its been so long since you ever said you guys said you cared...i have tis feeling that there is an invisible wall blocking in the middle...evertime i wanna say some tings, i dun dare..coz maybe you all will tink i m extra...but isit true?...i m not sure..how i wish i am still the one important person that you all need there in your life...maybe from the start it was all wrong...it wasn't meant to be like tis...the way you claimed you reallie hoped that i was with you...maybe it was reallie all a big big joke..i was never part of your life at all...i hope i am wrong but somehow i have tis weird feeling that we are no longer one big big family...and you din ever tink back of our happy past...n happy memories...the times we spent together and everyting..can we ever turn bac the clock?..i dun dare put my hopes high coz i noe you r starting to go further n further away frm me...can i attach a string to you and pull you back so that you will stay by me forever?...i can't coz i noe that tis is unfair to you...you once said that you will not let me leave your side but wad abt now?...i am a thousand miles away frm you...i wanna be so near you that we will be stuck together forever and you will nvr leave me again...

i need you guys...every single one of you r important to me...pls dun ever leave me unattended again...promise me you will stay by my side forever.

these few daes have been veri disheartening for me...i dunno y...but i feel there's smth not right...isit my problem or urs?...eu everytime dun sae den how i noe wad eu r feeling...haiyah...maybe wad she said ish right...eu guys reallie feel tt i'm extra...i feel i m always left out...i juz wan a lil' attention frm eu guys...can't eu all juz grant me tt?...i try tu be concerned but does it work?...things still remain the same...maybe like wad she said again...i shd juz gib up...since eu dowan me..wadever i do wun make eu guys ever accept me...i m juz..juz heartbroken...but at least i noe she's still dere for me...wen no one else bothers...

i reallie wan ur love n concern...juz a lil' fraction of it...pls?..juz spare a lil' time for me..n juz tell me tt eu will be dere for me always...i will b satisfied...
-lurv redx-

btw...we squeezed through the small hole beneath the back gate...zhanhong, jianming, kai sheng, eunice, vanessa, edna and me...so fun...hope e camera din catch us doing it...hahas...

i wanna comment on todae de dance class( CAP )...the dance room was locked so we had tu dance in hall...den juz as we dancing happily n all...the student councillors came...walao...lyk spoil our mood lidat...dey were preparing their stuff for the SCI...den ish lyk we on stage dancing n the student councillors were lyk the audience...it wouldn't be so bad if we din noe anyone...anyway...i can finally do the dance step le...so fun...den we wen tu eat lunch...den i drank bubble tea...budden no pearls...so sad...den wait n wait den finally go for the SCI....it was okae...saw the exco dance...so funny lar...den the meiyan n randy say speech...den ish lyk they speak so funnyly...randy i can understand coz he ish not local...but meiyan lei...dunno lar...n i dun care aso...den saw joanne n wen jia dance...aiyah joanne ish pro so i got nth tu say...den meiyan lei...ish lyk acting lor..so fake...n extra aso...

after SCI we had tu go trng...at 1st din wanna go de lei...budden tink again...should nt always pon or not will become habit de lor...so we go n change...den we do footdrills...ish the sec 3s command...aiyah footdrills so so sianx...walao...den coz gt other CCA grps den catherine dey all shout command we cannot hear...den after footdrills we did PT ...aiyo...so slack...den the jialin ish lyk open defiance lor...den dunno y the mdms neber scold...maybe dey stepping down le den dowan sec 1s hab bad impression of dem...haha..sec 1s ish veri lucky...den recre dey play basketball...den some ppl dowanna play..including me...haha den we sit by the side tok crap n say lame jokes...so fun haha...den finally play finish den dismissed...todae trng reallie veri veri slack...i tink coz maybe no wen jia dey all...i tink if wj come ah...trng will be tough lor...haha...

