fancy drill trng ystd and today. kinda fun...at least better than normal trng.. oops. =DDD
added new things to the drill. during thursday trng...mdm joanne came back..wahh disaster..oops.hope she dun see. after trng, helped out to do orientation stuff..and do reports for syf and north district camp.


friday trng worse..had to bring uniform..den only me and vivien bring..haish..den kena scolding lo...like kinda of xia suay..coz GG de ppl all oso wear gg uniform..den us leii..only me and vivien wear.haish..den in the end kena scolding.. me and vivien enjoyed pumping and lvl 1 position..while the others enjoyed 100 over pumpings. haish..hopefully i know which is right and left le..=(((( den after that changed back into normal mufti.. and continued trng.. den GG de mdm wanjoo, mdm shuian shuian and mdm weiling came back.. felt abit sad becoz only mdm joanne came onli..den our other mdms leii?? haish. all nvr come..they all say will come..but still nvr come..=(((( den after trng we went eat lunch...eat until so shuang..hahaha . den eat le we went back help to draw more plaster and hang the banner. but some parts of the wall still haven't paint..so can't hang banner..den came down to help draw plaster and complete the poles thing..to put pictures de..mdm joanne in charge..den draw plaster awhile le..den mdm wenjia came..to talk to mdm xinyu they all..haish..well..wad happen after that......forget it. den sat there awhile le..i went to help mdm joanne tie the pole thing..saw mdm joanne so xi xin.. oops..can see u really love redcross alot! k..anyway..jiayou for ur VI course k???


haish... so xia suay ahh today..but not gonna elaborate..so cya ppl!! and fancy drill coming..we must not xia suay ourselves to other UG and the sec 1s..so everyone do ur best k!! xD


p.s I'M NOT LES!!!!!!
pp.s happy birthday vivien!!!!!! =DDDDD

hahahahaha..damn happy now!!! NOW NOW NOW!!! yea! talked to 'her'...through sms..haven't seen her for so long le........=(( but yea...as she promised..she will come back. and i think i'm still believing her now. coz she said that in her blog a long, long, long time ago. but ya..i have faith in her!!! =DDD


aww..her poor little teeth. going to undergo braces. hahahahah. well good luck ya? and bear with the pain. =)))

had fancy drill training today. quite fun. learn new things. like turning the pole..quite fun lo..find that someone frm GG has changed for the better le..really happy to see that..even though we not same UG..but u will still feel better for that other UGian.
after trng..went to eat lunch at 202. ate le den vanessa went home, edna oso..qh went to buy cd or something la..


sam, yingxin and me went suntec..to visit ******.. i know i shouldn't say it here..but i still must say it..really disappointed to see yx and sam disappointed. ******..why did u have to put it so zhi jie (straightforward)...whywhywhy..u know can make ppl feel so upset and disappointed de ma...they were so excited at the tot of it k..and u had to make them feel like their trip here was wasted..WE CAME HERE SPECIALLY TO SEE U!! okkay?!!! fine..shan't go on abt it le..


anyway..christmas is coming!! =)) wish everyone a early merry christmas!! =DD

haish..did i choose the wrong class next year??? did i? did i?


u..yes u..everytime zhen dui me de..haish..can't we for once dun like dislike each other?? i know u dislike me.....but u think i like u oso meh??! walao..u make it sound like everything is my fault!! why ahh..


i not good enough to be in 1/2' 05, 2/2 '06 ahh..huh. u say it like its lidat ..but i ren..ren ren ren....ren very long le..coz i love this class..i love my friends.. i just wan u to know that i will put up with ur hatred towards me..i will R-E-N!!! for the sake of my beloved classmates. i tell u!!! =DD

arrgghh..feel so useless now..there's not one single thing that i can do right in life..i really dunno wad i'm doing now. and when there's problems..there's not one single person that i can tell them to..haish..maybe the suo wei 'close'..may not be that close as well.. no one know's me 100%..and i dun know anyone 100% either..well..maybe i'm just not reliable..or i can't rely on others..or maybe both..

i know its abit late to blog abt our trip to iceskating..hahas..but i'm still gonna blog.. we went ice skating on wednesday..went with xx, sk, arifin, edna, julian, qh, yf and bj. bj came back frm taiwan and bought damn cute chocs! she give me one which is in the shape of a plaster. damn cute!! thanks beijia!! =DD den met at yew tee before proceeding to jurong east. reach le we skated until abt 2. me and edna helped qh yf and bj..coz they still abit unstable on the ice..but bj learn super fast la..she still abit unstable..but she can go on her own le..qh can skate quite gd le..but yf still abit scared..coz she fell the last time we came..den she scared might fall again.


