Y'know what, I very much feel like crap now as well, not to mention, on the verge of pathetic tears. Dang. Please ask me why I've become such an asshole, or to a large extent, an insecure freak since I've left school. Truthfully, I really don't know why; which sucks.


I've come to realise I'm getting distant from the things or people I'm so used to. Its was my wont to just type out a message and send it to ____ without reviewing it. But now, I review my message 2 or 3 times before sending it out. It was my wont to ask anything, personal or whatever to ________ anytime, and get an honest & prompt reply. Now, I don't dare to anymore. There's so much more that I'm used to...but much more that I'll have to get used to as people have changed.

That feeling, it is incessantly lingering in my gut. Like a benign tumour; its not detrimental, however it just gallingly causes a significant amount of pain. Ouch. Ooh well, I guess that's how I feel now.

And and, I'm not being 'emo' okay. I'm just, uhhh, exasperated.