yay tmr no syf...so lucky...6 weeks no syf...i tink by the time we go bac rite...cant catch up le...coz the trng ish reallie veri tough lor...the footdrills timing so fast...dey wanna die ah...dey wan i aso dowan lor.....haii...life ish boring...people pls tok tu me more...n make my life more interesting...
-lurv redx-

this whole week was sucky...

thursday
so depressed...was reallie sad wen eu din tok tu me...i felt so helpless...did i go n fan eu until eu reallie couldn't stand me anymore?...but apparently it wasn't lyk wad i tot...so on thurs...i juz cr***(i m sensitive tu the word)...i'm sorrie i made eu cry too...eu shd have told me earlier...i tot eu din care oready...anyway..din eat lunch on thurs coz was so depressed...din have the mood too...although sam van n yf wen tu eat...i was lying on the table n trying tu sleep...hopefully forgeting y i was so sad...but no...everytime i raised my head i looked in ur direction...eu were so alone...n tt made me feel even more sadd...finally i got over the whole ting...n eu said sorrie...tt was unexpected...i shd b the one saying sorrie in actual fact...but juz as i tot the whole ting was over...i neglected sam's feelings...i'm sorrie...but anyway...everyone was fine after a while...sam left in a hurry...i juz wanna tell sam...i love eu my dear...n sorrie for neglecting eu...let the lao gong gib lao po a kiss..muackss...okae?...

friday
dance n drama was veri veri fun...dramaa class i acted as sam's jian fu(lover)..while van ish sam's husband...was veri fun..den dance..danced many diff types of dances...including latin...was veri funny...den i became the CD gal...coz i was standing at the bac...so everytime mr low say stop..i gotto rush tu stop the player...walao...even sam c liao aso laugh...den after sch wen tu c mr V tan...abt dnt project...i learnt tt i m being selected for the junior show..which ish unexpected coz i tot my artefact tu be stupid...den somemore gotto touch up the artefact n den present it in front of the sch...arghh...i m not tt brave okae...den decided tu help paint the class n pon RC trng...coz there was not enough ppl helping tu paint...actually we wanted tu go trng at 4 plus de...den decided tu inform the mdms earlier...budden hu noes...they gave us an earful n even spoke tu ms low...walao...gd lar...n ms low's fault lar..we helping tu paint class and as our form teacher shouldnt eu help us?...wad's more tis is painting for ur class lor...come on lar...den lots of tings happen..n it was raining...den after i paint a while den my hands veri dirty...den decided tu pei vanessa go toilet..coz she stomach ache...budden as i walked out of the class room...surprise surprise...wen jia n jocelyn were outside...so extra...den felt so bad abt pang seiing edna..sorrie my dear...i din do it on purpose...den i dunch noe wad the mdms sae tu edna but i tink the say yi ding muz go for trng...so stupid lar...den glenn veri funny...keep telling ms low they need more ppl...sort of excusing us frm trng...budden ms low din care abt him le...so she tell us tu pack up n leave...so sad lor...i m disappointed at ms low de behaviour...den wen for trng ish onli sit there tok tok...sian lar...we could have well taken the time tu paint the class...den the sec 3s all din come except catherine...so guai one...haha..den we were dismissed at abt 645 lidat...den gang hao met beijia n glenn dey all so walk tu bus stop together...reach home late n felt tired...so ate den wen tu sleep...syf trng tmr...
-lurv redx-

so fast n a week is over again...had trng on fri n syf on sat..

trng was slack...had footdrills...taken by sohee n rosemary...they r nice ppl...dey don scold lyk a mad tigeress...unlike some others...den keep doing e drills...so sianx...was quite slack lar...boring too...den after footdrill was lesson...coz fleonna din come...me n weilin had tu teach o.a lesson (outdoor activity)..teach the rest abt knots n lashings, how tu read a topography map (sounds chim rite?), den also abt the silva compass...weilin explain while i write...apparently i write quite small den the mdms keep complaining...i m trying my best le okae...well..in the end my writing was quite big but it went slanted...sorrie have tu hai eu all read slantedly...den coz weilin n i tot no need teach the silva compass so we take longer time tu teach the maps...den was scolded by joanne...in the end we still taught them budden i tink they din reallie understand...which makes me feel so shii bai...budden veri funny lei...not i teach y i feel shii bai?..hahas...i aso dunno....

