstatic even to watch you girls take over. Ask me why, when it should by right no longer matter because I'm just a senior. But I couldn't; couldn't just let this moment sink in, nor the reality that I became a senior a year ago. My thoughts were just hauled away to the times when we had so much laughter, & tears- in the past. Was it just me, who foolishly still remembers these memories?

Memories of you girls holding coke bottles running after us, till you got caught; & the last trng before our POP when Qh & I ran away, you girls gave chase when we thought you wouldn't; & the time we went to sumo house then to mine, those kept playing in my mind, exactly what I told you; cause you asked, you bothered & cared. Then the KFC visits? Were we the only ones who remembered? How we made so much noise, oblivious to the other customers, playing amongst ourselves?

& most recently when you 2 came over for 'PT', again, was I the only who remembers? It was the growing process, the metamorphosis like caterpillar to butterfly; those good & bad times that we got over together that I cherish so much, unable to let go. I hate myself for not letting go. I want to forget, to move on like how everyone else does. But it just wasn't in me to forget, & it isn't in me now nor in the future to forget. Whilst standing where I was yesterday, my eyes inadvertently marked out the routes we took to run away from you girls, as well as the places in this beloved school that means so much. Tell me I'm mad, tell me I'm crazy; but I was just reminiscing, you can't blame me for that. It felt so good after my episode, I felt relieved; relieved that I have let everything out, though the memories still stays crystal clear in my messed-up brain, I promise to try not to let them hurt anymore.

AWW, sorry blog, for abandoning you! (:
Well, I'm back. Hmm, though its random but I do want to post about IJ.
A few nights ago, whilst lying in bed, thoughts of IJ just flashed by. Like literally!
I could see every part of IJ crytal-clearly.

I pictured the hall, the staircases, the bookshop, the canteen, the LTs, the field, the route I took with Xx on the first day of school, the route I took when I got locked out of both side gates, the toilet where Laysee & I ran to to hide from the water bombs. The classrooms, & how I panicked when I couldn't find the class I was supposed to go to on the first day of school yet had no classmate's number..The library; the horrid room where we did our GP podcast, where we had minor fights over laptop issues & got scolded by Ms Maxine.

& of course, CCA day, when we went to the DJ room for the first time, in the library. The first time I met you, your warm touch as you led me to look for JinXiang, the !@#$% guy who attacked Laysee & I in the FEMALE bathroom! Then coincidentally you were Pizza's GL, & you remembered me from CCA day! I was elated. I interviewed & got into exco, like you. Acquaintances; but it was meant to be more, just that I left.

Then there was the huge LT, where we had Maths and Chinese & the LT we go to for Lit.
Gosh, & the piano, at the backstage of the hall and the gallery where we witnessed the receiving of A lvl Chinese results. She cried buckets of joyous tears for her A; silently we cried together with her. Also not forgetting the Bio classroom, where I spent half the time dozing off in the afternoon heat to the lull of Ms Malini's words. Beside it was the track, where we had PE & we would run together. Lily! (: The high jumps and the long jumps, with the cool Ms Agnes:D & horrible Ms AshleyD:

& outside the staffroom, CALVIN & YB.(aww, I miss you CALVIN!:D) & it was where we used to have Econs test with Ms Tan Tong Yin. Now she's also left IJ...to further her studies I think.

Everything's changed, perhaps only Syanni's laughter remains? LOL, its contagious. But I miss it, miss them. However all its gonna be is a distant memory, fading as time goes...