den the guys oso beginner but they like skate very fast lo..everytime we wan go over to find them, they jiu go to the other side of the rink..super funny. =)) den skate skate skate..den xx and qh feel like going kbox.
they so enthu la..the rest were like okkay..lets all go together! but sk din wan go..he wen home..ALONE! aww..den we went into the kbox room..quite big la..den the enthu pair..xx and qh..start to dian ge (pick songs) den they sing sing sing..while edna bj and me we singing without the microphone. den yf ahh..wahh..disaster! haha..she keep making all the funny noise..den qh say she sound like she sha ji (killing chicken)..damn funny la..den then sing sing sing..until 4..bj went home by herself..den 4.30..i gtg le..den actually suppose me xx and fin go home i think..den in the end..everybody go home..hahas..but i like express train lidat..chiong go home..while the rest take their time..coz had to go home to do piano..sianx. but overall..had a very fun day!! thanks edna!! =DD


ahh..proposal..die die die..sure got alot of AOP following that de..WELFARE!!! have to check stretcher and 1st aid kit. =(( wahahaha..
but......anything.....to get more recruits next year! xD

juliana..read all ur tags..felt kinda upset over them.. its so hard u know..i dunno if anyone except me and edna and the others understands..being a senior is so so so hard. we are forced to keep a distance for u juniors because we are going to be mdms soon. is that a good enough reason?? its like very hard to just nurture the bond that we have now lo..we are considered close? are we? i guess so right.. and then by next yr we have to keep a distance from each other. i know u feel scared of coming trng..and its like every trng onli got 3 sec 1s come..standard one..u, chonxi and vivien. haish..like abit pathetatic hor?? i know u join rc is to pei yiling de..and in the end she din come, make u disappointed right? but there's no turning back once u've joined..just make the best out of it .. see..u've made so many new friends right? so many new seniors..including other UG ppl. there's good and bad lo..

i understand ur feeling..that feeling of coming to trng just to kena 'knock it down', scoldings.. and mdm's unhappy faces. i oso have that feeling ma..i think everybody does..or not why u think we always feel like ponning..we did think of ponning..but in the end still go ma..so..just keep peservering..the tot of c*** should keep u going on wad.. everytime i feel tired of trng..i will think of all the nice seniors..ex-mdms, sirs..haish..that will keep me going lo..

so..wadever it is..do rmb that we all wun p.s u all de..even after we become mdms..we will show the current mdms that we can make it de..and we are not as bad as they say! =DD


p.s hope no sec 3s see this. (i think will not hor??)

i know its been a long time i din blog.. and my last post sounded very vulgar.. hahas..got irritated by some things.


today had trng. was okkay..better den other trngs..sec 2s get to become commander..mdms wanna train our voice. den shout shout shout..dunno ltr will get sore throat anot.. haish..like edna said..its hard to become a gd senior.. true ma.. u too fierce..juniors will talk behind ur back.. and they will give attitude. u too lenient.. they climb over ur head. haish. and its like 4 more months b4 we take over.


had our first interview today..wasn't such a success.. i dunno wad they trying to do..wad the mdms say are so CONTRADICTING can..aiyo..anyway..edna got it real bad..hope ur fine now girl..


aiya..we must really buck up on monday fancy drill trng.. or else we sure die again de..=DD and F.Y.I ..we DON'T make EMPTY PROMISES okkay!! we shall show u all that! =))

p.s tmr's ice skating..hope my mummy let me go..=))

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so damn fucked right now.

time flies. all that's left is still memories.

as i went back in time, i saw how lucky i was.

but perhaps i took it for granted,

and the seconds on the clock just continued ticking.


pictures of that album of memories just flew by,

oblivious to the surroundings, i started appreciating my past.

all that ever happened, and all there is now..

i'd rather my past. but is there a way to make things better?


i ask myself everyday, wad's the purpose of life.

when in the end u will still die.

but den i think,

if i die, i wun be able to see those i love.


10 more days before i come back..waiting for our honeymoon.. my dear laopo..hope u see this.
thanks for being there for me...i dunno if wad u said wad true..or it was just said to make me feel better..anyway..thanks alot. =))