den after lesson is Pt...tis time coz i was lesson i/c so yin yin n xinyu was PT i/c...den aagain did all e warm up den ran the 4th floor den come down one level by one level...den at 1st floor we took cover..den coz the command was very quick den xinyu juz wen down on the floor so i stopped den catherine pushed me frm behind...wah...pain sia...but i was not reallie injured...den jiu rest den run again...PT aso quite slack lar...except for wen we gotto do 10 guys pumping...wah...i reallie felt lyk giving up...budden still endured...coz mdms aso did wib us...den after PT we din wan re-cre so rest until debrief...

debrief was slack aso as no one actually responded tu the mdms...eveyone was slacking until wen jia arrived...she wen for soccer eu noe...wah lao...i dowan criticise eu de lei...budden as e chair shouldn't eu b more er...responsible...lyk put more effort into red cross...soccer may be important but as e chair of Rc...aiyah....dowan sae le...den i m wondering y is everyone so afraid of euu?...eu r aso a person wad...den y jialing tok n say so many tings we all never listen n never sit straight den suddenly eu come den everybody so scared...how come?...eu aso a person wad...aiya...i aso dunno lar...

den left school at abt 7 after taking name tag frm joanne...i left wib a pile of stupid books...some more got coke bottle n boots...aso got the dnt artefact...den took bus home wib yin yin...gd ting she help me or i would have died...den luckily for me...mum picked me up at the bus stop...reach home jiu start tu get ready my uniform...for syf the next dae...slept at abt 11pm...

woke up at abt 7...bathe den wear uniform, n i actually realised tt my crocodile socks were in the washing machine...n i cant wear boots w/o croc socks...so i was supposed tu meet edna at bishan at 8 budden coz my socks haven't dry...she had tu go by herself....reallie sorrie my nuer...den my mum came tu the rescue...she drove me tu gyss...den waited for edna at the bus stop outside gyss...den we wen in together n register...den had UI...sarah mdm said my uniform was up tu standard but my belt was too loose...den stood in senang diri position for a long time coz had tu wait for everyone tu finish UI before could start the real footdrill session...den we all practised footdrill for half an hour...before the reall selection...there was 5 stations...den each station lasted 20 mins...den i feel lyk be in syf is a guang rong ting budden the trng hours veri long n tiring...den we not sure hu in hu out aso...so hav tu wait for next week...

tired...until next week...bye...
-lurv redx-

todae had the syf tingy...was kinda sian...coz onli me n edna...my mum drove us dere...tt was lucky coz we din noe how tu go...the trng was at guangyang sec...frm j8 actually can walk de...but we were not sure...den as we were crossing the road i was tinking...the mdms sometimes maybe strict n always scold...budden wen without dem...the feeling is lyk veri lonely...somehow...lyk coz we dunno anyting n without anyone hu noes the way...eu r stuck n can't move on...dey have always been by our side, guiding n showing us the way...leading..n den one day...dey jus leave...its kinda scary eu noe...

but we still found a way out...maybe its lyk even though eu r stuck...dere is always a way out...the someone hu has always been by ur side can leave too..n tt doesn't mean eu r stuck forever...eu've gotto keep moving on coz the world doesn't wait for jus eu...

there were sirs n mdms...all frm HQ de...doreen mdm, wei shan mdm, wai min mdm, david sir, ambrose sir, yongcheng sir, n 2 or 3 other sirs...i forgot their name le...see i so forgetful...eee.. den during UI( uniform inspection), coz me n edna no name tag...mdms come n ask...wei shan mdm ask how come no name tag..n she aso ask wen jia never gib ah...den i say never lor...coz is e truth wad...aiyah all the badges we earn aso haven't get...anyway it doesn't matter...so den we did footdrill footdrill footdrill all the way...sianx...

they were trng on our sediya n senang diri...dey keep testing n testingg...den coz got alot of cadets den the banging was chao loud...so nice lor...budden do marching n hantakaki...other ppl de timing so fast...kanasai...can't catch up lar...arghh...can't dey do slower abit?...but lidat still gotto endure...sian...den after every 1 hour den got a water break...was so hot lei...den do the keblakan(turn tu the back) on the march ah...they all do so fast...some ppl aso cannot catch up...aiyah...den sirs n mdms keep perfecting these few drills...do until sian diao...

i wanted tu go flag dae de...edna aso...but we were stuck in this syf tingy...actually is aso our fault lar...coz is we go select the wad footdrill course de...something lidat..for those hu noe...fan zheng whole time was footdrill...n wearing full Uniform somemore...aiyo...n we couldn't change out of U in guangyang coz doreen mdm sae wad the YO(youth officer) of guangyang dun let us change...wad come in uniform den go in uniform...so we were all forced tu leave straightaway...so we go j8 lor...den change n all...den eat kfc n buy Yin Yin b'dae present...den we aso buy a stupid water bottle...is in the shape of baby de milk bottle...i find me n edna so childish...haha...she bought pink den i buy blue...sam n va next time go j8 mini toons can buy aso...den all the shu nus 4 got same bottle...hahas. i find myself so veri veri childish...but the bottle ish cute lei...n is $3.90 so we buy...

den after buy the present den we go OP...wah..so crowded..coz got pre-renovation sale....everybody rushing tu buy stuff...den i gotto go home le...but edna still stayed coz she still looking for some stuff...reached home at abt 3.10...so tired...
-lurv redx-

time passes so fast...a few more daes den is sch reopen le...sianx...n den will got more n more work...n revision too...looking forward tu flag dae which is on sat...it might seems boring tu some ppl but tu me..as long as i can meet my frens...its considered fun...heex..i noe i'm bo liao...i feel so sian these few daes...got nth tu do...actually..nth tt particularly interest me..din manage tu go out wib class 6A '04...arghh...n life's kinda boring...i feel lyk i m trapped...there's nowhere for me tu go...its juz tis small small world...n i m always stuck at home...hmppf...miss sam edna n va....n other peeps in 2/2...boring boring boring...its sleep eat sleep eat...someone juz help me put a stop tu tis routine for me....

sam go malaysia...can't call her n have our 2 hrs long tok anymore...n edna sick...i dowan tu disturb her..she ought tu have more rest...i find tt edna suddenly become accident n sick prone...my dear nuer n xiao shu nu...how come eu become until lidat?...ur daddy will xin tong one lei...gd ting x-ray and all r fine...or else eu noe hu i will find...n va...always gt council stuffs...always wib tt mei yan...i noe eu also bored of her...budden eu can't juz bo chab bo chab rite...sianz...gonna sleep now...byes...
-lurv redx-

had trng ystd...was quite slack lar...budden tu e sec 1s tink is tiring...haish...dey r still young..heex..den we kana scolded coz we late, juliana no spec hooks and nicholas never wear sch pants...den gotto do many punishment...but punishment was reasonable coz we reallie did many wrongs...den after tt we did foot drills...wen jia took over me, yin yin and edna...she was veri nice lor...dunno lar..maybe she gd mood lorz...haha...den after tt she wen for meeting so rosemary take over n she keep giving us homat (salute)...den we do until sian diao...haha...den sometimes we do too fast den veri funny...our poor edna sick so rosemary took edna tu rest so cara take over...budden rosemary forgot vanessa...so cute lei...haha...n cara teach us changing of ranks den coz not enough ppl tu demonstrate, cara use leafs she found on e floor...so funny...den me n yin yin laugh n laugh...finish tt den fang wei come n tell us tu get ready for PT (physical trng)...was quite slack aso...budden coz of e punishment we did earlier...the leg jiu veri pain...den fleonna n catherine was i/c n dey quite inexperienced so not quite sure how tu conduct cooling down exercise den pei mdms scold...PT over den mdms ask us tu tink of a game tu play during recre (recreation)...budden rite..we gotto do half squad while tinking of a game...n is all becoz joanne n cara saw ncc doing half squad den ask us tu do de...wah lao...den dey gu yi dun let us recover...budden gd ting fang wei n jocelyn come...den dey ask us recover...we played captain ball...den play finish jiu debrief le...mdms told us tu prepare for their POP (passing out parade)...
trng finish we all jiu go mac eat lunch lor...den veri funny...we gu yi dun let joanne sit...haha...n we offered tu let joanne sit on the sit which sam sat n fell...budden joanne dowan...so she gotto stand lor...den eunice cynthia dey all aso at mac...den dey come over...n we ask dem eat joanne fries...den jiu veri funny lor...we eat finish jiu go le...den joanne go same bus stop as me coz she go central mah...so we walk together lor...den as we reach bus stop my bus jiu come le...so i go 1st...anyway ciz i late tu go peiying le...so din pei joanne/..haha...den i told her fold down her socks...so funny lor...

den i reach pyps jiu meet sabrina mdm...n got lots of other HQ mdms n sirs...got some last time come tu ang mo kio de...den aso got the sir which was the i/c for o.a course (outdoor activities)...den aso dunno whether he rmb me not...den me connie durrah n another HQ sir was in charge for the 'watch my egg' game...each grp of cadets were given one packet of straws n one egg n they gotto make something tu protect the egg so tt wen dey throw the product down frm 2nd floor tu 1st floor...the egg wun break...quite a few grps did not break their egg...dey veri li hai...even connie durrah n me make de aso break lor...feel so shi bai...anyway...after all grps have played finish all the stations...we got campfire...real fire...den got campfire songs n all...so fun...den got so many cadets...pyps red cross member got lyk 90 plus cadets lor...i so xian mu...how i wish amkss aso can...be more united...n cadets dun always iso themselves...haish...gotto finish loads of homework...n revision too...arghh...so sianx...
-lurv redx-

always live life tu the fullest.
dun let go of hopes.
hope gives eu the strength tu keep going
wen eu feel lyk giving up.

dun ever quit believing in urself.
as long as eu believe eu can.
eu will have reasons for trying.

dun hesitate tu reach out for help.
we all need it, frm time tu time

dun run away frm love
but towards love.
beause it is ur deepest joy eu ever have.

tu edna, sam, van, hamtaro, connie,
all my friends, all my seniors n juniors...
dun ever gib up... look at life frm a different
view...n always cherish wad eu have...
-lurv redx-

p.s: i deleted my results...coz its very bad...

hi everyone..quite long time never post le...haish...lets sae abt tis morn...woke up late n reached sch late...aiyah i bring my U n boots den i ran up the stairs lyk mad woman lidat...sorrie edna..made eu hab tu go change by urself...den took my U n boots tu change n we wen down tu foyer but saw sec 3s haven ready yet...coz kexin dun hab button ring or wad lar den mus use rafia string...haha tink of it den wanna laugh...den change here change dere...mdms dey all also rushing coz dey ownself late...den i tink dey angry wib us coz we din noe muz wear U or not...its eu all de fault wad...not ours...is eu all last min de okae...one msg sae muz wear U den another msg sae dun wear...eu making us luan lor...n eu all aso not sure...aiyah...dunno lar...den wen tu fall in n do UI...den aftr tt we fall in in parade square...den mr siva call our name den we gotto march n receive our certs...we din practise so the marching was lyk shit...my name was e last tu b called lor...den i marched up tu receive cert frm mrs sim...den sam n eunice sae my hands not 90 degrees wen i march...so pai seh...den finish assembly jiu change n go for chn class lor...so sian one...the whole dae was lyk practically boring boring boring...den sch end liao jiu go tu yishun sports hall tu support netball finals...amkss was gd but sports sch was even beta...anyway our gals did well too...
receive my result slip todae...e results is shitty can...sci cannot make it lar...

arghhh!!!...sux sux sux...i wanna go 3/4 de lei...but results lidat...how??? i guess i gotto improve...its still possible if i try...but...okae nvm/...going tu finish tt irritating article book for fu lao shi...
-lurv redx-

i've gt the red cross spirit, deep in my heart, deep in my heart, deep in my heart, i've gt the red cross spirit deep in my heart, deep in my heart tu stay...
i've gt the red cross spirit, right in my head, right in my head, right in my head, i've gt the red cross spirit, right in my head, right in my head tu stay...
i've gt the red cross spirit, all over me, all over me, all over me, i've gt the red cross spirit, all over me, all over me tu stay...
i've gt the red cross spirit, deep in my heart, right in my head, all over me, i've gt the red cross spirit deep in my heart, right in my head tu stay...
I AM SIAO...arghh...i've gt tu tell myself not tu kee siao...some one save me...
- lurv redx-

jus wanna blog abt yst...amkss rcy did it...we gt 3rd in the north district for footdrill com....yeahh...qingyu they all came bac tu support...hey jus wanna tell eu tt eu guys rawk man...thx for coming bac...n after reaching sch we wen tu change...den left amkss in a small, mini bus...we couldn't sit coz scare dirty our U...den it was very crowded lar..but was fine after reaching bendemeer...den eric sir(mr chia) was aso dere...haish but din manage tu c him...saw him onli during the comp...we wen tu our holding area which was in a classroom...3 grps in 1 class...den mdms dey all ate while me n edna were dere feeling nervous...we keep singing kan jian zhang lang wo bu pa bu pa la...den fleonna joined in...we din wear name tag so scared minus points...den waited a while in class before had UI(uniform inspection)...me n edna was reserve den had tu stand at the bac...but we still had tu fall in...den the hq mdms n sirs check n tink n check n tink...den we all fall out n go downstairs tu the parade square which was where the com was held...i was so scared but after 15 mins we were done...wen jia did gd commanding...but i tink some of the squad members did some wrong...den dunno whether mr chia gt judge our sch anot...den after tt we all go the hall...where everyone slept...i slept n slept until the bois frm other sch so damn noisy...den wake me up...after was speech by the sir...den gt prize presentation...amkss rcy gt 3rd in north district!!!...wen jia wen tu collect the trophy...i was so happy man...n i was tinking amkss rcy can get 3rd after practising lyk onli 5 trngs...if we had practise earlier...we could have beat evergreen...but anyway...3rd is gd too!!!...den after tt...joanne cry...den make me wanna cry too...den suddenly i became very high...wen we were waiting for the bus...i kept laughing n laughing...partly coz vanessa aso siao siao...den after going into the mini bus...i was still siao....den we can sit le...coz anyway we all dirty le...the mdms were in high spirits...so dey tok tok tok...aiyah...den after reach sch..den wen tu change...den we go n eat lunch...qing yu dey all n the sec 4s aso gt go n eat...den we eat finish den left happily...i took same bus as linda n jestina n rosemary...they tok i listen....haha...den they lyk pang sei linda lidat...so bad...den rosemary left liao jestina jiu come n tok tu me...den linda aso tok...i reach my stop i jiu alight...i felt very happy...ystd is one of the best days in my life...gd job everyone...
-lurv redx-

juz wanna blog abt ystd...i feel very bad lei...i tink amkss rcy not going for footdrill com anymore...sorrie lar...even though i feel bad...i juz wanna make it clear tt we are no spare tyre okae...juz bcoz eu can't find a replacement dosen't mean eu can juz put us down for everything rite? wen others dun come, eu treat us as replacement...but wen we dun go...we kana blame by eu all...aiyah...i dunno lar...i tink for once we made a rite decision...pls dun tell us so last min...will gib us heart attack de lei...tis not the 1st time...any way...nvm...hope tis kind of ting wun happen again...hey and anyway i tink i shall go tu support on sat...
ystd stay in sch crap wib lots of ppl...coz they all stay for class drama...last rehearsal le...i tink the ppls did well in the rehearsal...stayed until abt 6.30...going tu do homework le...oh n 1 more ting...i'm going tu go 3/4...i will try n i wanna become VI wen i go tu JC or poly...haha..might not b possible though...
-lurv redx-

i am sorrie...i feel veri guilty now...pls dun guai we all le...we juz find tt its not rite tu have smth on sat...we rather have more trng during weekdays...do eu all noe?...reallie reallie sorrie...pls forgive us...do euu all noe tt the footdrill comp. is juz 1 week away?...how do eu expect we all sec 2s tu learn everting in 1 week?...its not possible can...1 week onli...onli if eu all had said earlier...maybe it is possible...but now?...i tink its too late...although we can try...but it might not be successful...eu all noe?...everything is last minute de...even talentime last dae den we practise practise and practise...haish...dunno wad tu sae le...everythings driving mee crazy...i reallie wanna go 3/4...but my chem lidat...how?...if i fail chem again...how tu go pure chem class??>..i jus wanna die...nth seems rite...everytings gone wrong...y??...coz i m stupid...
-lurv redx-

helloz everyone...i noe i long time neber blogged lerhh...coz no time...so stressed out...reallie wann get into 3/4 but i dun tink can lor...so i will settle fer 3/3...haish...feel lyk my life ish rotting...lyk tis blog...can't do anyting abt it...n so fraustrated...hab mixed feelings abt next yr...reallie can't bear tu split up wib the ppl dearest tu mee...n very scared tt next yr wen we become mdms...dunno whether the whole unit will dao bi anot...haish...onli 5 sec 2s lei...of which 1 always dun cum...so sad lar...n i wanna kill the person hu sae tt amk red cross sux...i tink tt person sux more lor...actually ish not the unit sux...ish the ppl...haii...anyway...maths...din do well...onli 15/25...haish...so upset...n hist...onli 16/20...sigh...dun tink i can make it oready...so demoralised...den the fu lao shi...make me feel even worse...keep asking us tu drop out of HCL...wad kind of teacher r euu? hope my life can improve...waiting fer tt someone tu come...everybody take care hor...heex...
-lurv redx-

i'm sick of hating ppl i hate...tt's y i try so hard tu b nice tu dem...but does it work?...i still hate dem...y??...the feeling of hatred ish so annoying...will anyone help mee? n sch makes it even worse...dere's pressure tu go tu sec 3/4 or 3/3 n i failed my science aso...i dun tink i can even make it tu 3/3...the teachers make mee feel so demoralised tt the whole dae in sch i feel lyk sleeping...sorrie if i've offended anyone...but tis ish wad i reallie tink...i'm glad dere's still my fwenz...thanks edna, sam, van, eun n the other gals n bois hu r dere fer mee...eu guys work miracles...i reallie need a break before i mentally breakdown...stress stress stress...
-lurv redx-

haish...todae trng fun lar...coz ish ice breaker games mah...but b4 trng even start...edna jiu fall down..n wound ish quite bad lei...her knee, hand n finger aso gt lor...raining mah...so she slipped n fell...

den start of trng was tu introduce ourselves tu sec 1s...den we play blanket game...i can rmb sec 1s all de name lor...yiling, vivien(dunno ish a or e), nicholas and regina...shd b correct bah...den after a while jiu you water break...cum back jiu play another game...dunno wad its called lar...but quite fun lei...ish lyk sec 3s will give a pic of a place in sch...n the 1st place i guessed correctly...ish outside e library...den we all go dere...we gt split into grps...i was in alpha...in my grp were regina, nicholas n ms chan...den i was blindfolded...den my grp members had tu guide me tu collect ping pong balls which sec 3s stuck tu e walls all ard...den after a while...sec 4s came...joanne rosemary jia ling n jestina...den joanne n rosemary dang barrier tu block we pei blindfold de ren...den i bu xiao xin zhuang dao joanne...damn funny lor...den at 1st i dunnno ish her one...but hear her tok n laugh jiu noe lerhh...den my grp won coz we gt most number of ping pong balls...den after take off blindfold den joanne n jestina joined my grp...den next pic ish a pic of outside sci lab...on 3rd floor...den we run very fast den joanne n jestina cannot catch up...so funny lor...den we past the place but we din noe...den after we gt dere liao jiu go tu sci hub dere...den sec 3s ask jestina tu act a word or sentence out..den bravo grp oready finish 5 Qns but we onli ans 2...so we lose lor...but nvm...den we gt water break...after water break we played dog n bone...most of e sec 4s joined in...except wen jia rosemary i tink...den dog n bone alpha win...haha...den joanne was lyk siao lor...dunno y...too hyper i tink...den after tt we play hunter n squirrel...very very fun lei...den gt so much screaming n noise...i scream until no voice le...budden tis game was the most fun...so nice can...den play dunno how long liao den break again...

after tt jiu play whacko...everyone sit in circle...den 1 person go up den lyk start wib whoever...den e person muz call other ppl de name...den if next person neber call jiu kana whack lor...tis game aso quite fun but nt as fun as squirrel game...den after tis game jiu gt 1 last game...ish someting lyk charades...quite fun aso...den after tt jiu debrief le...debrief le den dismiss budden sec 3s still gt some admin stuff...den i tink dey pei sec 4s ma or wad lar....

den tml going out wib sam...looking forward tu it...
-lurv redx-

yoz...haha blogging abt ystd trng...haish...so damn wanna strangle the witch...dun let us see sec 1's isit?! huh...eu tink eu so great ah...let mie tell eu some ting...eu r not okae...eu r lyk shit can....spoil my dae...eu noe...we were all so looking forward tu see the sec 1's...n eu had tu do tis...purposely de rite?!...dun act smart coz eu r so not!!...

trng was sort of a rehearsal...all bcoz of the witch...dun wanna tok abt her anymore...sec 3's took so much time tu plan n eu give us tis crap...anyway...we played wif water...den i was half wet half dry...sec 3's..eu guys were great...haha den after tt we played hai dai...or wadeva..dunnoe how tu spell..after tt sec 3's dismissed us, but hu noes still gt foot drill..haii..den cara took over n jestina taught va...va, i hope eu can become same standard as us...haha..but i tink eu r a fast learner so shd b fine...den while we doing foot drill jocelyn n soh ee were scolding sec3's...so kan bu shun yan can...sec 3's doing pumping but we doing foot drill...reallie wanna help dem but how?...cara aso wun let de...dey will sae ish none of business...but how can eu watch ur seniors bei ma den eu do nth...how can?...maybe sec 4's can but i can't...after practising foot drill fer quite long...den cara dismissed us...we had debrief wif cara n jestina...but as dey were toking..sec 3's were doing pumping...so can bu guo yan...we sitting in shelter but dey outside in the sun doing pumping...den she so extra...ppl kana scolded so badly liao den eu still go n jia yan jia cu...irritating can...eu r another one i can't stand...can eu pls change...haish...eu all always ask us tu change, our attitude n attendance...we tried n we did...our attitude prob...we r okae le...we dun gib faces...but eu all lei...hab eu all changed?..no still the same chou lian..expect our respect in return?!...haish...dun sae le...

den i was surprised coz usually jocelyn vehh gd de lei...n cara always lyk face black black...den todae ish switch over...jocelyn kept scolding n scolding...n cara was nice tu us...i juz dun get it...do ppl's character change frequently?...maybe dey do...i dun wanna go n bother...haish...juz hope next trng CAN get tu see sec 1's n jocelyn dun be so fierce tu sec 3's....tt's gd enough...
-lurv redx-